Thea

Stella and I step into the clean black and white tiled bathroom and immediately go to the largest stall when we hear retching.

I send a silent thank you out to the kind bathroom attendant who keeps the place clean while also passing out napkins because poor Sisi is on her knees with Kari and her other art friend Cleo holding Sisi's hair and rubbing her back.

Being on the floor of a public restroom is a position that nobody wants to be in but Sienna wanted to get wasted and she's now paying for all the free shots that she got throughout the night.

"I have water, please drink as much of it as you can!" Stella says while uncapping the water bottle and handing it to Kari to give to her

"Get it all out girl, no throwing up in the Uber on our way home." Kari says, her mom of the group instincts coming out

Sisi proceeds to hurl everything out of her stomach while using a napkin to wipe her face.

"I'll order the Uber now. Do you guys mind if I do a double stop and have the driver drop me off at Zach's place tonight after getting Sisi home?"

"Nope, I think she'll be okay. We got her babe. Do you need to grab any clothes or anything before heading over there?" Stella asks

"Nah, I have some stuff there. I can get some pedialyte for you guys tomorrow before coming home if any of you need it. Just let me know, I have an afternoon yoga class tomorrow." I respond

"Sounds good. I thought you usually get Sunday's off?" Kari asks while gently rubbing Sienna's back

"I promised I would fill in for Tracy since she covered for me a few months ago."

Tracy is another student yoga instructor that's a year younger than us. She was an angel for covering me when I went home for a weekend for Vivian's birthday.

"Nice, if we're feeling good enough maybe we'll come into your class."

Sunday yoga classes tend to be pretty quiet due to the sole fact that college students can barely wake up before 2pm on Sundays after partying. There are a couple of people that usually make it but it's been awhile since I've taught the Sunday classes.

"Uber will be here in two minutes. We should leave now." I say while slipping my phone into my back pocket

The girls and I are able to get Sienna back to our house in one piece without any throw up accidents (thankfully). The Uber driver originally declined driving a sick, drunk college girl but we were able to convince the guy that she would be fine.

Kari and Cleo scoop their arms around Sienna, holding her body up and walking while Stella does her best to quickly get the front door open. There's no way Sienna isn't waking up with a hangover, and if she doesn't, I applaud her.

As soon as the girls get inside, the Uber driver gets on his way to Zach's place. It's already 1:30am and usually parties tend to die out but there's no telling when the lax house will decide to shut shit down.

I take a deep breath. Okay, just need to talk to Zach about how I'm feeling. I don't want to come off as too aggressive otherwise this will end up in an argument. Maybe it would be best to just wait until tomorrow before I leave for my class?

Ugh, I'm too indecisive for this.

As we arrive at the house, I step out of the car, thank the driver and take note of the still raging party.

Looks like this conversation might have to wait until tomorrow by the looks of it. Zach is probably still hanging out with his friends and it would be weird for me to interrupt.

I slip my phone out of my pocket letting the girls know that I made it to the house and take off my hoop earrings that have been weighing down my ears all night, sighing in relief at the subtle pain that is no longer there.

I'm too tired to socialize with anyone so I guess I'll get ready for bed before Zach is ready. We've done this several times when I'm not in the mood to really party. I usually end up in his bed way before he stumbles in.

The stale scent of sweaty air hits me as I step into the house. The crowd is a pretty decent size, I don't recognize some of the faces because they're probably random freshmen that have made it here.

People are cramped on the couch in the corner of the room passing a joint around while other's are in the middle dancing and singing along to some Drake song. Colorful lights blink in the dark room.This looks exactly how every Friday and Saturday looks.

It's convenient being able to crash here but I hate how dirty this place gets. Thank god Zach is on the second floor.

Just as I'm about to walk towards the back of the house where the stairs are, Chase comes crashing into me.

"Hey, Thea. What are you doing here?" The way he asks me is weird. I can tell he's trying to be casual but I don't like the look on his face.

"I wanted to spend the night with Zach. Didn't feel like I got to spend enough time with him today." I say with a fake smile

I feel really awkward right now. It's almost as if I need permission to be here.

"Have you seen him by any chance?"

"Oh uh, I think he's out back or in the basement."

"Cool, I'm just gonna run to his room real quick and use the bathroom."

I slowly move myself away from the arm he has wrapped around my shoulders and make my way towards the stairs again. I swear I hear him cuss under his breath. Then he abruptly steps in front of me, blocking me.

"Why don't you hang here with me for a little. We barely hung out today either." He says with a slight grimace

Immediate alarms go off in my head. He clearly doesn't want me upstairs. You know those Tik Tok's, reddit stories, etc that you hear about cheaters? Those "Hey, girl" Dms that you'll receive from a random girl?

I've never experienced one of those moments before but I'm not dumb enough to ignore these signs. My heart starts beating so fast and my hands begin to shake. Okay, calm down, I don't know anything for sure.

"I'll come back down after, I just want to switch my shoes out to something more comfortable. My heels are hurting from these boots." I say to Chase with the most calm expression that I can manage.

In my head, I'm freaking the fuck out.

"Seriously, Thea. Just hang for a bit." He responds passive aggressively, than grabs my arm

I've always thought about the close knit friendship the guys in this house have. I bet none of them would snitch on each other for anything.

"Get off me, Chase." I say more firmly, while yanking my arm out of his hold

"Whatever, it's not my problem." He says, while rolling his eyes and walking away

What a dick head.

I hurriedly walk up the stairs to Zach's room, mentally preparing myself for what I will see. I don't know anything for certain. Maybe Chase didn't want me upstairs in general? Maybe he was just drunk and being weird? He tends to get more aggressive after drinking.

