I finish applying the sticky compound to the dorm wall and adhere my frame to it. This picture is from 7th grade when we all joined the school swim team. We were all skinny, gangly little things with big uneven smiles that braces would later fix and I donned a hideous purple butterfly one piece. I cringe and reach for the next picture I want to hang.

This is from our graduation party at my house. Only four months ago, but it feels like an eternity. We are again in swim suits, but this time I'm wearing a tasteful white bikini with bejeweled edges. My mid-back length dirty blonde hair in french braids I begged Cassidy to do. My over sized brown eyes covered with sunglasses. My boys...my boys are stunning like they always are. Bulging muscles and defined abs. Big smiles and grabby hands that are all wrapped around me in one way or another.

Trevor is in his usual black. Black swim trunks and black sun glasses frame his sharp jaw and glittering gold-brown eyes. He has a small grin on his face, but it's like the one he forces when I ask him too, not his real smile that I see when he looks at me. I love his eyes. I could look at them forever trying to find each speck of glitter. He stands at 5'11, shorter then the twins, but much taller than my 5'3.

He's got a dark caramel complex, tan from being outside so often. Toned from being a track runner and playing soccer. He has lean muscles, but very defined. His hair is a dark brown and tousled from swimming and me running my hands through it while he piggy backed me around the pool. He has snake bite piercings in his lip and a collection of tattoos forming down the right side of his chest, bicep and arm. He looks dangerous and sexy, but I know there is nothing dangerous about him when it comes to me. He's my broody boy. He's a man who takes charge and easily leads. He's our voice of reason and our advice giver. He has a maturity about him that differs from the twins and I.

Bash is wearing blue swim trunks. He has a baseball cap on backwards and his blue eyes are bright in the sun and seem to reflect off of the water. He has a boy next door charm about him and his smile is always happy and cheeky. Bash is my shy boy. He is more reserved than his brothers. His touches are more hesitant and sweet..as are his kisses. He lets me take the lead most times and I found I really enjoy it.

He is the lighter of the four of us. He keeps our spirits up and can crack any bad mood. He's easy going and it's easy to spend hours with him being quiet and cuddling while we talk about everything and nothing. I share more with Bash because he's a natural listener. He knows things about me I'm not sure the other two do.

Liam has on red trunks and his hat is facing forward hiding my beautiful boy's eyes. He's kissing the crown of my head, his spot. He has kissed me in the same spot since we were kids and now that kiss means a little something more. Liam is my possessive boy. He's all alpha male and always has to stake a claim in front of others. It used to annoy me, but the older I got the more I enjoyed being claimed.

He's my fighter and defender. His favorite thing to defend is my virtue and over the years it has only amused me more. He loves forcing his hoodie over my head when I'm showing too much skin, or buying me conservative clothing I wouldn't normally wear. I humor him occasionally because I find it flattering he loves my skin so much he doesn't want to share it.

My twins are giants. They are 6'3 and over 200 pounds. They are bulging with muscle and have large biceps and thick thighs. They have fit waists lined with abs and hard pectorals that somehow feel soft when my head lays on them. I know something else about them is huge.. when we would make out I would feel their erections straining towards me through their pants and more days then not I woke up with one or two hard-ons pressed against me.

Trevor seems big to me from what I feel, but then the twins feel huge. I have to admit it's a little terrifying. If their penis is as huge as the rest of them then I'm not sure it'll fit. I'm picturing a cucumber and a penne noodle and I laugh to myself then cringe at the imagery.

"You are stuck in your head today, care to share?" Carter asks from where he's leaned against the door frame. I really laugh now because my brother just caught me in the middle of picturing the twins' dicks. He smiles, not because he knows what the joke is about, but because he likes to see me smile.

"There is so much in my head today. I'm nervous, but excited. You mentioned the boys being apart of my relationship network and I've been kinda confused about that. I'm not sure how I feel about being on my own now that I'm here unpacking by myself and you and Cassidy are going to be hours away. I'm scared."

I blow out a breath and sit on the edge of my bed. Carter comes over to sit next to me and wraps his arm around my shoulders so I lean into him.

