It's been a couple days since my last encounter with y/n and I've been trying to forget about the moment we had. It was a mistake, that's what it was. I can't help but feel guilty, we didn't do anything but the fact that she lied to Colin and I went along with it doesn't sit right with me. I'm not one to be unfaithful, I'm not a cheater.

I know I shouldn't be angry but in a way, I sort of am. She knows I'm with someone, she knows I'm with Colin. I think I'm more mad at myself for feeling these emotions in the first place which is why I'm going to do what I do best, ignore them. If I see y/n I will not fall under temptation, I will not.

These past few days I've been keeping myself preoccupied with work. School is right around the corner, literally it's a week from today. I've been on call meetings to discuss ways to improve student education and how to be there for a struggling student, it's exhausting but necessary.

I met staff and faculty and they're all pretty nice people. I made a friend her name was Aubrey Plaza. She's a little crazy but super sweet. She apparently teaches Math.

I just hope once school starts I'm busy enough to forget about y/n. I don't think I ever asked her what she does for work. It doesn't matter, why do I even care. I think I'm going to go open a bottle of red wine and watch a movie. I can't keep having these thoughts.

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I'm patiently waiting in an airport parking lot. Cam returns today and I offered to pick him and Oscar up from their trip. I haven't seen my friend in a while so I'm pretty excited.

I turn on the radio to pass time and "As It Was" by Harry Styles starts playing. I remember when Cameron told me he had a crush on this dude for whatever reason and I made fun of him for it.

I haven't told him about my time with Scarlett because I feel like he's going to make a huge deal out of it. I never go on dates and I never make the time to get to know people, well women. Not that I've gone on a date with Scarlett but it's out of my character to have asked her to dinner. I thought that night was great, until she almost kissed me in front of her boyfriend. I kind of feel guilty for making her feel that way with me. I want to apologize but I don't have her number.

A loud knock on my passenger side window brings me back to reality. I look over and see it's cam with a huge smile on his face. I smile and exit my car.

When I make it to his side he hugs me tightly and I reciprocate the action.

"I missed you!" He says happily.

"You wouldn't have to if you didn't leave me" I respond teasingly.

He rolls his eyes "I'm here now bitch, we have to make this last year amazing, got it?" He asks.

I nod "got it"

He sticks out his pinky and I scoff.

I interlock my pinky with his and he immediately hugs me tightly again almost to the point where I can't breathe.

"Careful you're going to kill her babe" I hear Oscar say while carrying all the luggage. Talk about chivalry.

Cam finally releases me "I'm sorry I just missed her so much" he says dramatically.

"Let me help you with that" I say while taking some baggage off of Oscar.

"Babe you didn't tell me she was this charming" Oscar says to Cameron.

I laugh "I'm not always like this" I say earning a small chuckle on his behalf.

I open my trunk and put all the luggage inside.

"Alright, we ready to go?" I say while looking at both of them.

They both nod and get inside my car. I told Cameron to join Oscar in the back and that I was fine alone in the front. He wanted to argue but ultimately agreed with me since I told him I'm driving and that I make the rules.

"I love you're car y/n, so much room" Oscar says playfully while adjusting himself in the back seat.

I smile thankfully.

"Oh my god!" Cameron says in shock.

"What?! Did you forget anything?" I ask getting worried.

"You met someone!" He says screaming louder than I'd like.

"I'm going to need hearing aids after that" I say.

"Me too" Oscar replies.

"I can see it in you're eyes, who is she?" Cameron asks curiously.

I scoff "she's nobody"

Cameron screams louder than before.

"So there is a she!" He says in awe.

"How about we play a game" I say.

"What?" Cam asks.

"Who can stay quiet the longest" I say teasingly.

Cam rolls his eyes "you better tell me everything later, or else" he warns.

I just smile at him through my mirror.

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After dropping Cameron off at Oscar's house I return to my apartment.

As I'm walking through the entrance doors I see Colin sitting in the lobby reading a magazine.

I furrow my brows, what in gods name is he doing here. How does he know where I live. Dad I'm going to have a serious conversation with you after this.

I walk towards him and clear my throat to get his attention.

He looks at me and smiles widely. He puts his magazine down and walks over to me, hugging me tightly. Do I have this effect on everyone?

"Is everything okay? Did my father fire you?" I ask Colin.

He laughs while shaking his head 'no'

"I came to ask you a question" he says

I'm confused.

"I would like you to come over for dinner with me and Scarlett this weekend" he says happily.

I'm shocked. Why does he want me to have dinner with them?

"She been busy lately and I can see her nerves are getting to her, she's starting work in a week and I want to do something and seeing as you two are friends I thought it would be nice" he said.

Wow. Scarlett you really did get a good one. I totally underestimated Colin. God I'm such a douche bag. He's a good guy, hell I like him now.

"Of course" is all that came out of me. Dammit why'd I say yes.

He pulls me in for another hug "Here's my number" he says while handing me his business card.

"Text me and I'll tell you what time" he says.

"Sure thing" i say in a kind of fake happy voice.

He smiles and heads out but before he can leave I ask him a question.

"Does she know I'm coming over?" I ask hesitantly.

He shakes his head "it's a surprise" he says and leaves me.

She's definitely not going to like this surprise.

I can't do this. I can't keep feeling things for her when she clearly has an amazing guy that would probably treat her better than I ever will. This dinner is going to be the death of me.

I hope when school starts I'll find some person to keep me occupied so I forget about her.