Your POV

When I arrived at Ben's house I already felt uneasy. I hate my father's work. I know he has to do it. But his larger ones are terribal. That factory was one step too far. So much wasted chocolate. And the kids I guess. (But mostly the chocolate)

"You alright Doll?" Richie asked. "What? Oh umm yeah. I'm good" he didn't seem to believe me but didn't press me for an actual answer which I was greateful for. Ben went on and on about Penny-wise. I felt unable to speak until people started to leave. "Want me to walk you home Doll?" Richie asked in a gentlemanly voice. I knew he couldn't know that I live in that old well house. "Will you be home alone tonight?" I asked. "Yeah, but that means I've got more time to tickle my pickle" he grinned. "How about I stay over?" I asked. His eyes lit up like an exited child on Christmas morning. "Yeah" he said enthusiastically. We then started to ride to his house. "I'll race you" I shouted as I speed off ahead of him. "Winner gets the loser to do something for the winner" I added. Richie shot ahead clearly with a new determination. I'm gunna regret this if he asks me to suck him off. He beat me, just. Before he could boast I cut him off "what do I have to do?" He pretended to think for a second then smugly said "I want a kiss" then doing fish lips. I walked over to him and pinned him by his arms against the door before attaching my lips to his. He squealed in joy and surprise. He probably thought I'd chicken out. Before I could pull away he grabbed the back of my neck with one hand and pulled my waist closer with the other. After a few more seconds I pulled away and walked up to his bedroom leaving him leaning against the wall, smirking and bright red. When reached his bedroom I knew that I'd done something stupid. I like Richie, a lot, I just know that with my dad it wouldn't work out. Richie then staggered around the door and leant on the door frame. "That was pretty hot" he said as he sat next to me. "Thanks, but I'm the only girl you'll ever kiss except Eddie's mum cause noone else likes you." I said calmly. He smiled then said "no, you'll be the only girl I'll ever kiss because I would never cheat on you" he joked back. "We aren't going out" I said slowly. "Yet" Richie added. I wanted to say yes so badly but I couldn't. If we did he'd find out. "Hey babe?" He asked "why don't I ever go to your house?" I panicked. "Ah" I said. "My house isn't very nice and you wouldn't like my dad." it wasn't a lie. He nodded sadly. I put an arm around him. I knew what I was doing to him. I wasn't meaning to lead him on but I was anyway. If he knew he'd run away screaming. I know it. I hated hurting him but I knew I'd hurt him either way. This was hard. "Doll, are you alright?" He asked. I shook my head "No". He pulled me into his arms and lay down on his bed. I felt terribal for what I was doing to him and myself. It was my father's fault. If I didn't have him I could have a normal life. And maybe a boyfriend... Richie.

A/N; Idk why I'm in a sad mood so I wrote a sad chapter. But I'll make the next few more happy and smutty. Thanks for reading this. 🖤