I don't know what to do with myself

so I go out to sit on the balcony

at night in the cold

maybe it will help to ground me

or make me sick again

I stare up at the dark starless sky

and think about you looking at it too

honestly what a great time to be alive

I'm freezing now so it's time to go back

I bide farewell to the big bug beside me

and make my way inside