The past few weeks went by with a flash. I could feel the tension from Avery as the date of her leaving neared. I hated to see the dread and pain in her eyes knowing that this is how things have to be. She'll be leaving in exactly three days now, she's already packed her things, her room was almost empty again as she wouldn't be coming to stay here until I'm 18. It broke my heart knowing I'd have to watch her from afar and only could wish that I was with her every day. It hurt, physically hurt when we were not together, which Avery mentioned one night as we lay cuddled in her bed. If I felt this much pain, I could only imagine what she goes through.

I met her Alpha, and he explained everything to me again and I could only nod. I couldn't do anything. This wasn't something I could change. He has this view of Avery not having control around me. It made my cheeks warm knowing that it was actually a real thing like she really wouldn't be able to control her sexual tendencies around me, her mate.

It still hasn't hit my brain that this is real. Avery is a werewolf, she's part animal, and honestly, I don't know why that's a turn on. I loved seeing her eyes switch color to silver, and hear that growl when she realizes someone else's eyes on me and it warmed my heart, it makes me all fuzzy, it's just a crazy feeling especially how she would pull me to her chest once were home, burying her head in my neck and hair, breathing in my scent, as she says, it calms her and her wolf knowing that their mate was here in their arms. My heart would beat like crazy, as she held me, her arms possessive, especially when she looked at me with eyes full of adoration and want.

We're sitting in the hall, playing a board game with mum, dad, and Jake. I don't really like Jake. I don't like him around Avery. He's always there, always looking at her like she's...she's special to him. I get it they're best friends, but I don't like the way he looks at her. I wonder if there was a thing between them. It scared me to ask Avery this, I don't think I'm ready to know if there was something. Are people that close to their best friends? Even if they're the opposite gender? I guess that doesn't matter if they're not straight or anything, but I would never know. I've never had any close friends, maybe just one from back at the orphanage, Milo, he was the only other shy kid there, but when I got adopted I just never saw him. Would I be like how Avery and Jake are with Milo? That close?

"Sam it's your turn." Avery nudged me, pulling me away from my thoughts.

"Oh sorry." I rolled the dice and then moved my piece, we were playing monopoly. The game ended a little in an hour when Jake said he was bored.

"Well, what do you want to do then?" Avery asks, leaving back again the foot of the couch as I followed. She turns to smile at me, taking my hand in hers, my heart skipped a beat. I looked down and then back to mum and Jake. Jake was staring at us with an unreadable expression on his face, almost pained?

"We could go to our spot, get some pizza?" he asks, switching his eyes to just Avery. Their spot? They have a spot? I held my breath when he said that trying not to get jealous. He wiggles his eyebrows at her and my hand tightened over Avery's unconsciously.

"Yeah sure, I'm gonna miss that place. Mum is that okay?" I kept my eyes on Jake and then Jake found my eyes and he just looks away, his jaw clenching slightly. Woah? What is happening?

"Yeah, you Sam?" Mum asked and I turned to them, smiling and nodding.

"I'm okay with it," I say and Avery beams. She stood up and pulled me up, dragging me with her.

"We're going to change, see you in a bit," Avery says as I blush looking down, but I caught Jake's hand clenching. I almost stopped walking but I didn't. I tried not to think about it. But deep down I knew it, Jake likes Avery, more than a friend.

"We need to get you a jacket love, it's cold," Avery said walking to her closet and taking out a leather jacket and passing it to me.

"Thank you," I muttered and she winks before taking another and placing it on. I looked into the mirror as Avery came and stood behind me, wrapping her arm around my waist.

"We match," she mumbles, her eyes on me, making me feel self-conscious and shy.

"Yeah," I whisper. My mind was still on Jake earlier.

"We look like a power couple honestly, look at you, you're gorgeous," she says and my heart leapt.

"I'm not." I pout. Me? Gorgeous. Her eyebrow rose.

"You are, now hush," she says, kissing my cheek. I turned around in her arms and wrapped my arms around her waist. She tucks my loose hair behind my ear and looks at me with those eyes again, with adoration and want.

