I woke up the next morning and moved my arm to feel for Jimi. He wasn't there. I felt something different. I lift my head and look at Jimi's side of the bed and there was flowers and a note. I pick up he note and read it.

Dear beautiful fiancé,

I love you more then you know and I got flowers for you. I know that flowers won't make up for what Happened. But no matter what I choose you first. I have breakfast cooking and I'll be in with it so you can enjoy breakfast in bed. I'll apologize over and over even if you don't want me too because I am truly sorry. I never meant to hurt you. It kills me to see that I've hurt you. I love you so much. See you in a few minutes.

Jimi is sweet. I'm happy to have him but I am mad at him. Which I shouldn't be cause he can't control what those woman do. I just got jeleous and hated the thought of woman touching Jimi. I pick up the flowers and looks at them. Their are a dozen roses, I smell them and I smile. As I smile Jimi enters the room and we look at each other.

"Hi... I was hoping you were awake..." I nod and motion for him to come over which he does he sets the tray of food on the nightstand and sits beside me.

"Kare... I'm am truly sorry."

"I'm not mad anymore. I know it wasn't your fault. I got jeleous seeing other girls touching you and I freaked out. If anyone should be sorry it's me. I know your a hot, sexy man and I should have been prepared for it. I just... I want you to feel free to do anything... I don't wanna be controlling... I just hate seeing people especially girls grab at you like they were..."

"Baby I understand. I actually feel the same way when men throw themselves at you... I get jeleous and my first instinct is to come and protect you... you will never control me by telling me how you feel. And I moved when they touched me... cause I don't want them to touch me. I only want my fiancé to touch me. Especially they way they were trying too. I love you and only you." I nod and he gives me a hug. I hug him back and hold him close.

"I'm sorry..."

"It's not your fault baby. It's over with now and we talked... let's forget about it and move forward." I nod and he smiles. "I made breakfast"

"I see that. It smells great." He grabs the tray and sets it on my lap and kisses me.

"I love you. I hope you enjoy your breakfast." He gets up and I look at him.

"Where are you goin..?" He smiles and walks around to his side and sits beside me putting his arm around me, I smile and start eating and share with Jimi by giving him bites and a piece of my toast. I finish and he moves the tray to the nightstand and cuddles me. I cuddle into his side and close my eyes.

"You tired baby..?" I nod. He slowly moves us into a laying position never letting me go. I smile and hold onto him and I eventually fall asleep.

A couple hours later I wake but keep my eyes closed and hear the door open, not long after I feel the bed move. Kimberly yells.

"Wake up sleepy!" I groan and cover my head under the blankets. She pulls them off me and laughs "Come on Kare. You gotta get up"

"I don't gotta."

"You should."

"No"

"What's your problem?"

"Nothing, I'm just tired."

"It's 2 in the afternoon."

"So? How did you even get in?"

"Jimi let me in." I lift my head notice Jimi is not with me. That explains a lot.

"I'm gonna kill him"

"No your not"

"True but I can still tell. Jimi!"

"If you were up this wouldn't have happened." Kim lay beside me and Jimi comes in.

"You yelled for me?"

"Why did you let her in? I'm sleeping"

"It's 2 in the afternoon and You need to get up. I couldn't do it cause you'd trick me into staying in bed. Plus she knocked."

"Just cause she knocked don't mean ya gotta let her in..." Kimberly give me a small playful shove.

"We both know I would have kept knockin'."

"True. I'll get up. Give me a few minutes and I'll be out."

"Okay." She smiles and skips out the room like a little kid.

I get up and change into some boot cut jeans and a black t-shirt with a low V-neck to tease Jimi for letting Kim in. I wash my face, do my make up and lightly curl my hair. Just as I finish Jimi comes in. "Hey baby"

"Hey" he walks to me and I meet him halfway in the middle of the room.

"You look good" He wraps his arms around me. And I set my hands on the otter part of his upper arms.

"Thank you. You look as cute as always."

"Men aren't cute. They're buff and cool." I laugh.

"Men are cute... hot... sexy... handsome... everything a woman dreams off."

"And what do you dream of..?" I could tell Jimi was trying to get me to say something that he wasn't so I went with the smart move.

"I dream of you. Always have, always will." I go up on my tip toes and kiss his cheek and walk out of his arms.

"Smart move Fairchild." I laugh and look back at him smiling as I walk into the kitchen area with Kim.

I go to the kitchen and Jimi follows. I sit by Kim and she looks at me with a strange, scared face.

"Kim..? You okay?"

"Can we talk..? In private please?"

"Yeah. Of course." Jimi walks behind me and kisses my cheek.

"I'll be in the bedroom if you need me." I nod and he walks into the bedroom shutting the door. I look at Kim and before I can say anything she talked

"I'm pregnant."

"Wha... are you serious?!"

"I think... I don't know... I haven't gotten my period for a while and I'm gaining weight and I feel nauseous. And not just in the mornings..."

"Did you take a test?"

