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The bell rang, signalling the end of our lecture. It was the only one I had today. Isabella and Joe did the same course, so they both had another one at 10:00. It was 09:30, now.

My mind was just thinking about Nathan the whole time. I couldn't even stop for a second. I was sure I didn't even hear anything during the lecture, which was really bad for me because Medicine was extremely difficult.

I couldn't believe I almost kissed him. But do you blame me?

When I was a little kid, I was always dreaming of marrying a white guy. I knew it was totally ridiculous. However, I was not ashamed. A girl is allowed to dream, people.

Anyway, I continued dreaming and dreaming and at one point I saw a picture of a nice looking white guy on Google Go. I ended up downloading all of his pictures, and created an album on my phone filled with only his pictures.

I was that obsessed.

So, can you imagine how I felt when a handsome white guy started talking to me?! Of course I developed a crush almost immediately. I really really wanted to kiss him but I'm not sure if I'm ready for all that. A relationship, to be more specific.

I was never going to be good enough for anybody. I wasn't beautiful enough, I was hella crazy and laughed at stupid things! Who would have want to date someone like me?

I doubted Nathan wanted to.

I just wished I was able to read minds. It would be so much fun. Because right now, I was wondering what was going on in Nathan's mind during our almost-kiss.

I liked him...and I wasn't going to deny it. But like always, I was forced to bury those feelings to the back of my head. It was not like he liked me back, anyway.

No one ever would.

Okay, back to reality. I was currently sitting in the cafeteria. All of us were there, except for Joe. I wondered where he went. I was just getting to know Reese, while Isabella and Nathan were chatting.

"What's your favorite colour, Reese?" I asked him, taking a long sip on my milkshake. "Green," he replied. I nodded. He seemed to be a chill guy. It was fun to talk to him.

"What's going on between you and Nathan?" He inquired with a raised eyebrow. I almost choked on my milkshake. Almost. "N-nothing," I stuttered. Bella and Nathan were already watching us, tuning in on our conversation.

I looked at Nathan for help, my eyes widening slightly. He just sighed and said nothing. "I saw you almost kiss him. Don't try denying the fact that you have a crush on him," Reese kept pushing.

All I could do was blush and say gibberish. "I-I...I don-" Nathan cut me off, "You don't have to answer that, Vanessa. Reese, what the heck is your problem?"

Reese's head snapped towards Nathan. "And why are you getting so worked up about it, Grove? Do you have a crush on her?" Silence.

We all watched as Nathan closed and opened his mouth like a fish. "Since it looks like you can't hear me, let me rephrase my question. Do. You. Like. Her?" Silence, again.

It looks like Nathan couldn't come up with an answer. His mouth was closed tightly. Knowing the answer, I answered for him with a side of an eye roll,"No he doesn't."

All heads turned to me. "Don't be so sure, Van," Reese said. My eyebrows knitted in confusion. "Reese, what the heck are you trying to do?!" Isabella shouted at him.

"I am trying to put these two together. I can feel the sexual tension," he replied, shuddering.

"Well, I don't like your methods, Reese. If they're destined to be together, then they will be. Due time. You can't control these things. Plus, you're going to make things more awkward for them!" Isabella argued for us, her brown eyes ablaze.

They already are, yo. I couldn't even look at Nathan, right now. But I could feel his eyes burning holes on the side of my face. I just played it cool, like I always do, constantly sipping my chocolate milkshake.

Reese sighed,"I'm sorry Nate...and Van." I rolled my eyes and scoffed. "Do you know how embarrasing that was? More embarrasing than your dad seeing your used pad that you forgot to throw away," I told him.

"More embarrasing than seeing your mom naked," Nate added. I smiled at him, knowing we were in this together. We were thinking of the same thing. It was seriously like he read my mind.

"More embarrasing than your classmates calling you Dot, because they saw a dot of blood on your white jeans, once," I added again. "More embarrasing than y-"

"Okay! I think I get your point, guys," Reese immediately interrupted Isabella. He already had flushed cheeks. "That's what you get!" I said, and raised my hand for a high five.

Isabella gave me one, followed by Nathan.

All three of us laughed at him until he finally had enough. My milkshake was finished already, only because Nathan had asked for a sip earlier which turned into more than one.

I glared at my now empty cup and then raised my glare to Nathan. He was already staring at me. "What?" He asked. I pouted, sticking out my bottom lip.

"You finished my milkshake!" I whined. "No I did not," he defended himself, while chuckling. "This is not funny, Nathan!" I whined, again.

