*2:30AM*

You stare at you clock wide awake. It's been a few hours after alessio left. You didn't really know how to feel about everything that happened tonight. You didn't know how to break it to your family. Your friends. Most of all Finn. He's been with you throughout all of this throughout all of the pain and the stressing over Alessio and now it seems like you're just hooking up behind his back. You push it to the back of your mind and close your eyes to try to sleep.

*6:00AM*

Still awake you decide you just get up for the day.

You get into the shower and play some slow tunes.

As you get out of the shower you check the time

7:30AM

As you dry off and get dressed you change into a simple lazy outfit

You don't have any plans today so you choose to go out and get breakfast

You grab your keys and your things and head out of your apartment

You decide to walk around and listen to music until you find something that catches your eyes

You find a small cafe and get a bagel and some coffee to go

You choose to walk around and look at some of the great buildings and areas

It starts to lightly rain. But not a bad stormy rain. It was calm. Comforting.

You suddenly get a call. You pick it up

"Hi beautiful" you hear Alessio's voice through the phone

"Hi" you smile lightly to yourself trying to hold back guilt

"So I stopped by your place I was gonna surprise you with breakfast but..you're not here" he chuckles

"Yea I'm driving around just clearing my head" you say looking out at the rain and lights from the buildings

"We'll meet me back here" he says

"Why?" You ask

"Justdoitkluvubyeee" he says hanging up

You roll your eyes a walk a little longer before turning around and heading back.

**skip**

As you get home you see Alessio waiting by his car in a clear rain coat

He looked so adorable

"What are you doing" you say as you walk next to him

"Get in the passenger seat" he says

"Okay " you say

You buckle up and Alessio pulls out ((🥴))

You both drive in a comfortable silence for a while

You look out the window enjoying the rain.

It doesn't rain often in Los Angeles

You turn and look at Alessio who smirks at you

"What" you ask looking away again

"You're so beautiful" he smiles

"Mmkay" you say pulling your leg against your chest and look outside

After a while Alessio pulls into a parking spot

It's the beach

Alessio hands you a clear rain jacket and both get out of the car

You both walk along the beach holding hands.

"I still have a question" you ask breaking the silence

"Yea" he says

"Why did you believe Hailey over me" you look at him letting go of his hand

He ponders for a couple seconds before replying

"It's kinda what Finn said. I didn't wanna be wrong about all the choices I made. I was trying to be a good man by sacrificing what I wanted and doing what I needed to." He looks at you

You don't look back up

"And I know I was a prick for cutting you off" he says stopping you and forcing you to face him

"But if I chose to keep you in my life I wouldn't have been faithful to my bab- that baby" he says

You could almost understand where he was coming from.

But your feeling were still shot from the experience.

You get more self conscious. You felt like him cutting you off and hating you was your fault. Because you're to needy

You let out a breath trying not to tear up. Crying is the last thing you wanna do

"(Y/n) speak to me. We aren't gonna be able to grow from this if you don't tell me what's going on" he says looking you in the eyes

"I don't know Alessio" you say looking back down

"I just... I don't know after coming out of my coma I seemed to have forgotten that life still went on for everyone else. And I expected you to still be mine. Partially because of the dream but also because I was so sure that we were in love we practically needed each other. But I saw you with Hailey and I realized that you didn't need me. You still don't need me. Not the way I need you at least." You say

"(Y/n) you're doing well for yourself. You make wayyy more money than I do and did you see the place you live..?" He says

"Yea but what's that matter if I'm not truly happy" you say

"Who said I was" Alessio says voice shaking

"I do" you look up at him

"You were happy enough to move on. You were happy enough to bring Hailey to meet me THE DAY I woke up after being in a coma for saving your life!?! You were happy enough to dump me over a text after knowing I'm so totally in love with you. You were happy with calling me a liar if it meant that you could keep your picture per-"

"YOU DON'T KNOW THAT!" Alessio yells causing you to flinch

"You don't know the pain I had to face watching you lay there not knowing if the woman that I truly loved was gonna wake up. You don't know what it was like to be pressured by friends and family to move on. Even your parents told me to. You don't know the GUILT I felt when I heard the news that you had woken up or the feelings that resurfaced. Feelings I couldn't even explain to you if I'm honest...I know what I did was fucked up and I'll keep sayin sorry till the day I die but for you to stand here and tell me that I don't love you is ridiculous" he says his voice cracking

"Actions speak louder than words Alessio since the day I've woken up it seems you've been tossing me around like I'm some piece of garbage" you say

"Sounds like you don't really want us back together" he says tensing up

You can see the pain in his eyes despite the angered look on his face.

"I didn't say that" you look at him

"Then what are you trying to say" he shouts again

"You know what never mind. The fact that you can't even open your eyes and see this isn't all about how you feel is mind boggling. I was the one who woke up to my boyfriend with another woman and from that point on all I have received from you is mixed signals and backlash. I keep giving you chance after chance after chance and you keep screwing it up. So you tell me Alessio. If this is your final chance what do YOU think I want?!?" You say

"(Y/n)" he says looking at you

You search his eyes hoping he has a clue

All you want is him.

All you want is for him to stop treating you like a second thought

All you want is for him to love you and hold you

All you want is for the two of you to be happy

He's not even trying to answer your question

"You know what" you say letting go of him once again

"Until you can at least give me a small answer about what I want then this isn't happening" you say walking away from him

"No (y/n)" Alessio says chasing you

"I know what I want now Alessio. If you can't tell me what that is then clearly we don't belong together" You leave him standing there

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