《Reunited At Last|✔️》23| Forever
Advertisement
Liliana's PoV
I really really wish he didn't ask about my parents; I don't really have a good relationship with them right now so it's a touchy subject. If he didn't, I wouldn't have gotten riled up and blamed him for shooting me. I have no idea how we got from him asking about my parents to me blaming him for shooting me. Honestly, I don't blame him. I don't but this is a conversation neither of us are ready to have.
"I can't even fucking look at it," I said angrily. I wasn't angry at anyone. I guess I was angry with myself. I was angry with the fucking scar on my shoulder.
"Do-Did you get nightmares about that night?," I asked gingerly after a few moments of silence.
I watched as he froze and forced himself to feel his emotions instead of pushing them down. He glared at the emptiness in front of him as he stared at the empty road ahead of us. We stopped the car on the side of the road, knowing that all of our attention needs to be on each other. "I still fucking do," he sighed out. "But since you came back, I haven't had a single one."
I let out a deep shaky breath. "I get them all the fucking time. Once, they got so bad, I couldn't sleep at night and a doctor gave me a bottle of pills. They worked for a while but something happened and then they just didn't. The nightmares came back."
"I'm sorry," he breathed out, gripping the steering wheel tightly. "It's all my fault. If I never fucking shot you, this wouldn't be happening to you."
I shrugged my shoulders. "Sometimes, the nightmares aren't there and I can actually get to sleep but most of the time, they're there haunting me."
"I used-I used to close my eyes and see you lying there, covered in your own blood and that used to fucking terrify me. The thought of it still fucking does. It got so fucking bad I was at a point where I wouldn't even try to sleep, I would do the opposite and pills and drugs became my best friends."
Advertisement
I let out a sigh as my eyes welled up with tears. I really hate having deep and emotional conversations while I'm on my period. It just makes me even more emotional and then I start overthinking and then I just end up feeling really shit in the end.
"We're really fucked up, aren't we?," I said, my voice breaking. His grip on the steering wheel loosened as his hands slowly got their colour back from how tight he was holding it. He turned his head to look at me, his eyes soft and caring.
He nodded his head, not even trying to deny that fact. It's the truth and he and I both know it. There's no changing it.
"We both were raised in a fucked up world where it's either kill or be killed. We both did what we thought was right at that moment. I shot you to try and keep you alive. I know that sounds so fucking stupid but in my head, it makes perfect sense."
"I told you to shoot me. I did so I know it makes sense because that seemed like the only solution at that time," I said, sniffling. "I can't fucking breathe." I undid my seatbelt and opened the car door, needing some air. Before I could blink, Sebastian was following behind me as I walked ahead.
With no care, I walked towards a park as no words were shared between us. "We missed out on so much as kids. We were forced to grow up quickly," I spoke quietly as I stared at the swings, imagining a little kid having fun.
"At ten, I was learning how to use a gun. At 16, I killed my uncle with one. Then at 21, I shot the love of my life with one."
"We were just kids," I spoke. "We wanted to be kids again. I know I still fucking do. Because I could go out in something without covering my fucking shoulders but now, I can't. I fucking can't because of that scar."
"You hate it. I get it. But your scar however big or ugly you think it is, is apart of you. To you, it's ugly and it's big and you think that's what everyone else will only see but that fucking scar doesn't define you," he spoke firmly as if he was forcing me to believe these words.
Advertisement
He's saying what I'm thinking.
"People stare and stare and make me feel like I'm a fucking animal in a zoo when it's not covered. I hate it," I said exasperatedly. "I'm fucking tired. I just want to not care about it. I don't want that to be the first thing I look at every time I look in the mirror with a sleeveless shirt on. But it is. It's there and I can't help but to look at it."
Sebastian's PoV
I bit the inside of my cheeks and forced myself to not ask her if I can see it. If I ask her, I will be expecting a 'fuck you' from her. Plus, it's a dick move, she's already insecure about it so me asking to see it is just gonna make her feel anxious, I guess.
"I haven't seen it but I know for a fact, it's beautiful," I spoke. I probably could've worded it a little bit better. She narrowed her eyes at me, practically daring me to not correct myself or add on more. "I-I mean, it's apart of you. You and everything about you is beautiful. If you ever do decide to not cover it anymore and some fucker stares, introduce them to me. They can play a little game with my fists."
She let out a small chuckle before she walked towards the swing set. She sat on the swing and I walked behind her. "Ready?," I asked, wanting her to hold on tight.
"For what?," she asked, confused before I pulled the swing back and pushed it into the air. She let out a little yell as she grabbed onto the metal chains tighter.
As I pushed her back and forth, I realised I won't ever love anyone as much as I love her. I honestly won't.
We've both had our childhoods stripped from us and a scary one we didn't want was forced into our hands. I've never actually played in a park and neither has she because you never know who might come and kill a kid of a mafia leader playing in a park.
This is our first time actually playing and having fun in a fucking park. That sounds fucking pathetic but with our pasts, it doesn't.
I wouldn't want my future kids to have a life like mine. Kids deserve to be kids. As a parent, you protect them and care for them even when you feel like you can't. That just motivates me to not be like my fucked up parents.
You watch movies where the fucked up character ends up being a parent. Then they have doubts because they think they're gonna end up like their parents. Then they finally come to their senses and become a parent.
