Well, since the incident with a dodge ball being thrown at my face leaving me in an awkward situation with Jason in the schools infirmary

Yesterday, i did went to have lunch with Jordan and honestly, i just keep thinking about Jasons apology to me

"I'm sorry for everything i have ever done to you"

"I'm sorry for everything i have ever done to you"

"I'm sorry for everything i have ever done to you"

I groan, slamming my head against my pillow and continuing hitting myself with my pillow to prevent myself from thinking about Jason

Even though, i hit myself with my pillow repeatedly i'm still thinking about you

I sigh and went downstairs to grab myself a snack, i need a break from all that studying. Going to kitchen and open the snack cabinet, i grab some pringles, pringles are my addiction i can't stop eating it

Opening the pringles and popping one into my mouth, i sigh in delight and continue eating my pringles

Suddenly, my phone buzzed and i open it to see a text from Jordan

Jorbutt : Yo Addie! What'cha doin'?

Me : Eating pringles, you?

Jorbutt : Nothing really but, i got a text that some people are going to study at the local library, do you wanna come?

Me : Idk, i'm enjoying my pringles

Jorbutt : Well, you do need to socialize more

Me : You know that i like studying alone

Jorbutt : But, it's going to be more fun than study alone!

Me : You know that i can't focus studying with alot of people

Jorbutt : It's just gonna be this one time then you n me can study together, just the two of us

Me : Fine, i guess...

Me : What are we studying at the library?

Jorbutt : Physics and some other stuff

I think, i need your help with physics

Jorbutt : Awww! You need me!

Me : Whatever, just don't bother me too much

I giggle at Jordans response to me and close my phone and head upstairs to change out of my pyjamas

Since, it's noon and the library is pretty cold, i pick out a white shirt and an over-size cardigan to keep me warm with denim jeans and black vans

Grabbing a backpack a filling it with my notebooks and my text books, zipping my backpack and head downstairs

Texting my mom that i will be studying at the library and i head out the door not before locking the door

The library isn't that far from my house and school about 15-20 minute walk from my house. Usually, me and Jordan go there if we need to study or pretend to be studying and actually sneak out, hanging out at some place

Walking along the quiet street as a few cars has passed by and enjoying the warm weather, It's crazy that i will be graduating in a few months!

Then after finals are over is summer! Hanging out with Jordan and probably go on a road trip together and have a vacation with my family after that is college, which i'm kinda nervous about

And i'm scared that Jordan will go to a diffrent college and we won't hang out like we usually do, i'm scared that no one wants to be friends with me and i'll be alone

What if Jason and his friends goes to the same school as me?

I shook my head at that thought, i have to stay positive and hope that Jaosn and his friends don't go to the same college as me

I didn't realize that i had already reached the library, looking up to what to seems to be millions of steps and slowy walking the top and

opening the doors of the library, i immediately shiver at the coldness of the library. Thank god, i'm wearing a cardigan!

I hug my cardigan tighter around my body as i try find Jordan and my other classmates

I'm pretty sure that i'm walking in circles around the library like a crazy woman, looking left and right trying to find them, some people looked at me funny

I see in a distance someone waving their hands at me and i see that is Jordan waving at me and smiling

I walk towards their study table to see Jordan and some other people but, one specific person caught my eye and it's Jason, of course!

Thank god, he didn't notice me and i quickly took a seat beside Jordan

I calmly took out my notebook and text books, opening them and started studying

Basically, if you don't understand just ask someone then each person will get a piece of paper and you will be given diffrent question from the others so, no one can cheat

Carefully reading the questions and answering them pretty quickly but, there is particural question that i didn't understand so, i ask Jordan

Since, we are studying physics not my strongest subject, i mean i get the theory and stuff but, you have to count and i hate counting

Jordan explain the formula to me and you have multiply this and devide that, i feel like my head is going to explode

All we did study and chat a little and study again

Looking at my watch, it's already '4:30 p.m' and i just want to go home but, Jordan isn't done studying with his friends. I kinda regret agreeing to come to the library with my classmates

All i did there is studying maybe some of my classmates would ask me question about that they don't understand theory and i help them out, that's it

Feeling a little bit loneyly since, Jordan is talking with his friends, i decided to go adventuring in the library maybe there will a hiden passage in this liberary

Walking around looking, getting lost in the library and probably not going to find my way back to the table but, hey! It's fine

I always loved going to library, i always thought that librarys were magical in some way and the librarians were kinda like monsters

Tracing the book with the edge of my finger tip and the feeling the cover of the book as i look at the beautiful cover of a golden rose surround by thrones and a hand trying to reach the rose

"There you are" Said someone that voice that i know so well

"What are you doing here, Jason?" I said, turning around and looking at him

"Well, i have been trying to find you since, you can get lost in this library"

"Why are doing here while you can be with your friends?"

"I wanted to get a chance to talk to you since, you always avoid me"

My eyes widened at the fact he wanted to talk to me. So, i did the one thing i'm good at, run

I was about to run but, Jason grabbed my arm and pushing against the bookshelf

"You're not going anywhere" He said, his voice low and husky

Looking down at the ground and trying to avoid Jasons eyes

"Look at me"

I didn't respond and kept my head held low

"Sweetheart, look at me"

This time, i lift my head up and saw that his eyes were piercing into my soul

"Sweetheart, you don't know the affect you have on me" He said as he leaned closer and closer to my face

Is he going to kiss me?!

Without me knowing, my head starting move closer and closer to him. Until one thing ruined it

I sneezed and let a small squeak

"Bless you" He said to me

"Thanks"

Awkward silence filled the air while, i'm blushing like a tomato

Why did i sneeze?

I was about to kiss Jason!

The both of us started walking back to the table and none of us said a word, i'm still embarrassed that sneezed and i'm going to hit myself with a pillow when i get home

Jordan and my classmates were laughing at some joke when me and Jason approached them, grabbing my notebooks and text books, putting them back in the backpack and all of us left the library

"Where were you?" Jordan asks

"I was looking around for future books, i can borrow"

"It's getting dark, do you want me to drive you home?"

"I would like that" I said, smiling at him

As we walk to Jordans car, someone grab my arm, pulling me backwards and it's Jason

"What do you want, Jason?"

"I-i know that i have messed up some things in the past and i wanted to say that i'm sorry for it but, w-would like for us just to be f-friends?"

I'm shocked that Jason still wants to be friends with me

"I-i don't know but, i will think about it"

His eyes held a disapointment gleam yet there still a little hope in his eyes that we still can be friends and with that, he walked away

My heart clenched with guilt

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