As Lisa was growing up he had heard countless insults and words of contempt. His irritability used to be uncontrollable along with his impulsiveness. But as he grew up, he no longer cared about what other people said or thought. Their remarks no longer made him angry.

But he never imagined that one day, she who was reluctant to even say a heavy word to someone, because of him, she was crowned with such a ugly word.

Mu Can.

As long as those two words were spoken, Lisa felt that even breathing was too difficult, because she was kind to him, and because she was too kind, she inexplicably endured these dirty words.

It’s all because of him.

Lisa finally understood the reason behind the weird looks that everyone had been giving him in the past two days.

It was impossible for Jennie not to know, but Jennie did not tell him. As for the reason, it was not difficult to guess, but Lisa didn’t feel moved, his anger and regret had swept away all the other emotions in his head, like a prairie fire, spreading uncontrollably.

After physical education class, Lisa looked at the girl’s smile that shone brightly without haze, Lisa opened his mouth but did not say anything.

What would he even say to her? Tell her not to treat him better in the future, and to not let people misunderstand that she likes someone with a handicapped body?

How could that be possible.The fact that Jennie didn’t tell him about this meant that she had already clearly stated her attitude, and she would never change her position just because of other people’s gossip.

Moreover, the matter itself did not lie with Jennie at all, but with him.

Lisa sat in the car and didn’t say a word. It didn’t take him long to figure out how to cut off the possibility of these rumors. There were only two ways to clear this up.

First, he would take the initiative to stay away from Jennie, or he could even leave this place. As long as he left, all disputes will disappear.

Second, he could stand up again.

He knew that the problem wasn’t only because he couldn’t stand up, along with his legs, he was also psychologically disabled, and this made him feel even more inferior when facing Jennie. He had thought that even if he could stand up one day, Aspergers would still accompany him forever.

Asperger’s Syndrome was inherently present and there was no such thing as a “cure”..

But now, Jennie was being talked about because of his crippled legs, and Lisa had the urge to standing up again.

If it was possible to prevent Jennie from being harmed, he could give up his previous persistence, even if it meant giving up his guilt and compensation for his mother.

It turns out that he was actually such an extremely selfish person.

There were clearly two ways to go, and it was clear that he should choose to leave Jennie and go far far away, but as soon as he closed his eyes and thought about how there would be no trace of Jennie in his future, Lisa dared not think about it anymore.

It would be like a fish being out of water.

It will die, just as he would..

He wants to choose the second way.

The scene of the car accident at the time came to the surface of his mind.

His mother’s scream when the out-of-control car crashed, and the way she held him in her arms at the final moment, her eyes still bright. The way his legs hurt after the explosion and how he fell into a complete coma. Finally, the scenes of his grandfather and grandmother pointed at him and saying that he had not only delayed his mother’s life but he also killed her.

Car accidents, explosions, blood, hospitals, scene after scene reappeared in front of his eyes, Lisa’s eyes widened in pain, but he couldn’t see anything in front of his eyes, and the traumatic stress response that hadn’t occurred for a long time suddenly plunged into his mind. ,

He didn’t know where the questioning voice came from, asking him over and over again why he had yet to repent and why the person who died was not him.

If you abandon your previous beliefs, you will suffer retribution, and the people you protect will also suffer retribution…

His breathing became more and more rapid, and Lisa held his hand tightly on the area above his heart. Uncle Chen was shocked by Lisa’s sudden change, and he quickly stepped on the brakes to stop the car.

Uncle Chen opened the car door and asked him anxiously. He grabbed Lisa’s wrist in a hurry. There was a dull pain in his wrist. Lisa looked down in a daze and saw the peace knot on his wrist and the obsidian bead.

“If you abandon your faith, there will be bad luck…” Lisa muttered as he looked at the black bead, “Then let everything fall on me.”

Jennie had nothing to do with it. If there were to be retribution, it should be something he should handle alone.

Uncle Chen was taken aback by his sudden relapse, and when he heard the words Lisa murmured, his eyes turned red for a while, and he called Lisa anxiously.

After a long while, Lisa’s eyes finally focused. He lowered his head and watched Uncle Chen slowly speak, “Call the doctor for me.”

Unbelievable Uncle Chen seemed to have heard some unbelievable words, and was stunned on the spot. After a few moments, his hands started trembling non-stop.

“Contact… I will contact tomorrow… No, I will contact him immediately after I get home…”

Uncle Chen didn’t know what happened, that caused Lisa to finally figure things out and give up his paranoia. Lisa didn’t explain or say anything, and so he didn’t ask. Just the fact that Lisa finally agreed to receive treatment, was enough to make him speechless.

When he returned home that day, Uncle Chen immediately called and contacted the doctor who was in charge of the operation on Lisa when Lisa had just returned from abroad. Although it was possible to have a doctor come to the house to help give Lisa a check up, there was no equipment at home, so it was best to go to the hospital.

Lisa was sitting in the wheelchair, sliding his fingers across the phone screen, quietly looking at the WeChat box that held his chat records with Jennie.

The last WeChat message was sent shortly after he spoke with Jennie at noon, when Jennie had sent him a daily good afternoon message.