"No... I'm scared too. I need too"

"Here, come with me. I have one"

"You have one..? Did you think-"

"No. I'm not. I just... it doesn't matter. I just have one for you to use." She nods and I get up and she follows me back. Jimi is laying on the bed playing with his phone. I get my purse and walk in the bathroom, Kim right on my tail. I shut the door slightly and pass her the test and whispers "take it now, later whenever you want"

"Will you be with me when I do it..?"

"I'm always here for you. But I'm not gonna be while you use it... cause that's kinda creepy. I'll be right out here with Jimi okay?"

"Okay..." I turn and walk out the door and she stops me "Kare..?"

"Yeah?"

"Thank you, for being you and always being here" I smile and nod

"I always there for family..." she smiles and I walk out shutting the door behind me. I walk beside the bed and look down at Jimi.

"What's wrong babe? Everything okay?"

"Everything is great." I sit on the bed and lay back beside him cuddling into his side. I lay there honking about Kim. She would be a great mother. Kim has wanted kids for as long as I did... and that was a while... I can't wait to know if she is. I am so happy for her. I've been in this position two times and it's always a great moment... but the pain of losing a baby is hard... losing two is harder... I hope Kim can keep this baby. God please let her keep it. Don't let her go through what I did twice, she doesn't deserve that. Please let her and Steve be happy... you made her lose one love... don't let her lose another...

As I think I curl into Jimi's side more and he has his arms around me and can tell I'm in deep thought. I feel him kiss my head and I look up at him.

"What you thinking about?"

"You would have been an amazing father... to both of our babies..."

"Baby..."

"It's my fault you won't be called daddy... it's my fault you never got to see them... or hold them"

"Baby... I know I'm not called daddy right now.. but I'm still a daddy and you're still a mother...you were pregnant and that will never change. No we never got to see them or hold them... but we will have a baby... now may not be our time... maybe god is waiting for something bigger to happen and then give us a baby. Everything happens even for reasons we don't understand... we can't help that... I love you and I know that's one thing that will never change. I promise you that. I'd go through hell for you. You are an excellent mother. And will be an even better one later in the future. Please don't ever think this is your fault. It's not... what brought this on baby..?"

Just as I was about to speak Kim comes out of the bathroom smiling from ear to ear and gels. "I'm pregnant!" Jimi looks at me knowing exactly what brought up the baby topic. I smiled and got up hugging Kim and so did Jimi. We went back to the kitchen and we talked for a while, Jimi always staying near me. I can tell he feels like he needs to be with me for support and comfort, which I really appreciate him even if I can't tell him. I'll occasionally lean against him or do something like rub his leg or something when he's near to let him know I need him cause topics with babies are hard. But when your best friend/almost sister is having one... you suck it up, keep it locked inside and smile and be happy with her... even if it kills you.

After a couple hours Kim decided to leave. As soon as we hugged her she left and I went straight towards the bedroom. Jimi was smart and hugged Kim first so he could move between me and the bedroom. As I'm walking I'm trying not to break down. Jimi knows and he stops me by standing in front of me.

"Baby please don't shut yourself out... I know what you do... you need to talk.. maybe cry a little... but just don't shut yourself out from me." I try side stepping him but he sticks an arm out and I try and walk past it but he's stronger. I keep fighting and he wraps himself around me and I finally break. I let myself fall and I cry, Jimi holds me up but there is no use so he lowers down with me and I sit crying between his legs.

"Why?! Why does she get a baby!? Why can she be happy and nothing happen and when I'm happy I lose everything?!" I was crying and kinda yelling as I was crying from the anger and sadness inside me. I wasn't holding it back anymore. It all came flooding out. "Why am I always the one to get hurt... Why does everyone get to be happy and have a baby except me?!" I cry so hard that all Jimi can do is hold me. He holds me so close to him that was no gaps between us. I could tell he was crying. But I couldn't help him when I can't even help myself.

Jimi's P.O.V.

I held onto Karen and lowered her to the floor. I pulled her close as she yelled not at me but to the world. She was upset and I get that. Everyone is having what she wants most. I can't give her it. And if I do it's hard to hold onto. I hold her and feel awful I can't help her. I cry as I listen to her sadness and anger. I want her to be happy but I know the outcome. I cry and hold her close trying to help even when I know it's not working. I just hold her hoping everything will be okay.

After a half an hour holding Karen she sleeps in my arms with a sad tear stained face. I watch her sleep not wanting to move her, otherwise I may wake her. I move a little every now and then and when she wasn't waking I decide to pick her up. I stand up with her in my arms and just look at her. She is the love of my life and I hate seeing her so hurt and and broken. I can't even fix this. I'm hurting too but not as much as Karen. I walk to the bedroom and lay her down. I don't wanna be left alone, and I assume Karen wouldn't want to wake up alone. I lay beside her and hold her. I watch her sleep until sleep takes over me. I wish I could fix this. Then maybe she could be happy..? And that's all I ever wanted her to be...Happy.