I walked through the light, not knowing what was going to happen to me. Instead of a dark void I was now in a white one, only confusing me more.

I heard a baby crying, so I turned towards it. The image of my parents holding me a baby played in front of me. When I turned around there were different memories playing.

They were memories ranging from when I walked for the first time to last week when Kat and I were baking cookies for Sam and Colby.

Was this what they meant when they said your life flashes before your eyes? I couldn't have been dead..I didn't feel dead.

When I got to the end of the memories I heard Colby's voice.

"Hey, V. I don't know if you can hear me but...I just want you to know that you're the love of my life. There's never gonna be anyone else. One day I'm gonna marry you, and we're gonna have little kids running around, looking for adventures just like we do." He said as I looked around, silently praying I could see him.

I tried to yell his name but there was something caught in my throat. I tried again only to feel my chest ache so much that it sent me to the ground.

"It won't be for a while because we're still kids ourselves but I just know you're the one for me. You're my soulmate, Violet. I love you...please just live for me..please." Colby voice echoed through the void. I could tell he was crying from the way his voice cracked.

I wanted to tell him I wasn't going anywhere. I wanted to yell, but between the pain in my chest and the thing clogging my throat from speaking, I couldn't say anything.

I struggled to breathe as I clawed at my throat. I tried to fight off the urge to fall asleep, because that meant I was really dying. If I fell asleep here, it meant I was dead.

I couldn't die.

I fought for a while before I finally gave up and let myself black out.

I floated around for a while, not feeling anything but peace. There were no noises or visions.

Just peace.

I don't know how long I floated there before a bright light appeared a few feet away from me. I sighed feeling fear boil up again.

This was it. I was about to die.

I walked through the light, expecting it to be warm and peaceful but it was cold and very loud.

Shit.

I was in Hell, wasn't I?

There were loud beeps filling my ears as my eyes cracked open.

I looked around the room, feeling panic and confusion start to set in. Colby was sitting to my right, but his head was rested on the bed in front of him as he held my hand.

I tried to speak but there was something in my throat. I felt myself start to panic as I became hyper aware of the trach tube that was shoved in my throat.

My eyes watered as the pain in my chest intensified by a million. I felt trapped in my own body still which wasn't a great feeling at all.

"Violet? Oh my god..you're awake!" Aisha whispered happily as I looked at her with fear in my eyes. "Hey, it's okay..I know it's overwhelming. You're okay." She cooed as I tried to turn my head to look at Colby.

My neck wouldn't move no matter how much I tried to move it. I wimpered as tears trickled down my cheeks. "Hey, look at me..you're gonna be okay. Just relax for me." Aisha said as she wiped my cheeks.

I nodded slowly as she started to check the strength of my lungs. "Ya know he didn't leave you the entire time." She said and jerked her head towards Colby as she concentrated on my vitals.

I let my eyes move towards Colby as he peacefully slept. "Want me to wake him?" Aisha asked as I stared at him. I shook my head as the pain in my chest intensified causing black spots to riddle my vision.

"I know it hurts..good news is we can probably take this tube out. I'm gonna grab Sophia, are you gonna be okay?" She asked as I nodded slightly.

I was still in a weird haze, not knowing exactly what happened. It still felt like I was dead, and that this was just a dream.

Aisha left the room, leaving me alone. I looked around the room, then let my eyes fall onto Colby again. I couldn't wrap my head around the fact that he was apparently here since the minute he found out about what happened.

I didn't deserve him.

I felt him tighten his grip on my hand as he groaned slightly. I wimpered, trying to get his attention then watched as his head immediately flew up, his eyes wide open.

"Violet! Oh my god, thank God." He said then kissed my hand five times. I smiled slightly only to cringe at the pain it brought me. "I know it hurts baby..I know. I'm gonna get you some help. I'm gonna help you." He said then pressed the call button.

Not even a few seconds later Sophia and Aisha were coming into the room. "Hey, Violet." Sophia said with a smile as the pain in my chest intensified.

"We're gonna get that trach out of you, okay?" Sophia cooed as tears streamed down my cheeks. "You're doing so good, baby." Colby said and pressed my hand to his lips.

"Try to relax for me." Sophia said as she and Aisha started working on getting the tube out of my throat. I wanted to scream and cry from the intense pain that was coursing through my entire body.

"Almost there, Vi. Just keep your eyes open." Sophia said as Colby held my hand tightly. I felt the pressure finally release as Sophia pulled the tube out. Aisha immediately replaced it with an oxygen mask since I was having a hard time breathing still.

I wanted to know what happened to me.

"Alright, it's done. Are you okay, Vi?" Sophia asked as I nodded slowly. The pain in my chest dulled slightly as Aisha switched out my IV with pain killers. I assume they didn't have me on them while I was asleep, so now I was finally getting some.

"I know it's overwhelming but can you try and talk for us?" Sophia asked as I tried to soothe my dry throat. "She needs some water." Colby said quietly as Aisha brought a cup to my lips, moving the mask for a second so I could drink.

"W-what h-happened?" I whispered almost inaudibly. "Are you sure you want to know?" Colby asked nervously as I nodded. "Tell me." I whispered as he massaged my hand nervously.

"Daisy shot you in the chest. Your lung is punctured and the bullet hit your aorta. You bled out, that's why you're still so weak." He explained as I closed my eyes.

"Do you have the bullet?" I whispered as Aisha laughed. "What?" Colby asked with a chuckled. "I want my bullet." I mumbled as I opened my eyes.

"We had to give it to police as evidence but I'm sure they can send it back when their done." Sophia said with a fond smile as I nodded.

"How long was I out?" I whispered as Colby rubbed my forearm, trying to warm it up. I was extremely cold, probably from the blood loss.

"Four days." Colby said as I breathed a small laugh. "Why the fuck am I so exhausted then?" I whispered as Sophia filled some paperwork out.

"Your body has been through a lot, I would assume you're gonna feel pretty tired for a while." Sophia said with a small laugh. "That's bogus. Why can't I move my neck?" I mumbled as I tried to fully look at Colby.

"Those stitches in your heart are very fragile so you can't twist or move at all for a couple weeks." Sophia explained as I nodded slowly.

"Okay. Can I eat?" I whispered as I brought my free hand to my belly. "Yeah, what would you like?" Colby asked as I stared off into space, thinking off all of my options. "Vodka." I decided as he laughed.

"You're a dork." He said and brushed my hair from my face. "I want my mom's mac and cheese." I mumbled as he frowned. "I don't know if I can get that for you, sweetheart." Colby said quietly as I nodded.

"I understand...I'll take biscuits and gravy then." I mumbled as he stood up and kissed my forehead.

"Okay, I'll get someone to get you biscuits and gravy then." He said as I nodded and closed my eyes.

"Okay, Vi. Try to get some rest, the fentanyl should kick in soon." Sophia said as she smoothed my hair down. "I'm glad you're alive." She said quietly as I smiled slightly.

"I'm glad I'm alive too."