Time for Chapter 4!!

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Alex p.o.v

I got a message from Hayden. I replied okay and then set my phone back on the table. Liam and I were watching a movie in the living room now watching a movie and the twins were playing around on the floor. Liam and I were just talking, I didn't know if I should bring anything up about earlier or not, but I did anyway.

"Liam are you okay?" I asked slowly.

"I'm fine. What do you mean?" I could tell he was lying.

"Liam, you're not fine. Please tell me. I want to help you."

"Thank you Alex. But what I did can't be helped." He looked off into the distance, not looking at me. He began, "I got mixed up with the wrong people at school. They found out about my past and figure I would have some connections. I just wanted to make friends Alex. I was feeling desperate." By this time tears were coming down his face.

"Connections? What type of connections."

"Alex, drugs! I gave people drugs!" He yelled and tears began to fall down his face. I ran over to him and hugged him. He just sobbed. I felt so bad because I couldn't do anything about it. All I could do was hold him as he cried.

Liam eventually fell asleep, and so did the twins. I helped and put Liam on the couch and the twins in their cribs. I knew the twins would be up in a couple of hours for a feeding so I just laid in bed doing homework until Hayden got home.

I finished my AP Bio homework and looked at the clock. It was almost 2 o'clock! Hayden wasn't back yet. What could be keeping him so late? I heard Luka cry signaling he was hungry, and Jada began crying a second later. So I got up and went to feed them.

By the time I got them both feed and put back to sleep it was 3 o'clock. Still no Hayden. I grabbed the baby monitors and went back in my bed and fell asleep. I felt the bed dip and someone put their arm around my waist. It was Hayden. I looked at the clock. It was 4:20 in the morning.

"You smell like alcohol. Were you drinking?" I murmured. Hayden moaned trying to kiss my neck, but I pushed him away.

"No, no. The guys were." He stuttered, the smell of alcohol string on his breath. He tried kissing me again, and again I pushed him away.

"Hayden. I don't know what's wrong with you but I don't feel like dealing with it now." I grabbed a blanket and a pillow and went out to the living room and laid down and fell asleep on the loveseat that was next to sleeping Liam.

7 o'clock came too soon. My alarm went off and Jada and Luka started crying. And now I had to get ready for school. Liam woke up and said he would take care of the twins while I showered and got ready.

I walked passed my bedroom and Hayden was still sprawled all over the bed, looking like a mess.

"We're going to talk later." I said.

He grunted and stuttered, "don't talk so loud." He threw the covers back over his head. I sighed loudly and walked out of the room to the bathroom. I turned on the shower, stripped of my clothes and got in letting the warm water hit my body.

After I got out of the shower. I dried my hair and put it into a messy bun. I put on some makeup so I didn't like like a complete zombie. I went into my closet and out on skinny jeans, a sweatshirt and a pair of high top shoes. I got my school stuff around and went to the nursery where the twins and Liam were.

"Thank you so much. Do you want a ride, I'll wait for you to get ready?"

"Yes please. If you feel like waiting."

"No problem. You can just grab some of Hayden clothes from the closet." He said thanks and left the room. I got clothes from the twins small closet and dressed them. I also got their day bag packed since my mom said that she would take the again for the day.

15 minutes later Liam was ready and already out the door. He had taken Luka's car seat and I still had Jada's. I was going to say bye to Hayden first.

"I'll see you later tonight. Love you." If you plan on coming home I said to myself. Hayden muttered love you too and rolled over in his stomach, revealing his back. My heart had stopped, his back was covered, scratches going all the way up his back. I couldn't breathe, I felt like I was closed in a small space.

I must be overreacting. It could be something else. I kept trying to tell myself. I grabbed Jada's car seat and my purse and left the apartment.

I began driving to my mom's house to drop off the twins. The car ride was really quiet. I didn't really have much to say and neither did Liam. I got to the house and my mom is always super excited to take the twins. She even told me that she had lined up a couple of people that Hayden and I could interview to be a babysitter for the twins. That was really helpful.

After we left it was only a few minute drive to the school, the mood have definitely lightened because now Liam and I were listening and singing to the radio. By the time we got to school we were both in a better mood. But I still haven't forgotten about what I saw from Hayden.

When we got there I got out of the car and went to Liam's side of the car. Right when he got out I hugged him.

"Don't give into the pressure. You'll be okay. If you need anything I'm somewhere around this school." I told him.

"Thank you Alex. It really means a lot." He hugged me back. "Now let's get to class." Liam said sarcastically. Liam was a sophomore this year. He was actually excited to come to a public school instead of his private school in England.

We got into the school and went our separate ways. I went to find Sophie because I needed to tell her what I saw about Hayden.

I found Sophie and we went into the bathroom and I told her everything. From he said he'd be coming home late, and the alcohol and the scratch marks. By the end I was in tears. I know I shouldn't be crying, but I was scared. I loved him so much, I didn't want anything to happen between us.

