a/n: i feel like this chapter should have been called flashbacks instead because there's a lot hahahaha

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Jennie's POV

"Oh my god!" I shouted and pranced around.

There were tons of fairy lights draped from the stands, creating an enchanting scenery. Real snowmen were balled up and positioned along the pathways together with the fir trees which were lightly covered in snow. Christmas jingles were ringing merrily in the background and even a dressed up santa was giving out gifts from his reindeer sleigh. And the biggest highlight of all, were the famous unique ice sculptures designed by the sculptors. Some of them were lit up on the inside, flashing different hues of colours as we walked pass. I read in the brochure that these were real ice that wouldn't melt even from the heat of the LED lights for three days. I also noticed that some sculptures were different and less intricate, they must be the ones that were made by normal people like us. I had also read that there was a booth somewhere in the event that allows us to create our own sculptures to be displayed in the next christmas event.

This year's event was even more spectacular than the last. I've seen so many pictures of the previous christmas event from the brochures and some attached from an anonymous email. I didn't think much of it because i thought it was just one of those advertising mails to promote the event.

In the car ride back to the hotel with Jennie.

I took out my phone carefully and scrolled through my gallery as Jennie was lying fast asleep on my shoulder. There were so many pictures of us being happy and i couldn't help but smile looking at them. Then i remembered about the pictures Jennie had took in her phone as well.

I inched my hand closer to her slingbag and unclasped it to get her phone. I unlocked it with her passcode, we had exchanged phone passwords with each other when we were eating noodles at the street after the afternoon at the amusement park. I opened the gallery and saw many stolen shots of my face. This adorable little sneak. I sighed as i transferred all the photos of the christmas event from her gallery to mine before deleting everything. I couldn't risk having her seeing these photos when her memory resets. Once i made sure that her phone had no trace of our pictures, i kept it back in her slingbag.

I then proceed to send a few selected shots i took of the christmas event to her, without any of our face in it, using an anonymous email. I wanted her to see how beautiful the event was, although she would not remember visiting it. Maybe she will come again next year.

I looked through all the photos of Jennie that i took again. All of them were beyond pretty. I changed my wallpaper and kept my phone as well.

"Come on, i've got the tickets!" Taehyung said as he strode over to me from the ticket counter. I hopped in excitement. I've been looking forward to this.

"Let's goooo!" I shouted and hooked my arms around his, ignoring the people around judging me.

We entered the christmas event and i hopped around, amazed by everything in sight. I stopped Taehyung at the first stall which was selling ice cream and he got me a large milk flavoured cone and a chocolate chip one for himself. This was a nice vacation afterall, i needed a break from all the stress that has been hurled at me lately.

As we walked down the aisle dotted with gnomes and pretty pinecones, i noticed a peculiar ice sculpture ahead of us.

"Hahaha igeon mwoya?" I said chuckling as i walked towards the ice sculpture. It was a roughly cut ice sculpture of a monkey, it actually reminds me of someone too. Taehyung was distracted by at some other designs behind me.

Just as i was about to turn my head and call out for him, i noticed something on the sculpture that caught my attention.

' Nini's silly monkey

'

I froze in my tracks.

"Hey nini, how are you doing?"

Lisa's voice rang in my head repeatedly. My whole world spun.

K.J.R.J. Those were my initials. Kim Jennie Ruby Jane. Nini's silly monkey. I had carved that. Lisa. Me.

Lisa-yah, isn't it cool how the ice sculptures don't melt? The light looks warm inside of them." I voiced out.

"Hmm maybe its because they are fake ice nini." Lisa said laughing.

"Ani! I read in the brochure it says that the sculptors made these out of real ice!" I said.

"Jinjja?! That's very impressive then!" Lisa said shocked.

I smiled. Her reaction was as cute as a child's.

Suddenly, memories started playing in my head one after another.

"Yah what the Lisa? I thought it was your first time trying out stuff like that." I said to her in surprise.

"Yes it is. Why? Does it look good?" Lisa said raising her eyebrow then smirking cockily.

"Pfft. My monkey is definitely cuter." I said proudly, showing her the monkey that i carved out.

"Is that.. is that supposed to be me?" Lisa asked with wide eyes pretending to look offended.

"Yah! It is you. You're a monkey. And this ice sculpture even looks better than you." I remarked.

Lisa just chuckled.

I held onto my head tight and sat in the snow while the memories started flooding back in my head mercilessly. This was not happening. This can't be real.

"Wh- what's wrong baby?"

"Don't come near me! Get the fuck away from me!"

I started shaking and crying on the ground, trying to understand everything that was coming to me. People around were stopping and looking at me, wondering if they should intervene. Taehyung had saw me crouching and immediately rushed over.

"Jennie?! Are you okay? What's happening!?"

I ignored all of my surroundings as my head continued to burst with old flashbacks.

"No. Please. Lisa. Tell me everything. Just summarize everything. Don't leave me Lisa. Please tell me!" I screamed, standing up and grabbing her shoulders urgently.

Lisa just stared at me, as if trying to memorize my features. I was panicking and begging her to talk but she shook her head crying.

"It's no use nini. You won't remember any of this tomorrow."

Suddenly everything became clear. Jisoo. Lisa.

Everything.

I had regained all of my memories.

Pangs of emotions slashed through my heart as i finally saw the missing puzzle.

"Why...." I said sobbing.

I let myself cry in Taehyung's arms, this was all too overwhelming.

[Jennie is still unaware about Taehyung having an affair, Jisoo/Lisa never got the chance to reveal to her and so it is not part of her memories]

"Hey its okay, don't cry... im here for you jen." Taehyung said comfortingly as he stroked my hair.

I had dropped my phone in the snow earlier and i wanted to ignore it but i saw the caller id.

'Rosé'

My heart stilled as I detached myself from Taehyung's arms.

"H-Hello?" I answered hoarsely.

Please don't be anything bad. Please. Please.

"Hello Jennie unnie? This is Chaeyoung. Jisoo unnie...

she's awake."

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