I knocked on Jade's door a hundred times but she's not opening it. I was just in there sitting on her door not wanting to leave.

I don't care if I'll sleep here tonight. I didn't gave enough explanation, I don't want to lose her. For fuck's sake! My life was never been better when she arrived and now that I'm losing her, I don't think I can handle it.

"Mat?"

Someone called up but I didn't bothered to look up, I'm not exhausted on my travel back up in here, but I am so fucking drained. I didn't even noticed that there are splotches of tears on my shirt at the moment.

"Mat, have some rest."

It's Tori.

"Give yourselves some time to think. Give yourselves some space. Come on Mat."

She tapped me on my shoulders trying to help me in getting up, part of me doesn't want to but she is right. I should give Jade some space to think about and maybe, just maybe, she'll listen to me and we can work our relationship.

I want her forgiveness.

The next day, I woke up really early to catch Jade. Fuck! I didn't even get much sleep to be honest. All night, all I was thinking is on how will I fix it. I know, I deserve this but it doesn't have to end this way. The kiss was an accident! I didn't even want that in the first place.

Cheat? I would never do that to her. God knows how much I love her!

Just in time I got out from my room, I saw her hauling over boxes out from her room. When she spotted me with her puffy eyes, she just glared past through me but I am quick to stop her.

"Are you moving out?" I asked quickly. "Jade, it shouldn't have to be this way."

"What do you mean?"

"Why are you moving out?" I cried.

"Because I am bound to move out!" She cried out as well. "Like I always have planned right before I moved in here."

Shit! I knew that. But I am pissed off and at the same time sad, frustrated, surprised all the fucking negative emotions I can name!

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"For what? And what's even the point of telling you Mat?" She said.

It took me few seconds right before I sighed calming myself. There's no room for acting like a five year old kid here, I am winning my girl back. I need to man up!

"Jade, can we please fix this?"

She stared straight to my eyes. "I don't know."

That's the only thing she said and quickly walked away. Fuck! She doesn't know. I screwed up! I fucking screwed everything up.