Thump. Thump. Thump.

My heart's beating crazy, honestly like horses going for war. A little more Sam. You can do this!

I push myself, feeling the burn and strain on my thighs and calves. It's been months and I am still not used to it. I've been running every day for about 5 months now, and by running I mean exercising. My eyes find the perfect girls in their tight workout clothes in front of me, going for an hour now, her hair perfect, her legs, her arms, a flat stomach, everything about her is perfect.

And then there's me.

A few months ago Avery started to slip in thoughts about wanting to "mate" after my birthday. I can't like physically deny that I don't want to. I really want to. Things have been crazy between us recently. Not a bad crazy just a, well, braver crazy.

Let's go back to the time Avery flirted with and teased me immensely during the Christmas dinner we had at home. She casually removed the shirt she was wearing, her eyes dark and on me, as she undid one button at a time. I was hooked, I couldn't look away. My nails created crescent marks on my thighs and I kept biting on my lip to stop any lewd noises from escaping. She knew I was watching and she wanted me to. And then she did something that god- she should go to jail for; slipping her tongue from in between her lip and did a licking motion of the air, letting her eyes drop to my hips, below that and then back to mine. I almost let off a gasp at how obscene that looked and what she was intending to do. I couldn't look her in the eyes again that night. The thought of her even touching me- down, down there makes heat pool in my stomach.

The texts she sent me that night and the days that follow. It was as if the switch in her turned on and her thoughts were wild. She kept saying how much she wanted me and how she can't wait to kiss me and touch me and leave hickeys on any skin of mine that she could feel and see. I mean, fuck, what do you say to things like that? It distracted me for days to end, my thoughts consumed by images that made me shiver from the delight of them happening. It made me want her even more, I wanted her to do things to me, whatever she wanted. I wanted to do things to her.

This brings me here. A few days before school ended, a bunch of girls were talking about going to the beach and my friends; Kyrah, Lynn, and Eli wanted to go too and asked me to come. I was going to agree to it until someone pointed out that "no one invited the fat whale", meaning me. And suddenly I was just more aware of how I looked and I just wasn't okay looking like I had a few extra pounds on compared to them. It broke my heart. And it made me even worse when I realized Avery wouldn't want me looking like this. I wasn't perfect like the other girls at school, I didn't have a flat tummy or thin arms, or clear skin not to mention the scars I have all over me. I just, it hit me. It hit me really hard that I wasn't beautiful. Avery doesn't need me looking like that, she doesn't deserve a fat whale as a mate.

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"I told you that I want them both ready, Joanne!" I sighed angrily rubbing my temples. Everyone was pissing me off today, and for once I just want things to go fucking perfect for the love of my life and every darn idiot gotta mess things up.

"I'm sorry ma'am, I'll go and check on it. I'll call Jack to check the plane." I grunted and threw the phone onto my head before screaming out in frustration. Just one fucking day world. Could you not mess it up for me?!

W- Calm down Avery, it'll go okay. We still got time.

A- I just, I've been planning this for so long and I don't want it to flop you know. I'm gonna fire her, I swear I'll fire her if this doesn't go right. Sam deserves the best.

W- I know. It'll go okay. Go get ready. You need to collect the ring yet.

A- Yeah I know.

I sighed softly now and checked the list on my phone again before calling my parents and making sure things were okay there.

Today's Sam's 18th birthday. And I'm freaking out. Honestly don't know why I'm nervous but fuck I can't wait to kiss her.

I ran to the shower and quickly got ready, throwing on the outfit I picked for today, just a simple shirt and some jeans and sneakers, my usual rings and chains. I did my hair to the side, remembering that Sam likes it like that and I was out the door in 15 minutes, grabbing the duffle bag I packed for later.

I had like 5 things to do before I could head over to our parents' place for the party.

1. Pick up the ring.

2. Pick up the flowers.

3. Run to my office and get the bag with Sam's gift inside which I forgot.

4. Check on the plane again.

5. Pump gas and get snacks.

And I've got an hour. Shit. Okay.

After scrambling and running around for more than an hour, my phone rang.

"Hello?" I didn't even see the caller ID and picked up, running up the escalators.