Looking at this good afternoon, Lisa sat motionless for a long time. It was not until 9:30, and after a night of self-study at school, that Lisa finally sent a WeChat message to Jennie, telling her that he would not go to school tomorrow.

Less than half a minute after the news was sent, Jennie called. The girl’s voice was mixed with the noisiness in the background.

“What’s the matter?” Jennie asked him, after she said that, she suddenly became nervous, “Does your leg hurt again?”

“Yeah”, Lisa said, “So I won’t go tomorrow.”

“If you feel uncomfortable, it’s important that you rest at home, your body is too weak now”, the girl sometimes acted like a little Tang monk, sometimes she would nag even more than Aunt Chen, but Lisa listened to her quietly as she continued to speak on the phone.

On the other end of the phone, he heard Gaeul who had heard Jennie talking on the phone ask her who she was talking to. Jennie nonchalantly replied, “Lisa.”

Lisa’s heart suddenly hurt, and he hurriedly found an excuse to hang up.

Uncle Chen waited for him to come in after he finished the call, and said, “We have already contacted the doctor, and we will head there tomorrow morning.”

“Yeah,” Lisa remained motionless and nodded.

Uncle Chen took a deep breath and hesitated to ask him, “Is it really okay to go to the hospital tomorrow…”

Lisa’s fear and rejection of the hospital and doctors was too serious, even now, whenever Uncle Chen thought of when Lisa plunged the knife into his leg, he still felt terrible.

“Yes,” Lisa’s tone was unexpectedly calm, “Call me on time tomorrow morning.”

Uncle Chen nodded and closed the door for Lisa.

After closing the door, Uncle Chen’s face collapsed in an instant. He sat on the sofa, and the old man in his fifties and nearly sixties covered his eyes, he was silent but he couldn’t help but cry.

He didn’t tell Lisa that when he first communicated with the doctor, the doctor said that Lisa’s legs had been dragged out for too long, and that it might be difficult to heal.

The doctor said it would be difficult, but Uncle Chen understood that the word “difficult” couldn’t fully express how bad Lisa’s real situation might be.

He sat alone in the living room for a long time, before he wiped his face and returned to his bedroom.

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The next day he was still full of energy, and woke up Lisa as if he didn’t know anything, and then took Lisa to the hospital.

It took a lot of effort for Uncle Chen to postpone the doctor’s other appointments in the morning, leaving the earliest time slot for Lisa.

It hadn’t been too long since he last went to a hospital. When his grandfather passed away, Lisa had also been in a hospital, but today it was not for other people but for himself. The person undergoing the examination was not someone else but him.

At the thought of this, Lisa’s nerves began to tense uncontrollably.

The examination process, as if it had been slowed down, was even more difficult than Lisa had imagined. He was stiff as he listened to Uncle Chen answer the doctor’s questions. He lied on the cold table, listening to the various machines make endless repetitive noise in his ears.

It had been one and a half years since the accident. He has not received any professional examination for one and a half years. Now that he’s finally undergoing one not only do his legs need to be examined but his overall fitness as well.

The whole morning passed, and the doctor’s expression became more and more serious as time went on.

Although Jennie had taught him a lot of expressions, Lisa still couldn’t detect such small emotional changes such as solemnity and seriousness. Only Uncle Chen felt the temperature in his heart getting lower and lower.

The doctor motioned to Uncle Chen to go out with him. Uncle Chen pretended to be relaxed and asked Lisa to wait for a while, and then went out with the doctor.

The doctor took a thick stack of examined films and other things and pointed them to Uncle Chen one by one.

Uncle Chen was very professional and thought he couldn’t understand everything, he could understand roughly what the doctor meant.

He clasped his hands tightly together, “You don’t need to tell me this, I don’t understand, I just want to know… can it be cured… ” Near the end of his words, Uncle Chen almost gritted his teeth.

The doctor was silent for a long time and sighed, “At first, because of the patient’s resistance, the treatment was not thorough. Later, there was no professional examination and treatment for over one and a half years. Rhabdomyo Trophy caused muscle atrophy, and the striated muscle has spread all over the body. In addition to that, there’s also a nutritional disorder. Rehabilitation is originally very painful and difficult. The young master suffered a long-term physical loss and might not sustain the rehabilitation process at all, so…”

“So, the young master has a high probability…of staying in a wheelchair…forever?” Uncle Chen’s eyes were red, but he still asked unwillingly.

“It’s very likely…”

“How much…”

“Ninety-eight percent.”

Uncle Chen only felt his brain explode. Immediately he could no longer stand, staggering back a few steps, the doctor hurriedly grabbed Uncle Chen, but he froze in place after raising his head.

He didn’t know when Lisa had come out, there was no sound, and when the doctor met his light brown eyes they still looked calm.

Lisa looked at the doctor and Uncle Chen quietly, and after a long while, he repeated gently, “Ninety-eight percent.”

The doctor hurriedly changed his words, “In fact, it’s not so high…”

In fact, it should be higher. Ninety-nine, even… 100%.

Lisa thought he had chosen another path, maybe a new start, but he didn’t expect his retribution to come so quickly.

He once said that if there was anything such as retribution, please punish him as much as possible.

Now everything came true, but it came much earlier than he thought.