I decided to wait on the car at the exclusive parking lot right after the game. I didn't want to mingle with Tori, Rebecca and the players because I'll just feel out of place and even if I wanted to see Mat. I don't think he wants to see me.

So I went here.

The stupid thing was just I forgot to ask Tori with the car keys so I ended up seating in front of the car waiting for Tori. I know it'll take longer than an hour for them to finish mingling inside and what not but I can fathom the boredom rather than being inside seeing Mat but having no chance to talk or even touch him.

I sighed, folding my arms. The night is cold, my nights has been so called ever since, and I hated it. It reminds me of the fact that I am alone, again.

I decided to roam around the area for a bit. Slowly walking around and see some few fans around wearing Islander jerseys, probably some of them are waiting for player's vehicles to pass and cheer for them one last time.

Isles fans are one of the greatest fans in the league and they always cheer for the team win or lose. I remembered doing this with my parents too, both of them drags me with them to the Logan Airport to wait for the Bruin's team to arrive and cheer for them. My parents are ice hockey hooligans, speaking of which I haven't told them about what happened between me and Mat actually.

Because I don't have the guts to tell them because the break up was all because of me, and I don't want them to think that Mat is an asshole for hurting me because he is not.

Yes, he kissed Pauline but he already cleared things up and I believed him. It's just my insecurities and trust-issues to blame now and not Mat.

I stick there for a while right before heading back to the car, a black cadillac car suddenly stopped few meters away from me that made me stop on my tracks. Heck! I know that car.

It's Barzal's car.

I was surprised when he gets out from the passenger seat. But aside from that, I am also worried looking at his arms surrounded with bandages everywhere and there's also two bandage strips on his cheek and temples.

"Jade." He mouthed. He looked so surprised seeing me here.

"How hurt are you?" I wanted to say hi but I wasn't able to stop those words from coming out of my mouth.

He just raised his arms a bit. "All in all I'm good."

And then it was dead silence. We just stood there staring at each other's eyes, I didn't feel any awkwardness right there only longing. But then Mat break everything and closed the gap between us.

He's hugging me now, real tight and I just lose myself. I hugged him back, I miss this. I miss him.

I miss his smell, I miss his huge arms wrapped around my waist. I miss his face resting on my shoulders and his breath on my neck.

I missed us.

We stayed there, longer than it should be. I don't want this to end, I want to stay like this forever.

However, the sweet quick bliss got interrupted when someone called Mat behind my back. I turned and it was an older man driving his car.

He released me and I suddenly felt empty.

"I couldn't drive." He said gesturing on his arm again.

"Time to go son!" The man called up.

"I'll see you around?" He said as he walks away from me and I only nodded.

I can't find my voice, I don't want to find my voice while he's around because I'll just end up crying. Just in time he gets back inside the car and the tail lights starts blinking as it moves away, my tears fell down.

"Guess, I'll only be seeing you around."

She still does that weird thing to me--no scratch that!

I love her still.

I have never fallen in love with a girl before and it just hurts to think that we chose to end it up like this.

"Who was that?" My mom who's seating next to me in the passenger seat asked. My family flew from Vancouver to watch my game. They always does every time Islanders gets into the semi-finals.

"Based on the looks of it that girl was not just a friend." My father who's currently driving supplied.

"Was that one of your girlfriends Mat?" My sister seating on the front seat added. Now they are starting to roast me, for sure.

"Speaking of girlfriend when will we meet the girl named Jade?" My mom asked. "Or was that Jade right there?"

"Yeah." I flatly answered.

"Why didn't you introduced us?" My little sister asked.

"Because what's the point? We're over. She broke up with me." I replied sounding bored just so they can stop on roasting me but the truth is, I really wanted someone to talk to about this mess I have been feeling.

I've been keeping this all in, and the aggression I have on the ice is the only thing I have to let it all out but it's still not enough. I need ears, I need a person--people to listen to me.

"Is this all the reason behind hurting yourself every time during games son? Involving yourself on fights on the ice all the time?" My mom sympathetically asked and I just snapped into telling all of them my frustrations, all the hurt I have been carrying inside.

I told them everything that have happened, only to recieve but a little snicker from my Dad.

"Aren't you a Barzal man, son?" He commented. "Yes, we like girls chasing us. But when you want to win a girl, you chase them yourself even if it means doing the stupidiest, silliest, dumbest thing in the world."

My sister snickered. "Wow I can't believe I just heard that from you Dad."

It made me smile too. My Dad is my best bud, we talk hockey all throughout my life but I haven't heard him giving me some love advise.

"If I were you son, I'll use my influences to win a girl back." He added.

Yes, Dad is probably right.

Now that I am no longer playing and have all the time of my life, I might as well start working on winning my girl back.

I love her, so why would I stop myself from winning Jade? After seeing her at the parking lot earlier, after we shared that long hug, I can really tell that she still loves me. That she still wants me back into her life.

All I have to do now is to start thinking about how will I convince her to get back with me. Heck! I'll even force her to get back with me, no shit. I will just have to ask the right people for help.