"You're beautiful," I say to her and I see her cheeks reddened.

"Well, you're my soulmate, so technically you're a mirror, that means you're beautiful. Now come on, we're being extremely sappy today. The faster we go, the faster we can come back and I cuddle with you." She says her hand rubbing my waist. I giggle and her words but nodded.

"Okay," I say as she takes my hand and we walk out of her room. Just as we were reaching down, I heard her whisper to herself.

I'm so glad you're my mate.

I bit my cheek, keeping my eyes down and acting like I didn't hear her say that, smiling to myself.

Me too, Avery.

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I don't want to go.

Fuck.

I turned to Sam who was curled up on my bed and my hand clenched the bedsheet. Two years. How do I live two years not being able to touch her?

Goddess, this sucks so bad. I've already cried twice. Last night when we were cuddling and Sam broke down in my arms just as we said goodnight. It hurt me so much that this was happening. I wish I could do something about this. I didn't want her to hurt. She doesn't always show how she feels, but last night, she was open and bare, no walls, I could see everything in her eyes, and God, how much pain there was.

We never had time to sit and talk about the incident. I wanted to talk about how she's become so self-conscious about her scars. She never wore shorts anymore, even when we were sleeping. We didn't have time to do normal couple stuff, I haven't taken her out for a date. I haven't got her flowers. I haven't asked her to be my girlfriend.

I never thought meeting my mate would go like this. I've planned out everything for years, wanting things to be perfect and I guess fate just dropped by and handed me this perfect girl and left. And I'm on my feet constantly trying to be the best version of a mate to her. I've made a vow to start all over again after the two years. I knew I was falling for her, but I was going to date her properly, take her out, spoil her, she deserves everything and I'm planning to do everything right once we're actually together. For now, I'll love her behind closed doors.

"Sam, baby." I caressed her hair, kissing her head waking up. I hear her groan and then the eyes flutter open, immediately a smile on my face. I'm such a goner for her.

"You're awake?" she asks me confused seeing that I was all dressed and I nodded.

"Yeah, I just wanted to spend some time with you before I have to go, we could get breakfast?" I ask her softly and then suddenly it hits her that I'm leaving today and she was up, sitting on the bed. My heart tugged.

"Okay, I'll be ready in 10," she mutters softly, giving me a glance before running off to the bathroom. I felt my chest constricting again at the look she gave me. I stayed there in the bed, waiting for her. I didn't want to move. My hand grazed the place she slept, it was still warm from her body being there. I took in a deep breath, taking in her scent in the room, my room, and my bed. I'm going to miss her.

(convo with her wolf)

W-Me too.

A- I can't do this, how...how are we going to do this? I already feel like dying.

W- Me too, I'm so weak Avery. I don't know what to do, there's nothing else we can do.

A- Goddess, why did you put us in this position?

My wolf was silent after that, just the occasional whimpers I hear when my thoughts go back to leaving. I heard the bathroom door open and Sam was there, in a simple light yellow blouse and some jeans.

"You look cute," I say smiling and walking up to her, my mood instantly getting better. She blushed and mutters a thank you. I love that she's so shy. It's so adorable. I gave her a few more minutes and she did her hair and put on some lip balm and then I moved forward to kiss her head, hearing her sigh softly and hugging me.

"Morning," she mumbled into my shirt.

"Good morning, love," I whisper back to her, rubbing her back and arms, and caressing her hair. We stood like that, just in each other's arms.

"What time you're leaving?" she asks.

"At one. Flights at 4." I say and she nods sighing. I gripped her hand pulling away.

"We'll be okay Sam," I say, lying through my teeth. I won't. But I have to be. She nods too, her eyes dim, still slightly swollen from last night. She doesn't believe me. And I don't try to make it sound believable.

"Come on," I say softly pulling her with me as we went downstairs. Mum and dad were still asleep so I left a note for them on the fridge and then we wore our shoes and Sam took our jackets as I took my wallet and the car keys. We were silent the entire time until I started driving.