"I'll going to cut of his baby making parts. He isn't going to have anymore kids." She said angrily.

"Sophie, but I just don't know. I don't want to lose him." I didn't want to ask him because I didn't want him to think I was crazy and jealous. The five minute until class bell rang. "I'll see you later." I said to Soph and we both walked out of the bathroom.

School is boring as usual. But I'm glad the day is over. I found Liam and gave him a ride. While we were driving I asked, "do you wanna go to your house and pick up a few things."

"Yeah. Only if my dad isn't home. If you feel like driving me there." He said quickly.

"I have no problem driving you anywhere." I laughed. I drove over to their house and I waited in the car until Liam came back out 15 minutes later with a few bags in hand and tears on his face. He didn't say anything, he'd talk to me when he needed so I didn't press the subject.

"I have to pick up the twins from my mom's house, you don't mind riding there, do you?" I asked Liam and he just shook his head and still didn't say anything. I got to the house and my mom was ready with the twins. I also told her about what has been going on with Liam.

"Alexandria, If it's okay with you and Hayden. I want Liam to stay with me. I'll take care of him here, not that you're not caring for him I just think that it will help him having an actual mother with a little bit more experience."

"Mom, I think that's a good idea. Please help him. He's struggling now."

"I'll try my best. Now let's go get him form the car." We walked outside and told Liam our plan. He thought it was a good idea. He told us he saw my mom as a mother figure to him and was grateful for the opportunity.

I got the twins and drove back to the apartment. I wondered if Hayden would be there. I didn't know his class hours.

Once I got to the apartment I found that Hayden was not there. I put the twins in rockers in the living room and they soon fell asleep. I went out to the kitchen and make some pizza rolls and mozzarella sticks. After my food was done I walked back out to the living room and started to do my homework.

I got a text from my mom having a list full of babysitters. My mom had done background checks on them and found out some other information but I still wanted to have an actually interview. I thought about waiting for Hayden to do the interviews with but he wasn't home and he probably wouldn't have to deal with the babysitters. I decided to give the first babysitter a call. There were five in total.

The first was a man, his name was Andrew. He was 30 years old. Married with 3 children. His job was being a professional babysitter.

The second was was Jill, she was 24 years old. Young but she has good reviews saying she was experienced in babysitting.

The next was on old lady that was 60 years old, her name was Deanna. She had previously been a nanny for a house of 12 kids but retired from that.

The fourth was a 17 year old girl. Her name was Yolanda. She didn't have much experience but my mom said she sounded nice.

The final was Julie she was a 40 year old widow, with no kids so I didn't know if she had much or any experience.

I called everyone I had set up a date to interview on Saturday at different times. After I finished I called my mom, thanked her and then began doing my homework.

It was four o'clock. I was playing around with the twins on the floor in their nursery and I heard the door open and someone put keys on the table. Assuming it was Hayden, I put the twins in their cribs, grabbed the baby monitor and walked out to the kitchen.

It was Hayden. He was standing with a bouquet of roses and a guilty look on his face.

"I'm sorry. The way I acted last night was completely idiotic. I regret it so much. I'll be honest, I was at a party. There were only a few people there. It wasn't a big deal. I'm sorry. I love you so much."

Because I'm such a sap I started crying. I went over to him and hugged him. I didn't want to say anything, just stop and take in the moment. I whispered I love you into his shirt. We stayed like this for a few more minutes.

"Let's go get the twins and watch a movie. I don't have practice tonight coach had to cancel." Hayden said kissing the top of my head. We pulled away and went and got the twins.

"Okay. I just want to be with you." I was scared if I let him go and accused him of things, I would never get him back.

We went to our bedroom and changed out clothes to something more comfortable. I put on joggers and a sweatshirt and Hayden put on just joggers, no shirt. We walked back out to the nursery. He grabbed Lukas and I grabbed Jada. We put them in their rockers in the living room to help put them asleep.

"What movie do you wanna watch?" Hayden asked.

"Surprise me." I giggled.

Hayden got a movie and put it in the DVD player and the movie began playing. Hayden came and laid on the couch on his back while I laid on his stomach.

Hayden gently rubbed my back in patterns and I started to doze off quickly. I didn't realized how tired I was. I also didn't even get to see what movie was playing.

"I'm sorry." I heard Hayden whisper after a while and I felt him kiss my forehead. He got off the couch and I heard him picking the twins up, assuming to go put them in the nursery.

Thinking he was going to come back and either to get me or lay back down with me, I waited, but he never came back out to the living room. And very sadly I went back to sleep.

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This was kinda a boring chapter but it's still a chapter. :)

For me, as a writer personally I think I am becoming a better writer than I was in my first book, 17PwtP, this book is so much more fun to write. Also I love every single one of you guys that read my books. Your support keeps me going and excited to write.

Welllll anyways, does anyone actually read these things? If you do, thanks, you deserve a cookie and a good meal.

Okay, bye!!