He rolled his eyes but he still had his signature smirk. "Fine, then. If it makes you feel better, Princess, I'll buy another one for you," he suggested.

My pouty face morphed into a bright smile. "Yes, please!" I exclaimed, jumping up and down on my seat. Nathan grinned at my childish reaction. "You are just too cute for your own good, Princess."

I shrugged and batted my eyelashes.

"Okay, love birds, I have class to attend to. Will see you when I see you," Bella said, and stood up, taking her things with her. Reese was already gone. Hmm...I didn't see him leave.

"Well, let me take you home," I heard Nate say. I nodded and stood up with him. By the way, students were definitely staring at us, but I couldn't care less. Actually, we couldn't care less.

Others thought we were a couple. Well, they could definitely imagine that, since it would never happen.

We entered his car, and left the university. "I don't think we finished the question game, yesterday," I said to him. He nodded and said,"Yeah. We didn't. What is your favourite meal?"

"Pizza!" I sang. "Yours?" I asked. "It's pizza, too," he answered. I nodded,"That's good." It was slightly awkward for a while.

"If you had to get a or another tattoo, what would it be and why?" He asked his questions. "Well, I don't know. Maybe the following words: You're beautiful just the way you are. Never think otherwise," I replied.

"That's deep. But why? Don't you think you are beautiful?" I sighed, not believing I was going to share my insecurities with him. "Yeah. I've always told myself I'm not. I have a lot of things I'm insecure about, Nathan. Let's just leave it there, I don't want to talk about it."

He nodded, though it seemed like he wanted to grill me for more. "I would get a tattoo of the 21st of February," he told me. "Why?" I inquired. "Because it's the day I met you, Princess," he replied. I scoffed, but couldn't prevent the big smile that appeared on my face or the heat rising up to my cheeks.

"That is so cheesy," I said. "No it's not. It came straight from the heart," he said the last words trying to imitate my voice. Which he failed miserably to.

"Are you mocking me?" I asked, with a gasp. "Nah. I'm not. Now, moving on, where do you live?" I forgot I didn't give him the address. "Mayville Park, South Street, house number 48," I replied.

"Thanks," he said and kept quiet. Suddenly, a question popped in my mind. "Would you rather eat a can of dog food or lick fresh dog poop?" I asked popping the 'p's.

He grimaced. "That is so disgusting, Nessa. To answer your question, I would rather eat a can of dog food. Who in their right minds would lick fresh dog poop?!" I snorted.

"Yeah. Same here," I agreed. "What do most people overestimate or underestimate about you?" Nathan questioned. I huffed and crossed my arms, thinking about the day he underestimated me.

Yesterday.

"Well, you underestimated me. You thought I wasn't smart," I answered. "How was I supposed to know? I had just met you!"

I pouted. "That's not enough justification."

"Says who?" He asked. "Says me!" I yelled. He laughed at me. I was feeling so comfortable around him. This was the true me. The crazy me and the totally childish me.

Remember, yesterday I was completely serious.

"Next question, Nate. If you could choose your own name, what would it be and why?" I asked. I was really curious about this one. "Troy. Because it suits me better," he replied.

I checked him out for a few seconds. "That's true," I mumbled. "I would name myself Eirenae. Because it's a very cute name and it is so nice to pronounce," I said, a little louder this time.

"I guess. Next, who knows you the best?" He asked me. "No one. No one besides myself. Even my best friend who claims to know everything about me, knows absolutely nothing," I whispered.

"I um...not going to ask. At least, yet. The person who knows me the best is my cousin. The one I drop off-"

"-every morning at the bookstore he works at," I finished for him. Don't be so shocked, I wasn't one to forget what my crush told me. I could tell Nathan was surprised.

His eyebrows were raised and he seemed to have opened his mouth. He didn't say anything, though.

Soon, we arrived in front of a red gate. That was home. You couldn't really see what was inside, because of the tall walls, surrounding the yard.

"Thanks, Nate. I will see you soon. I don't have any classes tomorrow," I informed him as I took my backpack and opened the car door.

"Well, I was hoping we could hang out after my class," he said. I nodded. "That can be arranged," I told him and closed the door.

Just as I was about to open the gate, I realized I forgot to do something. I turned around and Nathan got out of the car. I walked towards him and stood right in front of him.

I smiled wide and wrapped my arms around his neck. "What are you doing?" He whispered. I simply smiled wider and then stood on my tiptoes.

When that was done, I pulled him closer...

And I hugged him!

You all thought I was going to kiss him. Ha! Jokes on you. I hugged him tight and he wrapped his strong arms around my waist. Our bodies fit perfectly together, as cliché as it sounds.