"Avery?" I hummed softly.

"In this 2 years...will you - uhm, date?" I froze in shock and turned to her slightly.

"What do you mean? As in date another person?" I say and she nods, her eyes scared of my answer and her lips in a frown.

"No Sam, I'm not going to. I don't want to." I say reassuringly and take her hand in mine, kissing the back of it.

"Oh," she mutters.

"I don't want to baby, you're my mate, I'm not going to, I never even thought about it. I don't want anyone else." I say again, my eye glancing at her small figure beside me. I see her exhale but her hands were shaking. She was scared? Did she really think I'd leave her? And be with someone else?

"Hey precious, look at me. Hold up." I say, bring the car to the side of the road and parking it before turning to her. She bit her lips which were wobbling and her eyes were down.

"Sam...hey," I called out again, cupping her cheek.

"I don't want you to be with someone else," she mutters in one breath, her voice cracking at the end.

"I'm not going to be with someone else. Ever, not tomorrow or next month or next year. I've got you. I'm going to wait for you. I don't want anyone else okay?" I repeated again, holding her hand tighter and caressing her cheek. She nods.

"Look at me, baby," I say and she does, and I still see the worry in them.

"Listen, you're mine, my girl, and my mate, and I'm yours, I'll wait for you, for us, you really don't have to worry. I told you, whatever I feel is for you, only you." I say and she nods again, stronger now, and reaches forward and hugs me. It startled me a bit but I hugged her back just as tight, rubbing her back, and I could feel her trying not to cry again.

"I'm so pathetic," she whispers ashamed and I shook my head.

"Never. I'm exactly like this, believe me, I'm just good at hiding it, once I'm alone, gonna cry a dam." I say making her chuckle. I grinned.

"I'm sorry for being insecure and you know.," she says and I pull back and kiss her forehead. I see her visibly calm down.

"You don't have to apologize, it's normal. Hell, I'm insecure and worried that you might find someone in school, who's your age, you know." I say softly, my wolf growling chanting "mine" in my head.

"No! I won't ever. No." She says in surprise and I grin.

"I know, I trust you. You have to trust me too okay? We aren't gonna change, not now, not ever." I say staring at her face again. Her eyes have become my favourite colour, her hair, I wish I could play with it all day long, and kiss the scar on her forehead, and God those lips have me going crazy. She's angelic honestly, she's so innocent and pretty and just, so beautiful, sometimes I'm glad she isn't a wolf, she would hear how my heart rages for her.

"Thank you," she mutters and I shook my head. But she continues.

"For everything you've done for me Avery, from that first day at the coffee shop, and until now, everything you've done is for me, a stranger, you and your family have been so kind, I don't know how..and why I deserve this and you," she says, blushing slightly at the end. I shake my head smiling.

"Our family love, our family. And that day at the coffee shop, I don't know why I did that, give that to you. Something kicked in and was like "go, she needs it" and it just happened and then I was like "holy shit, she's my mate" and I was so over the moon, I don't even know how to explain it, I felt so high." I say smiling slightly making her giggle.

"But still thank you."

"No, no saying thank you, ever," I say and she just gives me a small smile. We continue the drive, getting some tea and pancakes, and heading over to the park to have a picnic. We were very secluded so I could hug and kiss Sam all I wanted and then we just laid there, cuddling for an hour before heading back.

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Avery was getting her stuff ready, she was leaving in 15 minutes and my heart feels so heavy. It hurts so much. I don't want her to go. Why do things have to be this way?

"Hey, we go down and wait for the car?" she asks walking up to me as I sat at the edge of her bed. I nodded, trying not to tear up. She takes my hand and kneels on the floor in front of me.

"Promise me you'll take care of yourself, Sam, you need to eat more." she starts off and I look into her green eyes and nodded. I will.

