As i packed my gear, and boarded the helicopter alone, I couldn't believe I'm being sent to the all girls institute. I understand that they need someone to do the computers, but I'm not the only person suitable for the job. I don't see why i was the one chosen for this mission. I would much rather any mission. Sure, I'm happy because i get to attack hydra and the red room's worst enemy, but with a girl? I mean come on, why not send someone from my squadron with me? It's not my place to question, but i am infuriated. Hopefully whoever i am paired with doesn't have an outgoing attitude. I want peace and quite, in order to get my state of mind ready for the mission. Failure is not an option, no matter how much I hate the female company.

As i reached the base, i was escorted out by 4 guards. I might specialise in computers, but one can never be too careful. At least they are also very thorough here as well. After we entered the base, going through many twists and turns, and lapping ourselves, i was met with the leader of the organisation. They thought i couldn't memorise where we went. They underestimated me, but i do want my life, as i enjoy it. This is what I've brought up to do, nothing else. I would not be capable of living alone in the real world. Killing and hacking is the only thing I'm good at. Plus, I don't think being a 16 year old killer helps you get jobs, and I'm sure companies would find out. I mean Baskin Robbins knows everything......and i mean everything. I went once on one of my out of country missions, and lets just say, i did not go there again. It gave me the creeps for a non corrupted organisation. This is how i live, and how i will always live, it's inevitable. I cant change fate, so i might as well embrace it and not die in the process.

The leader of which i didn't learn her name, escorted me to her office. There, she handed me a file and told me to look. I did so silently, without making a peep. I wouldn't be here long, I had no need to talk to this woman. After around 10 minutes of me making myself look interested in the file, my mouth parted open for a mere second, as the most beautiful girl walked in. Whatever, its just a girl. She's not special. I wont be here for long, all i need to do is complete the mission then get back to my base in order to prove myself to stick with my own squad, and not these girls.

But this girl, she changed everything. All of those past thoughts disappeared as i saw her whole figure. Was happy to dismiss her at first, but after properly seeing her i was mesmerised. Maybe i could make this mission a little bit longer than it needed to be. I stayed silent for the whole thing, from when she left to get her gear to when we got onto the helicopter together.

As i got into the helicopter, this girls name which i learnt was Emma, from when the woman was addressing her was pushed into the helicopter. She wasn't just pushed in, no she was pushed onto me. As much as i loved seeing her, i was not just going to let this girl walk all over me and make a fool out of me. As much as she looked divine, she was at the bottom of my priority list, and so I shove her off me. Her reaction made me fell bad, but as she must know i value my life over this school boy classic crush on something I know i could never have. That was when it hit me.

With my profession, and hers with our lives being put in danger daily as well as us being with different organisation, nothing could ever happen between us. And so, the feelings i felt for her were pushed all the way out of my body. I didn't need more worries. Plus, this was nothing more than a crunch. I mean I've only seen this girl for a few minutes total. She hasn't spoke and I didn't even know anything about her. Its not like i was in love with her.

Although i pushed my feelings away, I couldn't help but glance in her direction. I needed to savour her, as i knew if everything went well, as it would, we would never see each other again. I couldn't let her beauty go to waste. And so I kept the image of her engraved into my brain. But it was not a face i would forget easily.

She kept catching my gaze, opening her mouth as if to speak and then looked away awkwardly. Why didn't she talk? She obviously had something to say. Unlike me. But i guess it was for the best as we could both focus solely on our mission that way. The glances and awkward tension continued until we landed, and got our gear. As much as i was happy to get this mission over, i wish we had more time in the helicopter, even if it was very awkward.

As i made my way back to the avengers tower still distraught with nat, i was met with a very hostile environment from one person in particular. Which was Wanda. There was no need for a lengthy introduction form everyone as i knew them from the news. Everyone else was very helpful. I told everyone about my past and I was then caught up on everything. From Emma being asked to join S.H.E.I.L.D. And her declining to her being put under close watch in case she was a threat. I understood that no moves were made but the Avengers and they just kept surveillance on her, but I couldn't help but get infuriated. Firstly at the fact that Natasha upset her dearly which resulted in her getting injured. Secondly, that I couldn't do anything to stop her from getting taken. Thirdly, infuriated that she got tangled up all of this mess because of me. I knew that it was her choice not to join S.H.I.E.L.D but the fact that she was caught between the good and bad guys was, my fault. If i told her from the start that people might be after her and trained her to the best of my abilities, she would have had a better understanding of how to deal with everyday life,and all that might happen. I could've helped her from this S.H.I.E.L.D company, by telling her to keep whatever skills she had hidden, to stay under the radar of people like this. But no, i didn't. I messed up everything.

