He starts to kiss my neck. “Did you miss me?” he asks.

“I…thought…you…got…shot,” I say crying.

“I’m right here. I fine and I don’t have a scratch on me.” He sits me down on the couch and gives me a kiss. I’m still crying and I wrap my arms around his neck. He puts his strong arms around me. I feel safe, not like I did with Eli. Eli. What am I going to tell him? My husband is back and I was just using you because I was depressed without him? Peeta. What am I going to tell him? I don’t want to hurt him and lose him again. I can’t just say I thought he was dead so I needed someone to replace him just for comfort. This makes me cry more. I don’t want to hurt either of them. I am just going to have to tell them both as soon as possible so less damage will occur. I pull away from Peeta and give him a kiss.

“I thought you were dead. How can you be alive?” He grabs my hands.

“Well once you left, you left the door open so I could hear your conversation with Gale. It really made me feel bad about how I was treating you. Those words that came out of my mouth I never meant. I have always loved you and I always will but I said that because I was blaming my depression on you. I know it wasn’t your fault, you were just giving me what I asked for and I thank you for that. I know you were trying everything to keep our relationship but I kept pushing you away. I was blaming that on you also. It made me mad that you weren’t giving me my space that I wanted, but now I realize that you were just doing that to try to make me happy. Nothing was your fault.” I wrap my arms around him. How could I tell him about Eli? He just poured his inner most thoughts to me and I can’t just break his heart. I just smile.

“How are you alive though? Right after I ran out of the house I heard gunshots.”

“Yeah, so did I. So I got up and I limped down the stairs to see what was going on and I saw two dead Peacekeepers at the bottom of the steps. I look around the corner and I see two rebels heavily armed. They tell me that those Peacekeepers came here to kidnap you and that they broke in through our back window. They got me here as fast as they could. I got here about midnight because the hovercraft almost crashed so we had to switch. I wanted to see you right away but they said you were getting up at five to do some training with I think the name was Eli. So they put me in this room and told me to wait.” He laces his fingers with mine. “I was waiting for you all night. I can’t wait to lay down next to you tonight and fall asleep with you by my side and my daughter close.” He kisses me. I. Can’t. Tell. Him. I would hurt him and I feel like I’ve been doing that a lot lately with Eli. I felt guilty the entire time with him. But I hate seeing people not happy, and Eli looked happy with me. I could’ve just asked him to be with me until I fall asleep. I didn’t have to kiss him and give him the wrong impression. The only reason I kissed him was that I thought he would comfort me at night. I am so stupid. What was I thinking?! For Peeta right now all I do is smile then begin to cry again.

“You should’ve came to me. I didn’t sleep at all last night. I didn’t have you with me.”

“I know. But at least we will be training together. I requested we have the same trainer so I could be with you.”

“Wow, you didn’t need to do that.”

“I wanted to. So is Eli nice?”

“Yeah, I was crying the first time we met so I told him about you and how stressed I was and we basically became friends instantly afterwards.”

“Almost like Cinna?” I nod my head.

“Almost like Cinna.” He reaches for my hand.

“Well, let’s go.” I grab his hand and we walk into the elevator that brings us to the target range. I have no clue how I’m going to tell Eli about Peeta now that Peeta is in the same training session with me. I will tell him tonight. I will just go back to his room after training and I will tell him. I don’t know how I will break it to Peeta though. I know that Eli will understand but I don’t know if Peeta will. When we get there I can tell Eli’s face is in shock when I bring In Peeta and we’re holding hands.

“Eli, this is my husband Peeta. Peeta this is our trainer Eli,” I say. Eli reaches out his hand. Peeta shakes it. I was expecting Eli to tighten his grip or something but it was a friendly shake. Peeta feels me tighten my grip on his hand so he puts his arm around my waist.

“So Peeta, how are you alive?” asks Eli. Peeta begins to explain his story. When he begins to talk about me he pulls me closer to him and tightens his grip around my waist. I start to rub his back. When he finishes his story I can see that Eli’s face is even more in shock. “Wow, that’s some story you got there.”

“Yeah, and I can’t thank you enough for making my girl feel happy without me. I know what she was going through was rough and for you to be there when I couldn’t doesn’t only mean the world to her, but also to me. I love her so much and I thought that I was going to die without her by my side because I was afraid that I was going to kill her myself.” He’s starting to tear up. I wipe away his tears.

“Well Peeta I am shocked with your story, but I’m afraid I cannot train you until your ankle properly heals because you can’t run or lift weights and I want to get those out of the way before I can start you on weapons.” He nods his head and looks at me.

“I completely understand. Is it possible that this isn’t a private training?” Eli shakes his head.

“I’m sorry Peeta, we should be done for the day around lunch. I will give you two your privacy to say good bye.” He walks out the door.

“He seems nice, but a little awkward,” says Peeta putting his arms around my waist. I put my arms around his neck and give him a kiss.

“I don’t want to train, I just want to be with you,” I say.

“You have to. But since you refused to have that schedule on your arm we have nothing to do after lunch we should go on a walk or something.” I nod my head and give him a hug.

“I’ll see you in a few hours, okay.” He nods his head and rests his head on my shoulder. He doesn’t let go of me. I think I’m starting to hear him cry. Now he knows how I felt when he was hijacked or when we wasn’t talking to me. He finally has me back and now he has to let me go after not even an hour. He eventually leaves my side to go back to my room to go get Dawn, and Eli comes back in. We just stand there staring at each other until he starts to talk.