I feel the pulse in my neck speed up, almost as if I'm hooked up to the loud and fast bass of the speaker in the living room. The music is slightly drowned out from up here but it doesn't help with my nerves.

Zach gave me a spare set of keys to his room ever since he caught a girl giving some random guy a blow job in his room during a party.

I shakily pull them out of my pocket while grasping the door knob. I can't hear anything coming from the other side, but I'm still scared what I might stumble upon.

Just do it Thea. Get it over with. And at that last thought I yank the door open, stumbling in to find my boyfriend, now ex of almost two years on his back with a naked blond straddling his body.

I don't know how they haven't noticed me yet, probably drunk off their minds but she's still riding him and throwing out porn star level moans. I can't see her face from this angle, but I know that when she looks up, she'll be the girl that was hanging out at Karma with Zach and Chase earlier.

My hand flies to my mouth in a sharp gasp as I drop my keys on the floor.

"Yo, what the fu-" Zach yells while looking up from his position, hands still on the girls hips.

The girl immediately stops bouncing when she catches his frozen expression.

My heart drops and I feel immediate tears pool in my eyes. I came here to discuss how we could better our relationship and this is the shit that I find. Apart of me isn't surprised from all of the conversations that I've had with Kari but it doesn't hurt any less.

Zach throws the girl off of him, and I catch his still hard dick (covered in a condom, thank fucking god he isn't going raw with her too) before he tosses the throw blanket that I bought over him.

He doesn't even have the decency to look guilty, face stoic and all.

"Thea...I'm sorry that you had to see this but I figured you probably understand right? We haven't had sex in a while and I just needed a release. It's nothing emotional between me and her." His voice has a slight slur to hit. Like he's a little tipsy.

What? The "her" in question is taking her time getting dressed and looking more annoyed at me than anything before disappearing from the room. I'm too shocked to follow her and rip her hair out. What the actual fuck. Am I in a different dimension? Why are they being so nonchalant about this when I'm on the cusp of a mental fucking break down.

My hands shake because it's difficult for me to completely comprehend what I just walked in on. I refuse for the tears to drop from my eyes so I shut them and take a deep breath. As much as I want to destroy everything in sight right now, I want to stay classy.

I calmly walk to his closet, grab my duffel bag and start tossing all my shit in.

"Babe."

I don't like leaving too much stuff here so it really doesn't take me too long.

"Babe."

He calls again, trying to get my attention. He begins to move from the bed, reaching for his pants that were discarded right next to the bed. The door behind me is still wide open and I turn around to escape.

Right before I leave, in the calmest voice I say, "You are a disgusting piece of shit. I hope this bites you back in the ass and you realize how much of a shitty person you are. In case you're too fucking dumb to see where this is going, we're done. Have fun being a loser for the rest of your life. With your shitty grades and partying, I know you won't get far."

And with that, I turn around and slam the door behind me.

Zach is quick and he manages to be fully dressed before pulling my arm towards him as I hit the stairs.

"Baby, don't go. I still love you. It was purely physical, I swear." He says, brows frowning looking a little torn.

I used to adore this guy, what the hell happened to us? He was so kind and loving and over the span of our relationship he has become a possessive, cold asshole.

I can't say that I didn't see the signs. I remember the way he treated Will.

I rip my arm from him and shove him away from me.

"Don't fucking touch me. We're done. That's it, I'm not dealing with this bullshit." I want to scream why he would do this to me. He was my first love, the guy that I gave my virginity to and now I feel like I wasted a special moment on someone who could give less of a shit about me.

"Fine. Where are you going, huh? You gonna go back to Jameson? I saw the way you looked at him at the club earlier. You've always been pining for his dick. Too bad he'll get my sloppy seconds now."

His words are like slap in the face. Has he always been this much of a monster? What happened to "I still love you".

"What the hell are you talking about?! I was just looking at him like I would any other person!" I blow up.

I'm usually more reserved than this but the anger and hurt are pouring out of me. His accusations are coming out of nowhere. I haven't so much as looked at Will for more than a second today when Zach was around, let alone any other day I came across him since we started seriously dating.

Speaking to the opposite gender isn't cheating.

He rolls his brown eyes, "Whatever, like I said, I already fucked you enough these few years. I don't need a girlfriend who's constantly up my ass about everything. I should've never gotten into a relationship with you in the first place."

"Trust me, you're my biggest regret. I should've known you were a cheater just by the people you hang out with."

From the very first day I walked into this house and saw Chase with a different girl and noticed him with plenty of others over the past 2 years, I should've known they would all be repulsive cheaters.

A piece of me feels like it's been broken. I never realized how much having Zach as a companion throughout these past few years helped me feel less lonely. I know at the back of my head that this is a toxic mindset but it's difficult to cut off all my emotions off in one go.

For most of my life I didn't feel desirable to others and coming to school finally allowed me to combat these emotions. I know I shouldn't rely on any man to make me feel wanted but having someone to spend my time with boosted my confidence in a way. However, finding this person that I cared about cheating on me has resulted in the complete opposite.

I feel like a steel ball has been thrown at me, my framework that I spent hardening these few years are tumbling down. Was I not good enough for him? What has made me less desirable in the time that we've been together?

With that, I run out of the house, duffel on my shoulder and tears streaming down my face. I will never let a guy have this power over me again.

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Hi friends, this made me hurt for Thea. I hate hearing these kinds of stories where people end up wasting their time on someone who hurts them in the end :( Please don't be afraid to comment and vote, I would love to hear everyone's opinions and thoughts throughout the story!