Thea

Okay, so I know I promised myself I would never stop by their room without a call or text but it is after their game last night and I'm going to pray like hell that they didn't decide to drown their sorrows in the closest girl's cooch and came home very much alone last night. I knock on their door, and hope they're decent. At least I won't actually be barging into their room like I did last time.

Nobody answers after the first few knocks while I waited patiently for a few minutes. I knock three more times with a little more force and decide I'll go back to my room if no one answers after this.

I decided to come straight from Zach's dorm after doing my best to freshen up. I figured I might as well stop by now rather than get too fussy about showering and all that since I felt guilty about missing Will's message. I even ventured out to the cafe to buy some breakfast and orange juice for the guys as my apology.

Just as I'm about to leave since there seems to be no signs of life behind the door, I hear footsteps shuffling and the pause of them right before the door swings open.

A very sleepy Devon who is currently rubbing the tiredness out of his eyes sees me and with a morning grumble says "Hey, T."

Even though I'm not as close to Devon than Will I still walk right up to him and give him a hug.

"I'm really sorry about your game last night Dev."

He sighs and circles his arms around me while I gently pat his back then we release each other.

"It's okay, we're all bummed out and got shit faced last night to forget about it. The guys are deep sleepers and with the amount we drank last night, ain't no way they heard your knocking. Sorry, if we kept you out here for too long."

"I wasn't out here long, I just wanted to see you guys since I wasn't able to stay for the whole game. Plus, I brought some breakfast." I say, while shaking the bag of muffins, sandwiches and scones in my hand. These guys eat triple the amount of your average person so I bought a large variety.

"You're a godsend. Will's still sleeping but you can go right in. I'll hangout out here." Devon says, while taking the bag from my hand and leading me through to their dorm then settling himself into the common room.

"Cool, take whatever you want. Just save some for everyone else."

"Got it, thanks again Thea. You have no idea how much we need this after the amount we drank last night." He says, while settling in front of his computer, probably to play some games.

I quietly walk into Will and Devon's shared room and shut the door behind me. The shades are slightly open and allows me to somewhat see in the otherwise dark room.

Will is sprawled out on his bed, leaving just the tiniest amount of space at the foot of his bed for me to sit in. I chuck off my shoes and sit cross legged while poking his leg through his blanket.

"Psst." I whisper to him gently as I poke him a little harder again

He shifts slightly on his back, throwing his arm over his eyes which causes his navy blue blanket to fall to his very naked stomach. Jeez, I forgot how attractive he is. We've been nothing more but friends these past few months so it kinda went over my head how attracted I was to him the first time I saw him. I mean, I've always known, but sitting here at this angle with his cute outie belly button all open for me to see I'm reminded on why 90% of the women around here go crazy over him.

"Hey, Will, wake up." I say this time, a little louder

He groans and tosses himself to his side, facing the wall where I can only see his side profile.

"William Jameson, don't leave me hanging here. I come bearing goods."

"Shh, go away T. My head is killing me."

I pout a little at his rejection. I know he's probably in a bad mood but he means a lot to me so I want him to feel better.

"I'm sorry for not seeing your message last night. I was a little busy." I say, while looking down and playing with my fingers. I genuinely do feel bad. I know how hard he's worked and how much he's wanted this.

He's quiet for bit but then says "Come here" in a grumbly morning voice.

"Huh?"

Next thing I know I'm pulled underneath his blanket with my body squished against his. His head resting on my head, arms wrapped around me. My heart beats at a rapid pace as he took me by surprise and I feel my stomach flutter a little.

What the hell is happening to me? This is Will. He's my best friend. I'm not suppose to feel butterflies around him. I mean, we've never cuddled like this. It would be weird. Yeah we've slept in the same bed and kissed before but I try not to think about the kiss. Plus, after that night we've always messed around like old friends. We don't do stuff like this. Sure, we have sleepovers but we don't cuddle, he'll sleep on the floor or crash on the futon in our common room. It doesn't help that only a few hours ago I was wrapped up in a different guy.

"Uhh, Will?"

"I'm sad and need some serotonin. Let me hug you for some." He says with a long sigh

Okay, so this is just a hug, not actual cuddling then.

"Okay." I say while he squeezes me a tiny bit more and shifts so that we lay more comfortably.

"Relax Thea." And I notice that my shoulders are held up tight, my body stiff. Then I release a breath and mold my body more comfortably to his.

***

Will

I forgot how nice it was to just hold someone like this. It also helps that Thea is my favorite person. Shit, I've cuddled some of my hookups after sex but I've never felt this much content with them. Even after a shitty night, Thea just being here not even saying anything gives me comfort.

It is at this exact moment I realize how much I like her. And I mean like her. This whole time we've hung out as friends, baring our souls to each other. Me telling her about my shitty family and the pressure of basketball while she tells me the pressure of school and the expectations her family has on her.

I'm realizing that she knows me better than anyone. She was the first person that I wanted to see last night after feeling so disappointed in myself, I almost cried. I wanted her arms around my shoulders while she hugged me hard while I lifted her petite body off the floor, my arms encircling her tiny waist.