For me, it's the exact opposite. Only thing is, when the time actually comes, I'll probably worry about becoming a parent like mine but I won't just give up. Not being like my parents actually will motivate me into becoming a better parent than them.
In case you're still wondering, yes I do want a family of my own one day.
Honestly, I hope we have more days like this, minus the crying and the arguing. I want days where we can just relax and have fun and make memories like this one.
Her laughter while the swing soared through the air made a huge smile grow on my face. Her laughter is like music to my fucking ears.
She is my family. She is my happiness. She is everything to me.
I don't give a shit if that sounded cheesy. It's how I feel and for me, that's what love feels like.
With that thought in mind, I realised I want this revenge to be over. I need it to be because I need Lili by my side forever.
"I love you, Lili," I spoke, through the wind.
"I love you, idiot," she spoke softly. A smile made its way onto my lips.
She loves me.
Advertisement
- In Serial85 Chapters
The Lucky Dungeon Diver
The dungeon. Traps and monsters. Those who can successfully clear a few floors can make enough riches to live their whole lives lavishly. But, just as many attempt to climb higher, losing their lives in the process. No one has reached the top. Veteran explorers say that success in the dungeon is basically up to luck. But no one has been truly lucky-yet. This is the story of James Lu, a regular person –no, a worse than average person– that still became a dungeon explorer – through nothing but luck.
8 248 - In Serial10 Chapters
Anti-Martial Academy: PRiSMA Saga (LN)
{A crossover based on a Visual Novel still in the works called ‘PRiSMA’, and heavily inspired by the Light Novel called ‘Anti-Magic Academy’. Thus, the plot and events are reminiscent of the latter.} The denizens of the underworld, Anima and long forgotten Martial Artists of the Murim, both allied with each other to fight humanity. Their attacks almost caused the fledgling Magi to become extinct. When heroes appeared to fight off the invading forces, the ‘First World Ender War’ finally came to a conclusion. In the stalemate that followed, the new Magi went through a technological revolution. In the current era of peace, the Anti-Martial Academy was made to fight off those Martial Artists infiltrating the Earthland Domain. In the present, the ‘Red Queen’ was demoted back into the Academy. Forced to join the ‘Support Squad’, a team of outcasts who can’t fight even to save their lives, the one most uncomfortable became Fritz Lazrik, the leader that seemed too much like a pushover. Wielding a MagiPen in hand, he has the small hope of being able to beat the ‘monster’ joining them. The start of their legend begins...————I have posted this on other sites.
8 86 - In Serial6 Chapters
The Immortal Epic
After all that happened... I do think I would thank dr Errhart if I were back to the day this all started, knowing all that happened after. Of course, if I were back on the day this all started with the implied knowledge, I would take and play with his soul in retribution. Oh, how have I grown since then. I'm almost nostalgic. Almost. To tell you the truth, I don't really remember the first days. Yes, I remember me working at the facility, with all the downs and downs but after the experiment, those first days afterwards, I can't bring for the life of me those moments in the cold dark broken room to mind. I never did discover what happened during the experiment. What could occur to burn the whole facility to a crisp and shut down both the main and emergency power supply? Dr Errhart always seemed to fail in impossible ways. When I got out of that underground tomb, I discovered what the experiment did to the world. Beast and monsters feed on the unprotected if left to fester, powerful men from the remnants of my old world have risen up to take their own and might takes up new forms. Oh, and here you must be perplexed. I totally forgot to tell. While the experiment doomed many in the facility and the world above, which wouldn't have happened had they not ignored my notes on the project, I feel like it was all worth it. For at the cost of the precious but secret arcanium, we got our greatest tool yet. Magic.
8 101 - In Serial109 Chapters
Alternate Dreams
People always go to sleep. Everyone everywhere and anywhere must sleep. Generally we welcome sleep as a time to rest and relax, but what if that changes?. This is a story about 4 young adults whom dont remember how they got together in a supernatural cavern after falling asleep in their homes. Follow them as they hope to emerge from their unexpected circumstances while wondering what could have possiblly taken them there. *Authors Note: Feel free to give me pointers, this is my first time trying to write and I'm doing it in hopes that practice indeed does make make perfect. If your going to say bad things about it please say it in a constructive and professional manner. I'll try to get a chapter out every week around Friday-Saturday.
8 132 - In Serial8 Chapters
Behind the Scenes of Getting Raped
My name is Maddy Merrill, and this story is about my experience of getting raped. I wrote this story to help others who are struggling as I am. Rape is such a taboo topic, and people do not talk about it enough. If you or someone you know, please get help. The National Sexual Assault Hotline number is 1-800-656-4673 or, I am always welcome to chat. Remember... IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT THIS HAPPENED TO YOU.
8 203 - In Serial25 Chapters
The Fading Sunshine
Everyone knows Karasuno's upbeat, happy go lucky middle blocker Hinata. Or they think they know him. Hinata has a huge secret that not even his team knows about. 7 years ago, Hinata, his sister Natsu, and his mother were on their way to school when a car collided with the family's car. Killing his mother and sister on impact. However Hinata managed to survive and was left in the hands of his father. Ever since then, Hinata's home life has not been the same.******abuseself harm violencerape******{completed}
8 56