I have become a wound that wonders down the streets

Escaping the memories, sometimes I reach a point that I talk to myself

Wael Jassar Lebanese singer

Elissa pov*

I am walking on the street completely lost like a stranger in a new country, a wound walking. Adrian is a person for my past now. A person who took 3 years of my life and throw it in the trash. Trash exactly that what I am for him now he clearly makes clear it to me when he gave me my things.

Flashback

As agreed I came back to Mr Richards office to get the photo albums. I wanted them just to make sure these past three years were real and if one day my child ask about his father I will be able to tell her or him who her or his Dad was like and for explain to my child that for me it was the fruit of love no matter what happened.

I entered the office after knocking, I found Adrian and his lawyer and Mr Richards stood up to welcome me while Adrian glared at me I felt like a déjà vu.

"Good morning Ms garner"

I just nodded and he added "Take a sit please Ms Garner"

"No thanks can you just give me the albums please so I could go"

"Yes of course" He went behind his desk and bring a trash bag and handed it to me. I looked at him surprised why he gave me a trash bag? He understood my reaction and spoke

"This is your things and the albums you asked for" He said unable to look to my eyes. I stared at Adrian who was standing glaring at me with a smirk.

"Why you put my stuffs in this bag you don't have any luggage in your house?" I said calmly to Adrian

"Well I have a lot of them and a luxury ones but I believe you deserve just a trash bag not more. So take your trash and get out" He replied on the same tone.

I wanted to slap him, tearing off his shirt, to suppress his smile but I did nothing I looked at him with anger and disappointment. How can a person change like this from a loving husband to a cruel monster?

I muttered a small thank you took the bag and made my way to the door, before going out I turned towards Adrian and said

"I hope you will find happiness and I wish you a good life"

He said nothing and turned towards the window giving me his back.

Flashback end

Now a new life has to begin for my baby and me. A new start and for this I need a job a place to stay I couldn't stay in Hailey's place more. She proposed me to live with her but I am not comfortable with it I don't want to take advantage of her kindness. I need to make it for myself too, I've always been independent and now I have to be like that more than before.

But before any change I am going to return to my hometown, stay with my siblings for a while ; lie on my mom's lap, eat her delicious food, cuddle with my brother and sister, have fun and try to forget all this grief and warm my heart. After that I will be able to come back and make a fresh start and another life without Adrian.

I came back from my hometown completely recharged. I stayed there for two weeks.

My mother took care of me I felt loving. We spoke late at night, for the first time I asked her how her life was after my dad dead when I was 2. My dad had an accident with his taxi I didn't have any memories about this. She said after that she found herself alone with a child but she never gave up, worked hard and two years later Mum met Doug my stepfather but he considered me like his daughter and the same for me. He is a good man and I never felt difference between me my brother and my little sister. We are a happy family, we are not rich but my parents always bring us all we need. I couldn't say anything to my parents or my siblings about my divorce or my pregnancy I didn't want to upset them. When they asked me about Adrian I lied saying he is in a business trip I was not proud but I know they will worry about me I know I have to tell them one day but I wait to settle my life.

After my return I went to my late boss Peter, he owns several coffee and restaurants around the city so maybe he could help me. I told him about everything and he agreed to give me a job but I asked to be in the coffee shop in the other side of the town I want to change everything in my life even my neighbour. Hailey helped me find a small apartment with one bedroom, a living room and a small kitchen but it's very cute. I already purchased a few furniture just the main ones because I don't have a lot of money. Fortunately I didn't spend all my money that I saved from my previous jobs before my wedding.

So after one month, I am divorced, I started a new job, I have a new apartment and a broken heart.