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« The ceremony was beautiful » Adrian said

"Yeah I loved it too" I replied

We are in the car going back to our house, today was Erin and Leo's wedding. After two years of relationship they decided to tie the knot. I am happy for them because they are perfect for each other.

"Erin is a wonderful woman and I am sure she will be a good wife too" He added

"Yes she is but Leo is a great guy too, so Erin is a lucky one to be his wife"

He didn't answer but clench his hands tightly on the steering wheel instead. I looked at his face which changed too. What did I say?

"What?" I asked

"Nothing"

"Of course there is something look at your face" I added

After a moment he said with a fragile voice

"Would you have agreed if he was the one who asked to marry you?"

I widened my eyes at his words. He was feeling lower and think that my problem was with him but in fact it's the idea of the marriage itself which sacred me. I forgive him long time ago and gave him my trust too. I didn't think that my behaviour will make him so insecure.

"Adrian...I "

"I know that he is a better man than me and maybe if I didn't come back in your life maybe you would be at Erin's place today"

I gasped with shock and raise my voice

"No it's not true I forbid you to say that"

I heard Lucas who was sleeping in the back seat moving so I lowered my tone

"Let's continue this once at home" I added and the ride went completely silent after that.

I tugged my son to bed and made my way to my room where I expected to find Adrian but he was not there. I decided to remove my makeup, take a shower and wear something comfortable before looking for him.

I found him in the garden near the swimming pool with a drink in his hand. He was still in his clothes expect his vest, the first buttons of his shirt were undone and the sleeves were lift up to the elbows. He was looking straight ahead lost in his thought.

"Don't you think it's little late for a drink" I asked standing near him, not really knowing what to say or how to start

He stayed still not even giving me a look.

"Adrian please... talk to me" I said touching his shoulder

"What do you want me to say" He replied with small voice

"Tell me what are you thinking, I know it's about what I said earlier but I don't understand why it affects you that much"

He stared at me for a moment before finally talking

"You want to know why?" he asked and I nodded

"Because I feel like I am not worth to you, like I am not good enough for you. I am not the man you want to marry!"

It's the first time he spoke about this subject. Usually after my multiple refusal he said I understand and drop the topic so I never thought this will affect him this much.

"Adrian I dare you to say that you are a great man"

"Not as great as Leo" He whispered but I heard him

"Why do you compare yourself to him where is the confident man I know you are Adrian?"

"I am not longer confident when it comes to you" He said looking everywhere except to me. His words broke my heart I didn't realize that I made that to him

I walked to him and took his face in my hands

"Baby I love your confidence and even your arrogance when it's about our love so don't feel like that I beg you. I am sorry if my words or my actions made you feel this low because thrust me you are the man and the love of my life, don't ever forget that... I love you so so much and no one can reach your position in my heart never" He kept looking at me with watering eyes and I felt my tears too in the edge of my eyes.

"Do you understand?" I asked shaking his head in my palms.

"It's just when you spoke about Leo..."

I cut him off

"Are you still jealous of him"

"Of course I am" he said detaching himself from me

"Please honey he is happily married now and so in love with Erin"

"Yes but that don't erase the fact that you were together and I know that he has a special place in your heart" He said gulping the rest of his drink

"Yes but just as a friend nothing more" I said calmly

"I hate it... I hate the thought that he kissed you, touched you I am going crazy just thinking about it, it made me want to kill him and kill myself because I am the reason behind all of this, so when you said that Erin is lucky to have him I couldn't take it" Adrian said or more shouted and smashed his glass on the floor

"Adrian calm down" I screamed and hugged him from behind.

He was breathing hard trying to calm his nerves, I cried on his back wetting his shirt in the process. He faced me and took me in his strong arms whispering sorry again and again until I calmed down.

Once I felt better I looked straight in his eyes and found him crying silently, his eyes red and cheeks wet. I used my thumbs to dry his tears.

"I love you so much Adrian and I never stopped..."

He let out a deep breath and replied

"Not as much as I love you Eli... you were, are and will be the only one for me, just bear with my stupid and jealous self please"

I chuckled at his words

"I won't change this stupid and jealous man for anything"

We sealed this moment with a passionate kiss.

"You are mine don't you" He asked with a vulnerable voice caressing my lips with his thumbs and with eyes full of love and passion

"Yes yours only yours... and for your peace of mind let me tell you a little secret" I said. He narrowed his eyes at me so I lift my mouth to his ears

"I've never been intimate with anyone other than you...not even Leo" I whispered seductively biting his earlobe. I felt the pressure of his hands on my waist increase and I smiled at the effect.

In one move he threw me on his shoulder and run to our bedroom spanking me when I asked for him to put me down when in the reality I didn't want him to....