All I wanted to do last night was stay in and hangout with her.

Oh god, I think I really like her. My best friend. We hangout almost everyday, so why am I feeling these things right now of all times?

She was with a different guy last night for christ sake. Even though she was sad to miss our game, I saw the flash of excitement in her eyes at going to that guy's lacrosse game.

Fuck, I can't even say anything. She's too into him and it would ruin our friendship. I can't make things weird between us, it would kill me inside.

"You doing okay?" She asks, breaking me away from my thoughts.

"I will be. Just need to train and work harder."

"You got time Will. You're amazing and I know you can pull it off. I'm no expert but I think there will still be scouts all over you, even if you don't come out on top your freshman year."

I breathe her scent in. This may be the first and last time I will be able to hold her like this again.

"I don't want to think about it anymore. You got goods I hear?"

"Yep, your favorite banana nut muffins and a bacon, egg and cheese sandwich with your name on it."

"I knew I kept you around for a good reason." I say with a chuckle

She rolls her eyes and smacks my chest then pushes away from me to get out of my bed. I'm immediately hit with a rush if cool air and my chest drops in disappointment at her absence.

"Yeah, Yeah. I'm just your delivery girl." She says, jokingly as she opens my door to the common room and walks over to a brown paper bag filled with food.

Devon must be the one who let her inside because I can hear him talking to his fellow gamers through his headphones while tapping away on his controller.

I sit up and lean against my wall, doing my best to act normal. Not showing that I have a crush on my best friend who has a potential new boyfriend. I frown as I recall some of the rumors I've heard about the lax team here.

I have mutual friends with some of them and being on a sports team makes rumors move fast in our circle. I've heard in the past that they're kind of sleazy. Like to sleep with as many chicks as possible for competition.

Some of my own teammates aren't any better but my friends and I treat our hookups with respect. We might be dogs but we're not complete douchebags.

I'll give Thea a little warning but I don't want to make it seem like I'm jealous. I don't even know if those rumors are true and can't exactly go accusing people about stuff.

"So, how was your night?" I ask as she walks back in the room with food and some drinks in her hand

She places the stuff on my bed and resumes her crossed legged position on my bed while organizing things neatly and placing a napkin on my lap.

Her eyes brighten at my question. See? I would rather jump off a cliff than cock block her and her happiness.

"Things with Zach went great! I actually ended up crashing at his place last night because I fell asleep."

My gut churns along with my pounding headache with this new info. Did she sleep with him? We're not the type to talk about sex straight up. And if it does come up in conversation, it's usually me that jokes around about it. She's always been very conservative about her own experiences, that's if she's ever been with anyone.

I feel sick at the thought of him being her first. No one knows her like I do and I know I would be patient and would completely worship her. Just the way she deserves. It takes my whole being to not look at her plump lips or do a take of the curvy body that was just pressed up to me 10 minutes ago.

"Nice, how'd you like his game last night?" I say, trying my best to not sound jealous

She takes a sip of orange juice and finishes chewing on her scone. I know it's vanilla bean because it's her favorite.

"I actually really liked it. I'm not usually into watching physical sports, it makes me cringe when I see someone get hit too hard. Lacrosse isn't as physical as football or hockey but it kind of reminded me of basketball in a way? Anyway, it was pretty cool."

"I'm glad you had a good time." I say with a small smile on my face. Even though I want to shove this lax guy out of the picture, I am happy that she's happy. That's all that matters anyways, she's constantly anxious about everything else in her life.

"Oh while we're on this subject..." She says, slightly avoiding my eyes and biting her full lower lip. She does this when she's nervous and I don't think she even knows it.

This can't be good.

"I'm not sure if I'll be able to hangout with you as much as we do now. Since I'm starting to see Zach now, I...I just wanted to let you know that we can't have sleepovers and all that stuff anymore."

I frown as I look directly at her. She looks as sad as I feel about this. But is it because she likes me the way I like her? I doubt it, it's why she's dating this Zach guy now. But this also rubs me off the wrong way.

"Thea, did he say you can't hang out with me anymore or are you just saying this to say this?" I ask with a warning in my voice. How does he even know how close we are?

I don't want some asshole making demands on what she can and can't do. I wouldn't make a move on her since they might be official or whatever. We've been friends for months and I haven't made any kind of move on her. Then again, I just realized my new found feelings for her.

"No, no! Just wanted to let you know." She says while avoiding my eyes again

My eyes narrow on her but I don't want to push it with her. I've tried my best to get her to talk to her dad about his harshness on her but she hates confrontations.

"I just want you to be careful with him okay? I understand we won't be together as much but you need to tell me if he gives you shit for hanging out with me or orders you around in the future. Got it?"

"Okay, got it." She says while shaking her head

I wish I truly savored my time with her today because it was the last time we hung out without the weight of her new boyfriend on her shoulders. The last time we were truly just Will and Thea, best friends before I lost her.