My usual day consisted of going tot he avengers tower in order to do research with everyone else due to their amazing technology. It was the best bet I had. I also stayed behind, whilst the Avengers went put to check possible bases. They always came back empty handed. I then went back to my own house and researched late into the night trying to find anything. I cried every night and now had permanent bags under my eyes. Less than the punishment I deserved for loosing and failing to protect my child. I sometimes felt that the Avengers judged me, and for good reason. It made me feel worse, knowing that she was probably going through a lot worse than what I went through. The anger inside me flared on a daily basis, and I became shorter with everyone. After around 2 months of looking, i could tell everyone was giving me looks of sympathy, due to my looks and short temper. Yet, they never faltered in their effort, in which i commended. I found out that even though, they kept an eye on her as a threat, they all cared about her. Wanda and nat a lot more than the others.

I also heard a lot of some nice and some not, Pep talks form Wanda on how to parent. And that made me flip. I avoided her at all costs. I dint need het to remind me of everything i have done wrong. I also saw Natasha's relationship to her, as i saw emotion in her face each time they came back empty handed. Natasha never showed emotion and it made em realise that i needed to became the mom Emma needed and deserved. We will get her back. I will be the person she has needed all these years. It might be too late for me to become her mother but i will try, and keep going for as long as it takes, until she trusts me enough. But in order for my plan to work, i need my baby back.

When Emma's mom first came to the tower, i gave her disgusted looks for the way she treated Emma. I was so angry, that I couldn't control my emotions, and so I accidentally read her mind. I saw fist hand how she isolated her daughter. She froze her out of her life entire. I understand that she was grieving but so was Emma! I also saw how she felt. The guilt she held was overbearing. I understood that she felt guilty ashes should and that she did in fact care for her daughter, but that didn't excuse her behaviour. I iced her out each time she tried to converse with me. She did not deserve my sympathy. I also dropped many hints on Emma struggling in school due to her having no help, which she already knew from when we first recapped her as she first arrived. But it didn't hurt to remind her,seeing as this was technically all her fault. Even she agreed with it inside her own mins. I couldn't help but read her mind, as she angered me each time I looked at her.

Each time, we came back from an empty base, it took a toll on everyone, especially me and nat. Everyone was loosing hope. She was just a child and the things Natasha told us she went thought made us sick to our stomachs. It affected everyone's mood, as it was getting harder to find out where she could be. Everyone because cranky and mood, and annoyed at any other mission we had to complete, which didn't include Emma. We told Fury that we were worried about the safe guarding of S.H.I.E.L.D which involved Emma not leaking our secrets. Basically the whole reason we had to keep an eye out for her. We didn't tell him about her mom, and said that she had run away. It allowed us to continue looking for her, without getting removed from the case, as we were best suited for the situation. We all needed Emma, especially me. I don't think my heart could take more losses. I missed her. She was like a sister to me. I want her back.

It took a toll on everybody.

Tony stayed in his lab everyday. He barely spoke or ate. He looked tired, as he was up most nights looking for her. He was drinking more as he got more infuriated at not being bale to find her. Even though they didn't know each their for long, he loved her sense of humour. She was like a daughter to him as she reminded him of peter.

Steve was worried for hr wellbeing as she was a child in very harsh conditions.

Bucky was having nightmares each night, as he awoke each night in a cold sweat. He was very worried for Emma, as he remembered what he went through, and what she could possibly be going through. His mental health decreased in a very negative way, yet he kept his emotions under check, in order to stay as himself and not become a danger to everyone.

Natasha cried each night. She didn't want Emma going though what she did. She embraced the feeling in her stomach, as her actions lead to Emma's life being messed up. She stayed silent, she vacate more a servant. She started flinching again.

Wanda, didn't talk to anyone. She also cried at night, about everyone she's lost. She isolated herself from everyone as she didn't want to lose anyone else she gets close to. She was superstitious.

Thor was on Asgard, he didn't know the severity of the situation.

Peter became depressed. Emma was his first love. He left her for Mj and Ned, due to the fact that he couldn't control his emotions around Emma. He really, really liked her, but didn't have the confidence to tell her head on. Mj liked another girl in school and Ned was dating Betty. He just needed confidence like his friends. He felt really bad for ditching her, and leaving her alone, whilst her life fell apart. From her mom and dad leaving her, to being taken. He didn't really enjoy hanging out with anyone.

They were all too focused on finding Emma. They all went on missions, but only did the bare minimum. They all went out with hope and determination whilst going to different hydra bases, yet their moods become worse as they came back empty handed. The standard of the Avengers work increased, and the numbers of hydra bases increased, and so Fury was kept happy, yet none of the Avengers were actually happy. It was never the right base. They even tried ones that apparently not currently up and running in case, but it all turned out as a fluke and worthless. They needed Emma back. She would solve each of their problems.