Thea

Okay, I'm freaking the fuck out right now. If I could best explain my inner turmoil at this moment it would be the crying emoji with the tears running down it's face and that other emoji that's smiling but also melting into a puddle at the same time.

When I woke up to find that I was sprawled out on top of Will, my leg thrown over and tangled with his, head snuggled right into his neck I panicked.

I got a little cold last night and I'm a big cuddler so when I felt a nice warm body only a mere 2 feet away I couldn't help myself and jumped right onto that train. Then again, I've never gone up into his space during our previous sleep overs so I don't know what's gotten into me.

I was half asleep so my brain wasn't thinking of how weird and clingy that would be to someone who I'm barely friends with anymore. Thank god I woke up before he did.

What would he think if he found me pressed up against him? He's too polite to say anything out loud but I bet he would've felt uncomfortable and would pull away from me. He would crack a joke to ease the awkwardness then move on while I would be thinking about how clingy he must think I am after only spending one night with him.

One time Stella passed out in my bed while we were watching a movie and I was her big spoon so I'm like this with everyone. When Vivi and I had sleep overs when we were younger she would be my big spoon. Okay, I need to chill the fuck out. I sound like I'm doing my best to come up with excuses and it's not like he knows anyway.

Well, I don't think he knows. He hasn't given me any reason to believe that he caught us like that. Ugh, I can't stop thinking about it though. I swear I could lay there with him for the rest of my life and be content.

I make his bed, giving myself something to do while I wait for him to come out of the bathroom, then check my phone and send out a message to my roommates chat to let them know I'm okay and will be back home later.

They're probably all sleeping anyway but we've made safety a huge thing between all of us and whenever one of us doesn't end up going home with the group, we always communicate where we are and how we're doing the night before and the morning after.

Just as I send off my message, Will struts out of the bathroom, his naked upper half all on display for me to see and I swear I'm about to drool. I'm not unfamiliar with an athletes body.

I'm constantly in the school's gym so I see them everywhere and Zach and his teammates were always walking around shirtless at his house but there's something about knowing that I was plastered all over that, last night that has got me feeling hot and bothered.

It doesn't help that he's recently gotten a sleeve of tattoos on his arm that trail off to one side of his pecks and oh my god, I need to stop checking him out or else he'll catch me. Again. This man is so hot, how have I been able to talk to him without combusting into flames?

As a freshman, Will was all clean muscles but with the additional ink on his skin it gives him the devils advocate look that sometimes mixes well with his personality. It's why I liked him so much, he's so multidimensional. Kind but can be cocky. Witty and smart. He made me feel comfortable in my own skin and that's why he was my best friend.

"Jen, our house cleaner buys our groceries too so we should be pretty stocked. Is there any kind of food you prefer?" He says while walking into the closet and shuffling inside to grab some clothes

Please put on a shirt.

"Nope, I'm cool with whatever."

He comes out of his closet, still shirtless (it's a cursing and a blessing) and tosses a pair of boxer briefs at me, along with a sweatshirt. Okay, I totally needed the briefs or I would be walking around his house commando and that would feel weird. I wish that he offered the briefs to me last night but whatever.

"You sure you wanna give me this sweatshirt? I might steal it." I say jokingly with a twitch of an eyebrow

I still remember the time he gave me his crewneck and said that he would take it back from me. I'm pretty sure I still have it stuffed in between my dresser somewhere. I snicker to myself.

"Don't think I forgot about the last one I gave you. Anytime I see one of the guys wearing their own, it reminds me that you still have it." He responds with a smirk

I shrug, "Hey, you said that you would take it back. Don't blame me."

"Come on, let's eat. I'm starving." He says, while placing his hands on my shoulders and guiding me out the room

We get to the kitchen and he rummages through the fridge pulling out some fresh veggies and eggs. Guess he's making an omelet. I open his cabinets searching for the proper bowls and utensils to prepare our food and place them on the island to help him get started.

We walk around the kitchen dodging each other as if we've done this a hundred times before. Whenever I do get in his way, he would place his hand on my hip and gently move me. My stomach swarms with butterflies. Every. Single. Time. Does he know what he's doing to me??

"So, we have a lot of stuff to catch up on." He says, while popping a slice of a tomato into his mouth

I move around the island to sit on one of the stools and lean my head on my hand as I watch him throw the eggs into a skillet on the stove.

"What do you want to know?" I ask him nervously. I'm a little embarrassed to speak about what happened between Zach and I.

"What do you want to share?" He responds while leaning against the counter while the eggs cook

I think for a moment, the only noise between us are the sounds of the eggs crackling and popping.