"Avery? Where are you?" Oh shit. Sam. I checked the time. Fuck! I'm late.

"Sorry love, I'll be there soon. I'm sorry, I just need to get something from the office. You guys start first? I'll be there in 20."

"Oh." I can hear the pout in her voice.

"Okay, you coming though right?" she asks again, making me frown.

"Of course baby girl, why wouldn't I? It's your birthday." I scanned the card and walked into the room, immediately finding the red bag in the corner. I ran to it and grabbed it and I was out the door again.

"Okay, I know, sorry. I'll see you yeah?" I hummed.

"No don't be, I'll come, babe, don't worry, twenty, promise. I love you." I say smiling as I reached my car and sit down, turning it on.

"Okay, I love you too. See you." I replied with a bye and cut the line before driving to the hangar near the office. I met up with Jeff, the guy who's gonna fly the plane later and saw Joanne there.

"It's all checked for ma'am." I nodded and paid Jeff the extra for our flight later.

"Thanks, I'll see you all later." And I'm back in the car again. I scanned the things and patted the ring in my pocket. Okay, phew calm down.

Yeah no, it's not happening.

I rushed to the gas station and pumped some and got snacks and I was back into the car. Next stop. Home.

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"Happy Birthday to youuuu!!!" I giggle softly as I hear everyone sing the ending of the song, my face beat red from embarrassment. I cut the cake and it followed with a series of claps and "whoots" from my friends. Mum and dad fed me the cake and then my friends eagerly took huge pieces and stuffed them into my mouth and rubbed the icing on my cheeks and nose. Bastards.

"Come on honey. We wanna start opening the presents soon." Mum says, bring the crowd to the living room. I grinned in excitement. I cleared the icing off and we all went in front. I looked outside to see if Avery was here and she still hasn't come. I sighed internally. What was so important? I was really looking forward to seeing her. I can finally touch her today, after more than a year. I thought she would have been here first thing in the morning. But she wasn't. I didn't want to feel like a whiny child and a clingy girlfriend but I just thought she would be here.

"So who's first?" I opened a bunch of gifts from my friends and some from family, grandma, grandpa, and lastly my parents.

"Here you go, sweetie." They passed me a small box with a bow on it, making me smile.

"Thank you." I opened it and gasped, my eyes widening in disbelief. I looked up at them and I see the grin on their faces before they gestured outside.

"I can't take this, mum, dad. No..." I whisper my mind going blank as I followed them numbly outside. In front of us was a car.

They got me a car.

"We want you to have it. You might need it when you go off to college. Do you like it?" Mum asked softly and I run into her arms sobbing, holding her tight.

"I can't take this, you guys can't give me a car..that's just..." I cried out, not believing it. This is too much. I don't deserve it. I'm not their daughter. I don't think they even gave Avery a car.

"Nonsense! You're our baby. We want to do this. We've got plenty of money honey, honestly. We love you, you know that right." Dad says from beside me and I turn to him, my eyes all glossy before hugging him too. He places a kiss on my head.

"I love you both so much, I'm...I'm so thankful, I don't deserve you guys.." I whisper softly and mum looks at me sternly.

"No, no more of that. Hush now, come on, let's give it a spin yeah." I kissed both of them on the cheek before nodding softly and walking over to my car.

"Oh God..really?" I say again for like the hundredth time. They chuckled and we got in. Kyrah and Lynn followed us. We drove a little and god I keep tearing up. I so don't deserve it. They're too nice to me.

We then got home and ate cake and food. It was such a perfect day, I've never been happier.

The only thing is that Avery is still not here. I texted her again. She still hasn't replied to my last text. I sighed and went upstairs to my room. I cleared and kept away all the presents and stuff I got before changing into something more comfortable. I checked my phone again and grinned, a text from Avery.

A❤- I'll be there in 5 babygirl

My eyes widened. Oh shit. That's 3 minutes ago. Shit. I need to change. I scrambled and put on a T-shirt and some jeans, leaving my hair down and running out the door. Once I reach down I hear the door open and mum's voice.

"She's upstairs." I hear her say but yell back.