"It is exciting and it is scary. This is a huge step for you and you're going to figure out a lot about yourself this year. I'm glad you decided to dorm alone so you can find that independence you were talking about, but remember those boys are 3 minutes away from you. You aren't alone Mia and there is a chance you never will be again."

He chuckles.

"I told the guard they were your network because they can come and go easier now and you don't have to rely on a security guard to walk you around. No offense to them I'm sure they have been vetted and all that, but I don't trust anyone that I don't know. I don't want those random guards around you any more then they have to be and I know the guys agree with me. The network discussion is one you need to have with the boys. It's a very serious decision that you will have to make at some point. Not any time soon. There's no rush. You only do what you want to do and nothing else. Ever. If any of those boys so much as makes you shed a tear I'm taking them to the shooting range. I promise."

"I will miss you and your infinite wisdom and unhinged protectiveness." A tear slips from my eye.

"I'm not going anywhere kid and neither is your sister. We are a 20 second phone call away and I can be here in three hours if I break a couple of speeding laws."

He smiles and I hug him harder. I hear a sniffle and turn to see Cassidy standing at the door with tears streaming down her face. It makes me cry harder and she comes over to join the group hug.

"We are so proud of you Mama Mia. You are such an amazing woman and I can't wait to see what you do with the next four years. This is an adventure and it's going to be so much fun. Focus on your studies, but make sure you experience everything you want to as well."

"Within reason," Carter adds.

"Yeah within reason. Don't do anything I wouldn't do." Cassidy giggles. Then she stops abruptly.

"Wait, no. Ignore that comment all together. Keep being the responsible and respectable girl you are and be nothing like me." That makes me laugh and I wipe my tears.

"I want to be just like you. You are the best big sister and the only reason I am who I am is because of you. You did everything right by us sis, I promise. No one could have done it better. Mom would be really proud of you."

I squeeze her as she hiccups a sob. Carter holds us both tighter. I hear a noise at the door and turn to see all three of my guys in the door frame. Not trying to interrupt, but being nosey all the same. I give them a smile reassuring them I'm fine and I get three beautiful smiles back. Carter sees where my attention has gone so he pulls back. He kisses my head and stands up.

Cassie hugs me and whispers,

"I love you Mama Mia, be a good girl and vidchat me every single day. I want a check in every hour via text." I smile at her and she boops my nose.

"I love you Sissy, thank you and I will absolutely not check in every hour, but I will definitely check in everyday." I kiss her cheek and Carter grabs her hand to take her home.

"You boys are in charge now. I expect a daily report." Carter slaps each of them on the shoulder and Cassidy hugs them. Liam confirms he will have a typed report to Carter's vidscreen each night and I groan. That better be a joke. Carter and Cassidy wave and then they are gone. The boys walk in and shut my door and I break down in tears. I'm feeling overwhelmed and unsure. It's just so much at once.

"Shhh baby it's okay. We will see them in a month on break and you can call them every single day. We are right here baby, we aren't going anywhere." Trevor whispers into the side of my face as he pulls my head into his chest. I'm sobbing now because I don't want my boys to leave either. I can't believe I agreed to dorm alone.

"I'll literally sleep under your bed if you need me too angel." Liam says from behind me like he can read my mind. His arms are on my shoulder kneading the stiff muscles there.

"Let's take a break from unpacking and take a nap. It will make all of us feel better. We've been driving and unpacking for hours. We will take a cat nap and then go explore the campus and find food. Deal?" Bash is bending down to look me in the eyes.

I give him a weak smile and shake my head yes.

"Good girl," he replies before he tilts my chin up to give me a soft kiss on the lips.

I feel better after the kiss so I lean my head up to Trevor.

"More," I stick my lip out and pout.

Trevor immediately obliges and places two soft kisses on my lips. I turn in Trevor's arms and Liam is already waiting for his turn. He grips the back of my neck and gives me a solid, warm kiss.

"I feel better." I get a chuckle from everyone with that comment and the boys go about making a bed of blankets and pillows on my pink fuzzy rug for us to lay on. Trevor gets settled leaning against the back of the couch and I crawl into his outstretched legs and lay my head on his toned tummy. The twins flank each side laying on pillows they've laid out. Trevor's hands are running through my hair and each of my twins is caressing down my arms and sides as I snuggle in further and find sleep with my bestie boys guarding me.