I felt an ache in my chest so deep that I felt like I was going to have a heart attack as I ran down the stairs. I couldn't control the sobs that were ripping through my body as I pushed my way through the crowd.

I needed more alcohol.

I pushed my way to the bar and grabbed the most full bottle of vodka that was on the counter. I uncapped it then brought it to my lips, downing it. "Hey! You can't take that!" Some random guy said as I started walking away. I flipped him off as I continued on my way.

Everyone was looking at me like I was crazy as I sobbed, bringing the bottle to my lips every couple seconds.

I needed to drown out the pain.

"Vi?" Ki called out as she pushed the guy she was making out with off of her. I ignored her and kept walking as I took another sip of the vodka.

"Violet!" She called out and grabbed my wrist. I turned to her then crumbled into her as I sobbed. "What happened?! Who's ass am I kicking?!" She yelled as she smoothed my hair down.

"H-h-he.." I started but was crying too hard to get the words out. "Violet..." Ki said as he grabbed the vodka bottle from me and put it on the table next to us. "Come on, let's get you some fresh air." She said then led me outside.

I was still getting looks but Ki was hiding my face and glaring at people as we walked. When we got to the fire pit she sat me down. "Everyone get the fuck out of here." Ki said harshly as I cried into my hands.

"Violet, babes. Please tell me what happened. Talk to me." She said as I turned and cried into her chest. The aching in my chest was so bad I couldn't talk. I thought it was bad when I saw Colby kissing Daisy all those months ago.

I was madly in love with him now.

It hurt ten times worse.

"H-he-he" I started as Kat came running over. "Violet! Are you okay?" She asked as I blubbered. I could feel the alcohol numbing the pain a little bit but I needed more.

I looked around for the vodka bottle. "What are you doing?" Ki asked as I frowned and looked at her. "Vodka." I sobbed out as she shook her head. "No way. Now I've been nice but if you don't tell me what's going on I'm going to kick your ass." Ki said as I frowned, feeling my heart crack again.

"H-he cheated." I said as Ki stiffened. "Who." She said as her face hardened. "C-Colby." I said as she stood up. "I'm gonna fucking kill him. Where the fuck is he?!" She yelled as Kat wrapped her arms around me. "Ki-" I started but she cut me off. "Don't fucking start. Nobody hurts you without feeling the wrath of me." She snapped as I turned and cried into Kat's chest.

"His room." I cried out as she stormed off. "It's okay, V...it's okay." Kat cooed as Sam came over. "What's going on?" He asked and sat down next to me. "Colby cheated on her." Kat said as I cried harder, feeling my heart break once again.

"Are you serious?" He asked with shock in his voice. I nodded and hid my face in Kat's chest.

"I-I have to move. I can't see him anymore." I sobbed out as took my hand and rubbed it gently, trying to comfort me. "Don't worry about that right now." He said as Kat combed her fingers through my hair. "Yeah, you and Ki can stay with me for tonight at least. You'll always have somewhere to stay." She said as I nodded.

"Did you want to go now?" Kat asked as I nodded. "I wanna die." I mumbled as my chest ached. "No...don't say that. You're gonna be okay." Sam said as Kat stood up. "I'm gonna go get you something more comfortable to wear then we can go." Kat said then started to walk away.

"I need more vodka." I said as the aching in my chest intensified.

I needed it to go away.

"Violet, no. You don't." Sam said as he pulled me into his chest. "I can feel it." I slurred out as Devyn and Cassie came over. "Feel what?" He asked as I looked up at him. "The pain." I said then felt my stomach turn. "I wanna leave." I said as he nodded. "I know, I'm gonna go help Kat. Just stay here with Cassie and Dev." He said as the girls sat next to me.

"What did I do to deserve this." I said as my head fogged up even more from the vodka. "You didn't do anything, V. I can't believe he would do that to you." Devyn said as I cried harder. I was starting to lose consciousness a little bit, feeling the wall of alcohol slowly enveloping me.

I zoned out a little bit as my heartbeat throbbed throughout my whole body. I couldn't hear or see anything, but I knew that I was conscious. I was just really fucking drunk.