"M' here!" I jogged all the way to the front door and a smile broke out on my face as I saw Avery step into the house, her eyes on mine. They flash silver once and my heart skipped a beat. Mum left us with a knowing smile on her face.

"Hi." I panted out, I was breathless, don't even know why but looking at Avery here with a bunch of flowers in her hand and the longing in her eyes makes me weak in the knees.

"Baby girl, happy birthday." She says taking a step closer to me and holding the flowers out to me. Is she gonna hold me? Hug me? Can I kiss her? I see the question in her eyes too and I took them from her before flinging myself into her arms.

"Sam..." she gasped out, gripping me tight. My heart was banging in my chest as I closed my eyes and held onto her. Oh God, I missed her, I feel something too, like tiny vibrations, like some buzzing as I held her, all over my body. She smelled so good too, god, her shampoo and perfume were heavens.

"I wanna kiss you, Sam- look at me." I pull back slightly, looking into her green eyes, god she's so beautiful and leans up on my toes. She cups both of my cheeks and kisses me, finally. I groan, my hands tightening around her waist.

"Oh fuck." She growls, lowly in the back of her throat and I buckle, my legs almost giving out and that's when she grabs my butt, lifting me off the ground and I took the opportunity to wrap my legs around her. I let out a surprised yelp as she turned us around and shut the door, pushing me against it, hard.

"Oh..." I whimpered helplessly as she sucked on my lips, her tongue touching mine, licking, tasting, her fingers groping me against the door, running up and down my thighs and hands as if memorizing my figure, feeling every inch of me, leaving a fire trailing.

"You smell so good." She groans, giving me a second to breathe, meeting my eyes before her lips were back on mine. We kissed furiously, oh God, I was so sure she could hear my heart beating and feel the heat on my face and cheeks. There was so much of longing, passion, and frustration in the kiss it just made me feel all loopy and dazed. I missed feeling this when we kissed. I missed her.

"I love you, I love you so much." She pauses looking into my eyes as I stare into hers and see nothing but love and want in them. I wrapped my arms around her neck and pulled her even closer if possible, she pressed her body onto mine and I could feel every curve of hers making me clench down there. We fit so perfectly.

"I love you, Avery," I whisper truthfully and she kisses me again. Her fingers grabbed the back of my neck, holding me there and that makes me feel the warmth pooling at my stomach again. She has me caged against the door, all I could see, smell and taste were her.

"I miss you, Goddess, how did I make it not touching you for so long?" she heaves out, before peppering kissing to my neck, making me whine before my mouth fell open shaping an 'o'.

"Mate. My mate. Mine." She grunted out, as I feel her teeth graze my neck before she sucked on it.

"Oh! Fuck.." I cursed out, buckling in her hold again as she focused on giving me the hickey. Her lips found mine again a few seconds later, kissing me hard before leaning her forehead against mine. I had my eyes closed, my legs were all shaking, fuck. I feel her kiss my cheek and forehead a few times, before combing her fingers through my hair.

"Alright?" she asks softly breathless and I giggle breathlessly as well before nodding.

"You mesmerize me," I whisper opening my eyes to look at her. She smirks slightly.

"I do?" She asks back and I nod, blushing, her eyes flicker down to the hickey on my neck I assume and back to my face.

"Well, can't help it if I do that love and I'm sorry that I'm late." She apologizes and I shook my head.

"It's okay, you're here now." She smiles as if remembering something and slowly put me down, but her hand stays around my waist.

"Still. So, to make it up to you, I've got a surprise for your birthday. Firstly, we need to go pack you a bag. We're going on a trip." My eyes widened in surprise.

"Wait really? Where? Now?" I asked excited and she nods kissing the side of my head.

"Yes, now and it's a surprise. Come on." She says, taking my hand in hers, kissing the back of it, making me blush and pulling me along as we went up to my room.

She picked out a few things that she thinks I need while I got my toiletries and makeup.

"You wanna change from what you're wearing or is it comfortable?" she asks wrapping her arms around me from the back. My heart fluttered as I leaned into her, feeling her leave kisses on my shoulder.

"It's fine actually," I say and she hums turning me to her and placing a chaste kiss on my lips, surprising me.