"I'll call you every day, okay, and we can Skype, the timing might be a bit off but I'll try to fit you in whenever I can. And text you." I nod, my thoughts going to the new phone and laptop mum got me.

"Just be safe okay. I'll see you in three months. We'll be okay precious, I promise you. Just got to be strong okay?" she says and I let out a sob. I've never been good at being strong. I crumble and fall onto her, gripping her tight.

"Baby, shh, it's okay." she keeps saying but it's not okay. It's not.

"I-I don't want you..to g-go." I sob into her shoulder, I can't. I can't lose her. She's leaving, like everyone else and I'm going to be alone again.

"I know, love, but I have to. It'll be over soon just three months yeah, we'll talk every day it'll be okay." she coos and rubs my hair, her voice thick with tears.

"You won't leave me right?" I muttered helplessly insecure again. She could get whoever she wants, Avery's beautiful and gorgeous and a somebody.

"Never baby, never. Come on, don't cry, please.." she whispers and pulls back wiping my tears and kissing my cheeks. I held her hands and stopped her movements.

"Kiss me before you go," I demand almost. If this is the last time...

"Sam.," she mutters, cupping my cheek, I move closer to her and grip her arm.

"Please Avery, please kiss me." Kiss me like you don't want to let me go.

"Okay shh, okay," she mumbles looking into my eyes and I see that glint in them again and she kisses me so hard, our teeth almost clashing together. I heard her groan and her hand crawl down to my waist and flush our bodies together. Oh, God. Fuck. Her grip on my waist was hard, keeping me there, while my hands when up to her neck and hair. I moaned as I felt her tongue lick my bottom lip and unconsciously I moved even closer to her, tugging at the collar of her shirt.

"You're mine. Don't ever forget that," she mumbles against my lips before holding my jaw and placing another hot, possessive kiss on it.

"I'm yours," I say, my cheeks warming up as she continued placing small chaste kisses on my lips, my cupid's bow, the corner of my mouth and then down to my jaw and to my neck.

"Mine," she growls out before I feel her teeth graze against my skin making me whimper and almost buckle in her hold. Oh, God. I was trembling but I wanted more. I muttered her name under my breath as she kissed down till my collarbone.

"I feel like an animal," she whispers after a while, humour lacing her words. I giggle and look at her as she pulls back.

"You're not," I say bashfully knowing I full well enjoyed this side of her. She grinned, tucked my hair behind my ears and wrapped her arms around me.

"I'm gonna miss you so much," she says her voice sad again. I nod.

"Me too." Then we heard a car horn. Both of us flinched and looked at each other. This is it.

"You should go," I say softly, my heart getting heavy again, she sighs and we stand up.

"Okay. Let's go," she whispers and I barely hear her, don't know if she was talking to me but I followed her. Mum and Dad were waiting for us, a sad smile on their face. Avery dropped my hand and hugged them, and I see mum trying not to cry.

"It's like you're going to university all over again," she says and Avery gives her a little smile.

"It won't be that long. See you guys. I love you both." My heart jumped hearing that from Avery's lips as she hugged them again. They said they loved her too. They're such a perfect family.

"Honey," Mum called out to me, putting her hand out for me. I gave her a small smile and held her hand while she pulled me close and dad put his hand on my shoulder as we stood by the door, which was now open and watch Avery walk down the steps to the driveway and my eyes gloss over again. I tightened my hold on mum's hand and she hugs me now. Hold it in Sam, come on. Don't cry.

Avery opens the door of the cab and puts her things before turning back to us, I see the tears on her face, her eyes met mine and I bit my lips. Then she's running. My eyes widened as I took a step forward. She ran up to me and pulled me for a hug, her arms were so tight I almost couldn't breathe but I hugged her back. I breathe her scent in one last time. She placed one kiss on my head and with that, she was out of my arms in barely a few seconds and running down those steps again. She doesn't turn back. Not at all. And I break.

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A/N:

Oh, that's a fucking long ass heavy chapter. It's hard to write all this emo stuff but yeah. Hope you guys like it. ❤