Without saying a word, you followed Lilith into her classroom.

She opened the door and let you in first before she went in herself, locking the door.

"Why is that necessary?" You sat down on the edge of a chair.

She turned around, looking deep into your eyes.

"Oh my- are we gonna have sex?" You hurriedly looked around the gigantic room searching for something comfortable.

Lilith pressed her lips together and smiled slightly.

"I just feel like locking it." She crossed her arms and leaned against her desk.

"You wanted to see me..." Your eyes traveled up and down her body and you still couldn't believe that she was yours.

Actually, you shared Lilith with

Mr. Ritter.

"Right," her eyes were on the floor.

"Before you say anything..." you said.

"...listen to me please.", you breathed in.

"Whatever is going on between us-

It is happening to fast and I still can't believe it. I'm very happy but at the same time I hardly know you."

"Don't worry. You will get to know me", she answered immediately.

"Is that all you wanted to know?"

You nodded.

"Perfect, let's move on to my question."

"Have you been in a relationship before?" She crossed her legs.

Yes of course.

Several times already.

No never.

No this is my first one.

Is this even a relationship?

Yes, I've had a few relationships.

With whom?

Girls? Boys? With women?

"Did you hear me?"

"Huh?" You snapped out of your thoughts and looked at the blond woman in surprise.

"Oh," your cheeks glowed.

"No, I've never been in a relationship before," you answered honestly.

"Mhm," the sound of her deep voice did something to you.

"Good."

"And have you ever had...sex?"

This time you shook your head.

"Aha, so you have absolutely no idea-"

"Lilith, where is this going?" You allowed yourself to get up.

"I'm trying to tell you that it's hard for me to have a conversation with you because I don't even know if you love me or..."

"Go ahead,"

"...or if I love you at all..." you stopped and crossed your hands.

Lilith tapped the desk with her index finger while she didn't dare look at you.

"You don't know if you love me..." she repeated.

"I don't."

"What are you feeling right now?" she asked out of nowhere.

"I...", you stuttered.

"What are you feeling?", she came a little closer, which made you even more nervous.

"I don't know," you mumbled.

"You do," she replied.

Then you heard her exhale deeply. Shortly thereafter, you heard footsteps approaching.

"Go deep within yourself.", you felt a hand laying gently on your chest. Her touch made your whole body tremble.

"Look at me", you couldn't.

So she lifted your chin with her thumb. Your gaze met hers and she stopped you from looking away.

"What exactly are you feeling, here and now?"

"I- I feel scared," you whispered softly.

"Scared?" she repeated.

"Of what?", your body was boiling.

"Scared of me. Of you. Of this." You felt your eyes glow but she had you under so much control that you weren't even able to blink.

"What else?", she whispered.

"I don't know it's hard. I'm trying to go deep inside me to feel something but I feel..."

Lilith came even closer. She was so close that you could feel her body against yours. You trembled, trying to stifle a groan while she was moving her fingers over your arm.

"I feel so many things at once.", you spoke softly taking in her sweet scent.

"I feel happiness and sadness. Anticipation, longing, excitement... lust", you couldn't stop yourself.

You stood on your tiptoes wanting to feel her soft lips against yours, but she dodged.

A wave of new feelings washed over your body. You were angry, disappointed and at the same time you felt ashamed and you regretted everything.

"Sorry I shouldn't have-"

"Ah..." the strong grip and the sudden kiss made you almost pass out for a moment.

It didn't last long.

But it was enough to satisfy you and to show you its importance.

"There's a frat party this weekend.

I want you to come."

***

"What are you thinking about?" Scarlett looked at you.

"No wait, I wanna guess." She studied you at length, which made you giggle.

"Uh Y/n. I know exactly what you're thinking about." She smirked.

"Really? What is it?" you asked curiously.

"You are blushing honey.

You're thinking about him.

The cute boy from the mall.

Ha? I gotcha!" she pinched your cheek.

"For a brief moment I really thought..." you smiled.

"What?"

"No. You were right. I was thinking of him." You smirked.

"See? It's about time to go shopping again. You haven't had much time for me lately, you really should be ashamed. What could be better than spending time with your best friend?"

***

"Harmony, my new life is driving me crazy!" You walked hand in hand with Harmony through the crowded room looking for a certain teacher.

"So? Where is she?" Harmony smiled at some students.

"You know everyone here don't you?"

"Of course I do. After all, Isaac is my boy.", she took two cups from a girl and pressed one into your hand.

"Don't rush", you said softly.

"How many drinks have you had already?"

She rolled her eyes.

"Relax,"

You looked around again.

The lighting had always been red.

It wasn't very easy to recognise the people.

"Where's your pretty blonde stranger?" Between some dancing bodies, you met her eyes. For days you had only thought of her and her touch. And the things she awakes in you. You wanted to know everything about her.

"There she is!" Harmony almost freaked out.

"I know...," you walked cautiously in Lilith's direction.

"Where are you going babe? There she is! Over there!"

You lost eye contact with Lilith, noticing that she was looking after you as Harmony grabbed your arm.

She shoved you into a corner.

You lost your balance and the mug fell out of your hand.

Strong hands grabbed your arms to save you from falling.

"I'm so sorry I-"

"It's you...", you looked into the green eyes of the woman you already knew.