"Hm, there's not really much going on with me. I'm still teaching some yoga classes at the student gym. Sometimes over the breaks I'll go off campus to teach at a different studio. I'm still pretty focused with school so I get a little stressed when I have too much stuff going on. My grades have been kind of meh this month because of my breakup but what can you do."

There, I said it. As much as I'm going to hate talking about this, I kinda want to just get if off my chest.

I wait for him to ask me to elaborate on my breakup. I can see in his eyes that he's curious but I think he's too polite to straight up ask me what happened.

I take a deep breath and look down to fiddle with my fingers when I respond to him.

"He cheated on me."

When I look up to see his reaction, I expect to see sympathy in his eyes but all I see is fury.

"That stupid fuck. I knew he was a douchebag but I didn't think he was a cheating douchebag." He grits out and quickly comes over to me to yank me into a hug.

I stay quiet as I loop my arms around his back and lean into him. My face is level with his stomach since he's standing and I'm sitting but I don't care. I soak in his essence and take comfort in the back rub he's giving me.

"I know, I feel so stupid and embarrassed. Apart me knew he was a shitty boyfriend but I was trying to hold onto the relationship for a long time. You know, Alana was actually there the night that we broke up. It was actually the day that we bumped into each other at Karma for Sisi's birthday."

I tilt my face up to look at him as he brushes a strand of my hair to the back of my ear.

"Jesus, this whole time I thought you guys were doing well. I thought you were happy with him. If I knew how badly he was treating you I would've-"

I interrupt him and ask softly, "Done what? We weren't exactly on speaking terms at the time. I thought you hated me for dropping our friendship."

"I could never hate you. Plus, that whole problem was both of our faults. I'm sorry that I didn't try to stick around harder. I just wanted to distance myself from you because I had fee-" he cuts himself off and I frown

"Huh? What were you going to say?"

He clears his throat, "Oh, I uh was just going to say that I distanced myself from you because I figured you wanted the space. You know, since Zach wasn't a fan of me and I didn't really like him either when you first started dating."

"Right." I get up and walk to the stove, adding the veggies and meat into the omelet before it starts to burn

"What about you Jameson, anything new with you? When did you get that sleeve? I didn't think you were interested in getting any tattoos." I say, turning to him and leaning with the spatula in my hand

"Not much, Lana told me that she met you and that you've hung out with her a few times. I'm happy that you guys finally got to meet, even though I wasn't there for it. I got the majority of my sleeve done last year and some more this year. It's not done yet but I'm in no rush for it to be done." He responds while showing me some shading that isn't completed yet. It doesn't look unfinished, just less detailed.

"I love them."

I step back into his space grabbing his arm, rotating it to look at the art. I see some florals, scriptures, and several other beautiful things that interest him and make him who he is. My thumb traces a piece thats on his wrist and I swear I can feel his pulse beating erratically. There's no way though, Will Jameson would never feel nervous around me.

He steps away from me to grab two plates to put our omelets on just as I hear a door open from the hallway by the front door.

"Yo, what up Jameson! You up for some hoops late- oh hello, who's this?" A tall handsome guy asks while walking into the kitchen and stealing some bacon off a plate

The man is beautiful, he looks to be black and asian. His eyes are the same almond shape as mine and he has pretty chocalately skin.

"This is Thea, she crashed here last night after we came back from Karma."

He smirks and looks over to me, "Nice to meet you, Thea. Hope you had a nice stay."

The man is clearly insinuating that I'm one of Will's hook ups and I roll my eyes. On the inside though, I feel a slight pang of jealousy.

"Dude, she's my friend from freshman year. She only slept over." Will says, wacking his friend on the back of his head "and yeah, I'm down for some ball today."

The stranger who I'm assuming is his roommate holds his hands up, "My bad, you haven't had anyone over in a while. I assumed. Nice to meet you Thea, I'm Maddox. I hope to see you around more, my girl Dani could use a break from all the testosterone in this house."

I laugh, "I bet she could. I know that I would get tired of all you men." I say men like I would say rat, half jokingly.

Will's eyebrow twitches up, "Well this man, is going to eat your food if you say men like that again."

He plops the plate in front of me on the island and grips my waist tickling me. I try to swat his hand away while I'm uncontrollably laughing but he doesn't show me any mercy.

"Okay, fine. You're the exception Jameson. I swear!" I say, trying to squirm out of his hold

"Good, now eat." He demands, taking the other stool next to me and devouring his own food

We finish our meal in companionable silence. Afterwards, he drops me off at home before heading over to the gym to play some basketball with Maddox.

For the first time in three weeks, I feel genuine excitement.

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