"Get a hoodie or jacket, might be cold." I nod not moving though. She brings her hand up to cup my cheek, rubbing it softly as I look up at her.

"You're so beautiful Sam, everything about you is perfect and I'm so undeniably in love with you." She whispers against my lips and it takes a lot from me not to melt in her arms. I will never get used to her calling me beautiful. Am I really? I see the truth in her eyes and I feel so lucky that she's here and she's mine.

"I love you too Avery, pretty much crazy about you," I mumble honestly, feeling my cheeks heat up. She chuckles softly and kisses me again.

"Come on, I've got so much planned for you." She says breaking out into a grin. I nod and turned to take my bag but she reached for it first. I giggled and took my hoodie, which was technically her hoodie and my phone, wallet and she took my other hand in hers again and pulled me with her. I liked that she was touching me all the time. She told me about it last time and now it's like she doesn't want to step away not even for a while and I love it. Her touch instantly makes me calm and feel better and when she's here it's like I'm safe, nothing could go wrong.

We bid goodbye to our parents and walked out of the door. Mum and dad knew that she has all this planned and I wonder what actually is going on, where are we going? For how long?

"Damn babe!" She whistled looking at my car making me laugh.

"I know. It's crazy, I don't deserve it." She pauses and frowns.

"No, don't. Don't say that. You do. You just came into our lives and theirs you can't blame them if they wanna spoil you. They've always wanted another child, they just never got to." she says and I felt bad.

"Mum lost 2 after me and I knew how much it broke them. We already had a room ready for baby brothers, twins." She says her expression one of pain and I gasped. Twins?

"The room you're in now, I remember painting cars on the walls and thinking about how I can't wait to have someone to play with and it was just gone like that. The pack wasn't safe then, we were small and it worried mum and when dad got hurt in the war, she was under a lot of stress and it just happened. I was barely 5 but I remember everything." My throat clogged up hearing this new piece of information. Baby brothers. If they were here, they would be mine too.

"I'm sorry babe," I mumble, rubbing her hand for comfort. She sighs softly.

"I know, it's alright. It was a long time ago. We're okay now. And we got you. We were lucky too you know, to get you, not just me as a mate, but them too. It's not just us anymore." She says and I swallowed, hugging her side.

"I shouldn't have said this, it just ruined our mood, but no more saying you don't deserve it okay? You deserve us, we love you, I love you. And we're family." She promised me and I nodded.

"Okay, I'm sorry." She smiles and nods.

We got in her car and I grinned seeing a bag with my name on it. A present. And there was food and snacks and Avery's bag as well.

"So. Pick one." She says putting out both her hand as we sat in the car. I grinned excitedly and thought a while before picking her right hand.

"Nice. Do you want to know where we're going or you just wanna see later?"

"No, tell me," I say jumping in my seat almost. She chuckles.

"To an island, by a plane. It's about an hour's flight. I rented a small villa for us for a few days." My mouth dropped open and I stared at her like a fish. She chuckles and kisses my cheek before starting the ignition and driving.

"You're joking," I say and she shakes her head, a smile on her lips.

"Nope." She says popping the p.

"Babe! What?! No. Are you serious?!" I got out overjoyed. An island?! By a plane?! This is huge holy cow!

"I'm serious love." Holy shit.

"Really?" I turned to look at her again and she nods smiling at me. She reaches for my hand and holds it, resting it on my thigh.

"Yes, really." I smiled and tighten my hold around her fingers, loving this moment we are in.

Avery drove us past her office and we talked about the day, well I talked and she listened and asked about presents and my friends and soon we were at the small airport at the end of the city. It took an hour to get here and I was buzzing with excitement.

"Come love." She says and takes my hand again as we walked to the plane and my heart was pounding with excitement, I couldn't wash away the smile on my face. She introduced me to the crew as her girlfriend. I wasn't expecting that but damn. She gives me a knowing smile. Finally, as a girlfriend and not a sister.

Two guys helped us with our bags and they did a security check and then we climbed into the plane. I was shaky and a little nervous. I've never been on a plane and it's a really small plane. It was actually really nice on the inside. There were 8 seats and Avery and I got in the one at the back, and she let me have the window seat.