I kissed him on the cheek, leaving some lip gloss. I lingered there for a few seconds and then stepped back, turned around and walked towards the gate again. I opened it and got inside, not before seeing a stunned Nate.

I laughed at him and closed the gate.

I walked towards the front door, having a sudden bounce in my steps. I couldn't believe I just did that! But I'm glad I did. I smiled to myself and went to my room.

I passed by the kitchen, dining room and living room. I saw the familiar pink door of mine and opened it. I got inside my room and threw my backpack on the bed.

I sat down on the corner of it and took out my phone. I was bored so I just started scrolling through Facebook, laughing at some hideous pictures people posted.

Unexpectedly, I got a message. I quickly clicked the notification. I could use a conversation, right now. No one was at home with me. Seth was at work, my dad was at work and my mom worked in another town.

She only came back on Fridays.

what was that for?

who is this??

I knew exactly who he was and quickly changed the contact name.

I know you know who I am, Princess

and I asked you a question. Why did you...kiss me?

Well, I guessed he was smarter than I thought.

coz I wanted to

didn't you lyk it?

no. no

of course I liked it

it's just that I didn't think you would do it.

well, I'm full of surprises, Blue Eyes

i actually thought you were gonna kiss me...on the lips

i was lookin forward to it.

I laughed out loud at his message. As much as I wanted to, I would never do it. I may had been forward...but not that forward.

LOL. I may be forward, Blue Eyes. But I'm not that forward...and confident, even

wait, wait.

you said you were looking foward to it

did you want my kisses that bad, Nate?

i'm not answering that, Princess

FYI, I'm still outside your gate...

seriously??

did I stun you for that long? XD

yes you did :)

and I don't like that you have an effect on me, Princess

you're the first girl

you should be honoured.

I had an effect on Nathan? I had an effect on Nathan! Yes! I was blushing so much, right now. The fact that he was admitting to it was unexpected. I didn't even know I affected him in any way.

didn't you have girlfriends before?

i'm sure they had an effect on you.

believe it or not, Princess, I never had a girlfriend

only thing I had were flings

I used to sleep with girls and toss them aside

but not anymore...

what changed your mind?

you

only you, Princess ♡

you should know that I am blushing, right now

why are you such a flirt?

i don't know, really

why don't I come inside and we can watch a movie or something?

is that an excuse for wanting to see me, again?

well, maybe it is, Princess

i'm coming now now then ;-)

sure, Princess

I tapped the exit button on WhatsApp and turned off my phone. Looking at my mirror first, checking if my wig was still in place. Fortunately, it was, so I just walked out of my room.

I went outside and took out the gate remote. I clicked it and the gate slowly opened. Nathan's black Mercedes was in sight. He was here.

I stood by the front door. When the whole gate opened, he entered the yard and parked his car next to my one story home.

He got out and smiled at me. He started walking towards me and then stood in front of me. I smiled back. "Hey," I greeted him. "Well, are you going to invite me inside?" He asked.

"Oh, yeah! Come in," I said and stepped aside, letting him inside. "I'm sure it's not like the house you're used to," I said, shyly.

His head turned to me. "No, it's not. But I could definitely live here. It's cozy," he complimented. I nodded and took his hand.

He let me lead him to the living room. I sat down on the sofa and patted the spot next to me. He smirked and sat down, too.

I took the remote from the coffee table and turned on the T.V. I gave the remote to Nate and stood up. "Pick a movie. I'm gonna go get us some snacks," I told him and went to the kitchen.

I took out cheese supreme flavoured Doritos, chutney flavoured Simbas and Nick Naks. I mixed them all in one big bowl.

When that was done, I took two Cappy juice cans from the fridge. That was it, I guess.

I walked back to where Nathan was. Setting the snacks down on the coffee table, I had to bend a little because it was short. In front of Nate.

I heard him clear his throat behind me and I froze. "S-sorry," I apologized and immediately sat down. I kept my eyes glued to the T.V as the familiar movie started.

"Don't be sorry. I actually was enjoying the view," he commented with his signature smirk. I smacked him on his arm while saying,"Perv."

"But I'm your perv," he said, as he was rubbing his arm. I rolled my eyes. You got that right. But of course I didn't say it out loud.

I laid my head on his shoulder and he put his right arm around me, as we watched Storks. Yep, Nathan picked out an animated movie.

So unlike him.

I didn't say anything about it but kept watching the movie with my dear crush. I was so lucky. Watching a movie, at my house, with my crush was awesome.

Never forgetting!

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