“Let’s just forget anything even happened. But, before we do I’m curious why you even kissed me in the first place?” he asks. I gather up all my courage and begin to talk.

“Just don’t be mad and I don’t care if you don’t want to train me or even talk to me anymore but I used you for company. I was depressed and I hungered for company so I kissed you because I knew that you liked me so I knew that you wouldn’t mind if I kissed you. I was a jerk and I’m sorry for making you think I liked you, but Peeta is alive now and I love him and I hope we could be friends.” Eli looks like he’s about to cry.

“Thank you for telling me and I’m glad Peeta is alive, I very happy for you. Also I’m glad he came when he did so I didn’t get my heart broken as much.”

“I truly am sorry, can we still be friends?”

“I thought I told you that we were best friends?” I go up and give him a hug.

“Thank you.”

“Okay, it’s time to get serious. Twenty push-ups.”

“But-,” he cuts me off.

“Push-ups!” He yells. I do them with no problem which makes Eli push me even harder. After six hours of muscle workouts with three five minute breaks in between it was finally lunch. The six hours felt like six days. All I did was exercise, and I hated it. I just wanted to go into a cold shower but the most I could do is rinse my face. When I get to the lunch room, Peeta waves me over to where he is. He already bought me a lunch and he saved me a seat next to him. I go over there and he gives me a kiss. I look across the room and I see Claudia feeding Dawn and Kiri.

“Why is Dawn over there with Claudia and not here with us?” I ask.

“She just wanted to feed her so I let her.” I nod my head. “So, for our walk, where can we go where there will be absolutely no cameras?” I laugh.

“Our room and the shower room.”

“Even the running trail has cameras?”

“I’m sure.”

“I wish there was privacy in this place. I just want to be with you.” He wraps his arms around me but then pulls away and looks at his hands.

“Yeah, I really have to change my clothes before we leave.” We take a bite of our meal and we both struggle to swallow. It tastes absolutely revolting.

“Meet me at the target range after you change then well go on our walk.” I leave the lunch room and go to the elevator once I get to my floor I run in the room to see Johanna in there.

“Don’t you have to train?” I ask.

“Nope. I’m just here so I don’t get kidnapped. I won’t train with what happened last time.”

“Oh.”

“So I heard Peeta’s back and alive. Where is he now?”

“Well I’m just here to change then we’re going to go on a walk.”

“So did he come here early in the morning because I could’ve sworn I heard you kissing him.” I sigh. I don’t know if I should tell her or not. She has kept all my secrets, but I don’t know if I can tell her. This is big, but if I feel like I don’t tell anyone soon I might explode. I’m going to tell her.

“Can you keep this between us until I tell Peeta?”

“Yeah, what’s bothering you?”

“Well that wasn’t Peeta I was kissing.” She gasps and he jaw drops.

“Who was it?”

“It was my trainer, Eli. I was just so depressed without Peeta I thought he could replace him since he was so much like him. I was a jerk and I hate myself for doing it, but you can’t tell Peeta because he doesn’t know.”

“I won’t.” I can tell she won’t she may be a very rude person who doesn’t care to speak her mind, but I have a feeling that she won’t tell. I change out of my disgusting clothes and change into some new ones. Once I get to the target range I walk in on Peeta and Eli talking. Did Eli tell him? No he couldn’t, he wouldn’t. Peeta sees the confusion and worry on my face and comes and kisses me on the cheek and then puts his arm around me.

“What were you guys talking about?” I ask.

“Nothing. We were just talking,” says Peeta. He grabs my hand. “You ready to go?” I nod my head. As we’re leaving I catch a glimpse of Eli’s face. It looked as though he were to say he was sorry about something. Did he tell him? No, Peeta would’ve told me off by now. Probably yelling at me and pacing like he usually does when he’s mad. But Peeta’s smiling at me, with that glimmer in his eye telling me that he loves me without words. We walk outside and the cool March air soothes me. I look at Peeta and he’s still smiling at me. He puts his arm around my waist and I begin to rub his back. After walking with him in silence we find a meadow off the track about a mile by following a path that was meant to be hidden. The meadow looks like the same one in Twelve. He sits down and leans against a tree and I sit next to him. I use Peeta’s arm as a pillow and we look at each other. I need to tell him. I can’t save it until tonight. There are no cameras and I know we can be safe here. I take a deep breath.

“Were you and Eli talking about me?” I ask.

“A little bit. Why are you so curious on what Eli and I were talking about?” he asks.

“I just want to know.”

“Well, we were talking about you. He was telling me how you coped without me.”

“What did he say?”

“He said that you took it really rough and you just weren’t yourself. You were frustrated and Gale was nowhere to be found.”

“Nothing else?” He shakes his head. “Well, you know how honest we are with each other, right?” He nods his head. “Well I’m going to be completely honest with you.” I take a deep breath and sit up. Peeta also sits up and has worry on his face. He starts to rub my back. “I’m just going to say it. Peeta, I kissed Eli when I thought you were dead.” He smiles. Why is he smiling that I kissed another man when I didn’t know he was alive? He can see the confusion on my face and kisses me on the cheek. I am so confused.

“I have never been so proud of you.”

“What are you talking about? I kissed another man when I thought you were dead for only a day.”

“I knew the entire time.”

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