Pauline didn’t stop from texting me apologizing about what she did last night at the bar. To be perfectly honest, that made me furious!

I already told her that everything between us is over and that I already have a girlfriend. I seriously didn’t see that kiss coming, she was with Derick and Lauren last night when we arrived at the bar she was really drunk and been throwing herself on me even if I brush her off. She then kissed me out of nowhere for like five seconds.

I haven’t told Jade yet.

I didn’t get the chance to tell her personally. I don’t want to fess up through text or a phone call because that’s a dick move. However, when I went home early this morning to get my bags to go here in Tampa for a game she already left for work.

I spent the night at Derick’s house last night after we went to the bar for a few drinks. Few drinks means half a beer drink, our team’s nutritionist is kind of strict about drinking during the game season and I just happen to feel very guilty and scared to face Jade after what Pauline did to me even if I would say that I didn’t like it in the first place.

I know it’s fucking weird to feel this but that was last night. Now, I am a man enough to tell her about what happened but only in person once I get back home from Tampa then I will. And speaking of Jade, she’s not returning any of my texts and calls either since last night.

Jezz! Here we go again.

Why do I get the feeling that there’s something off again?

Right before I left the hotel room to ride the team bus heading to the arena, I tried calling Jade again but all my calls just went straight to the voice mail. I sighed for the third time when she didn’t answered again.

“Hey babe, call me back please. What is going on?” I said wishing that Jade responds to that once I get back from my game tonight.

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The sore lose against Tampa stings!

Knowing that we have to lose one of our alternate captains Clutterback for at least two games due to some hip injuries. Tampa is one of the best teams in the league and is currently on the number one spot for scores this season, they are unstoppable.

As everyone catches our breathes and contemplate on our very first lose this year in the guest locker room, Coach T together with the coaching staff gathered around barking all the mistakes we’ve done during the games. On how we basically messed up the strategies we have planned prior to the game, no, actually I was the one who messed it up. But I know Coach T won’t bark on me while everyone is here and all the cameras are on, they don’t want to tell people in the world the stupidity of one of the top players in the team.

Right after we leave the arena, I was indeed called by Coach T on the private room of the coaches. I sighed as I walked in there bracing myself for the actual rant, when I entered the room there’s only the two of us and without any second since I arrived Coach already threw an annoyed question.

“What’s wrong with you?”

“I’m sorry Coach. I was just trying to change the plan last minute for us to score.”

“And what did that changes left us? We lose Clutterback for two games!” He said in complete frustration. “And two games is not even sure! What if we lose him for the whole season left because you can’t stick to the fucking plan?”

“You know, we can still bounce back from this Coach even without Clutterback.” I replied.

“I know that. But this is not just about tonight Barzy.” He started.

“I know Coach, and I am very sorry for that.” I apologized again because I am well-aware that what happen to my teammate was because of my fault.

“Not losing another game should be the number one thing on your head right now Mat if you want to make it to Stanley Cup championship.” He said before he dismisses me.

I know that, my team is pretty well when it comes to scores and shit but we had already lose a lot of games that affects our standings during the playoffs season. Few more loses and we’re out in the playoffs, fuck! Losing stings to be honest. I hate losing but I am not a sore loser either, yet as along as we can still win games to make it to the semi-finals, I will.

When I arrived at my hotel room, I immediately called Jade again to tell her what happened with the game and how shitty I felt for screwing the whole game. Finally, she answered the call.

“Hey baby, took you one whole day to answer me.” I said chuckling. I need to hear her voice during this time. I really need something that will calm me down and that is Jade.

“Sorry, I’ve been busy.” She quickly replied sighing. “What’s up?”

“We lose the game, and Coach T was pretty annoyed with me. I screwed the game tonight.” I started opening up releasing a long breath as I settle myself on the hotel bed.

She sighed. “I see. You’re fund of screwing good things yourself, aren’t you?”

I chuckled. “Wait—was that a slam?”

“What do you think?” She replied with a complete edge on her voice this time. For few months of dating this woman I certainly know when something goes wrong.

“Hey, are you okay?” I asked. “What’s wrong?”

A long minute of silence on the other line took over right before I heard a sigh. “Nothing. I—I’m just tired. I gotta go.”

She then hang up right before I bid goodbye. What’s the matter with her?

Dang it! Jade’s giving me another reason to be so distracted during the games. I won’t be home for weeks because of the upcoming All-Star game and my girlfriend bother’s the heck out me.

Perfect! Is this one of the disadvantages of being in a relationship? Worrying more than you already have?

Seriously, I hate it.