I started to think about how literally everyone in my life left me. No matter who they were or how much I loved them.

They always hurt me.

"Violet!" Ki yelled as she clapped her hands together in front of my face. "Havta go." I mumbled then stood up and stumbled away.

"Violet!" Ki yelled as I quickly stumbled away. I needed to get away. I couldn't be here anymore.

I pushed through the crowd as Ki, Devyn, and Cassie followed. "Vi, just wait!" Devyn called out as I grabbed my keys and stumbled outside. "Go get Sam!" Ki yelled as I stumbled out to my car, hitting the unlock button.

I didn't care what I had to do. I just needed to her out of here. I couldn't handle the pain anymore.

I just needed to go.

I stumbled to the car then opened the door, crawling into the driver's seat. "Violet! Stop it!" Ki screamed as I started the car. I went to close the door but she grabbed it before I could.

"Lemme go." I mumbled as tears streamed down my cheeks. "I'm not going to let you hurt yourself like this. Get out of the car..please." She begged as Sam, Kat, Cassie, and Colby came running out, horror plastered on all of their faces.

"Get him away from me!" I sobbed out and pointed at Colby. He looked so hurt as Sam turned to him, telling him to go back inside. I got so lost in the emotions I was feeling that I forgot what I was doing.

I had to get away from everyone.

"Let me go! Please let me go." I begged as Ki grabbed my wrist, trying to get me out of the car. "No. We love you so much, V..we love you. Please." Ki begged as I shook my head.

"H-he doesn't. H-h-he hurt me. I wanna go..I'm gonna go." I slurred out then pushed Ki away so I could close the door. "Don't do this!" She begged as Sam pushed her out of the way so he could get closer to the car.

I sobbed as I tried to close the door again, only to be stopped by Sam. "Violet. Listen to me." He said and grabbed both sides of my face staring into my eyes. "You're very drunk and very upset right now. Driving is only gonna get you killed. Kat called an Uber it's on its way. Don't do this." He said calmly as I shook my head.

"It hurts." I whispered as someone opened the passengers door and grabbed the keys from the ignition, turning the car off. "I know. You're gonna be okay though. Just get out of the car." He begged as I crumbled again, throwing myself into his chest.

I don't know how long we sat there for before the Uber came. Sam and Kat helped me get to the Uber safely as Ki got changed into something more comfortable.

"I'm s-sorry." I cried out as Sam helped me get in the backseat. "Don't worry about it." He said then looked at Kat. "Keep me updated. I love you." He said then kissed her as my heart broke again.

I already missed Colby.

I leaned against the the window as Ki came running out to the car. She slid into the car then patted on the back of the drivers seat. "Drive, bitch." She said as I leaned against Kat's shoulder.

"Sorry for ruining the party." I mumbled as Ki reached over and took my hand. "You didn't ruin it. That dog faced looking slut did." She said as a piece of my heart splintered off again.

I needed another drink. Or maybe some weed.

When we got to Kat's house she led us to her room. "You guys can sleep on the bed. I'll go sleep on the couch." She said as I shook my head. "No, I'll sleep on the couch." I mumbled as Kat came over.

"Don't be silly, Vi. You're gonna be feeling like shit when you wake up. Take the bed." She said then gave me a hug as I chewed on my lip.

She was right. Not only was I extremely emotionally unstable, but I felt like I was going to be sick at any moment. "I need a bucket." I mumbled as she pulled away. "Bathroom." She said then grabbed my hand and ran me to the bathroom just in time for me to throw up.

Ki came in and held my hair back as Kat went to go get something. "M'sorry." I cried out as Ki scratched my back. "Shh...don't worry about a thing. I'm here for you." She said as I leaned against the toilet bowl.

Kat came back a few minutes later with a glass of water. "Here, drink this." She said and brought the water to my lips. "Why are you doing this?" I asked quietly as Ki got up to get my change of clothes.

"Because we love you, V." Kat said as I leaned my head on the toilet again. I wanted to believe her when she said that but I was scared.

I was scared to get hurt again.