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It's been 3 days since I've heard from Avery. I wish I could act like this didn't bother me, but it did. It crushed me every day hearing the phone ring and the door open and it not being her.

I've been going to Avery's room every night because I can't sleep. I just stand there by the door and imagine what I would see if she was here. If I was here with her.

But she isn't here. I've asked mum about on the first day after she left, that very second when Avery ran, pulling away from my hold it felt like there was a weight I was carrying. It was there, and it was going to drop at any moment. I wasn't ready for this. Something was going to happen, and I knew it was between Avery and I. Mum says she has to think about things. The second day she says she's busy at school. On the third day she says that she'll be back soon. She isn't.

Is it my fault? Did I do something? My mind has wondered about everything and gone through every scenario in the past two weeks, hoping there was something I could find. But there was nothing I could recall that made her like this.

2 days later.

Nothing. No calls. Nothing. She isn't back. I'm worried and I miss her. I cried to sleep last night. I want her back.

It's the next morning and I'm already waiting for it to end. I'm supposed to start school at home in a few days, and mum said she was going to take me shopping for supplies today. She said we both needed the fresh air from being cooped up at home, but I know she was doing it for me. I didn't miss those glances I got from her and dad as I ask about Avery every day at breakfast and how they tell me that she'll be back soon. They knew I missed her, but I wasn't getting an answer and it hurt. Why did she leave?

I sighed and got out of bed, taking a quick shower, wearing some jeans and a T-shirt, and tied my hair before walking down the stairs. I came to a halt as I heard chattering in the living room. Avery.

Oh my God.

She's here.

She's back.

I was nervous and anxious, I hear her laugh and talk but I couldn't make out the words, my heart was jumping out of my chest. I took the last step and slowly made my way there. My nails pressed into the palm of my hand as I bit my lip. A part of me was scared to be disappointed and that I was hearing things. It wasn't her. She wasn't back.

I passed the wall and immediately my eyes found hers. Avery.

My heart leapt and I froze, my eyes widening in shock. She was already looking at me like she knew I was coming in. I said nothing as I stood there. I saw mum and dad look at both of us and then back to Avery. I kept my eyes on her, knowing that I couldn't comprehend words, my mind was fuzzy.

"Hey." I hear her say as she stood up, and walked over to me. I took a step back as a reflex and stopped myself just as she did. She looked shocked, and slightly confused but continued walking over to me.

"Sam," she whispered as she stood in front of me now, her hand reaching to grip my wrist again, and suddenly I had deja vu of that day.

"You're back." I choked out, I couldn't stop myself, tears sprung to my vision and I immediately took a step forward and hugged her tight.

"I'm so sorry," she whispered again, I could feel the regret in her voice and she held me with her long arms, tucking me under her chin.

"Where did you go? Why did you leave?" I asked, my face still buried in her chest. She sighs and caresses my hair and I sighed. I missed her hugs and her smell, and how she held me, just like she is doing now like I'm valuable to her like she wants me safe.

"I'll tell you, I promise. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you, Sam. I just needed to get away for a while." Her voice was sad as she says this and my heart twisted. What happened? Is it with her school? Family? Did something happen?

"You'll tell me?" I ask pulling back and looking up into her green eyes that I've been seeing in my dream for the past week. She nods giving me a small smile, she reaches up and wipes my tears before placing a kiss on my forehead. My heart warmed, all mushy, instantly forgiving her for leaving me alone this past week.

"Let's eat now okay?" I nod and let my arms fall from her waist and she takes my hand before pulling me to the table. I follow behind her, greeting our parents and kissing mum on the cheek.

We had a perfect family breakfast, consisting of dad telling us stories about his hunting trip yesterday. I looked across the table and Avery was there and my heart started to race again. I felt so relieved and happy to see her. It's indescribable really. She looks up suddenly from eating and gives me a small smile and I blush looking down. I really do like her, even though a part of me tells me I shouldn't.

I helped dad with the dishes as Avery went to shower. I wondered where she stayed and if she ain't well in the past few days. I was also on edge waiting for whatever she was going to tell me, and I don't think it was going to be good.

"You go and catch up with Avery a while alright? Then we'll head out to buy supplies." Mum says walking in the kitchen and towards me. I nodded drying my hands. She gave me a small smile and I could feel the worry from her. Oh no.

I trotted up the stairs, afraid, and shy of being so close to Avery again, but it was like I'm drawn to her, I wanted to be wherever she was. I walked to her room and she was there, drying her hair as she sat on her bed in some shorts and a hoodie. She's so beautiful it's like I'm reminded of it all over again.

"You coming in?" I snapped back to reality hearing Avery speak. I blushed embarrassed that she caught me staring at her, again. I nod and walked into the room.

"Can I close the door?" I asked her and she nods. I did it and went to her bed, sitting down. I kept my head down and looked at my hands in my laps, waiting for Avery to say something.

"I missed you, baby," she mumbled and my heart tugged and warmed at her words.

Baby. She called me baby. She missed me. I'm still not used to this. I glanced up at her and she had a small smile on her face, but her eyes were sad.

"I missed you too," I say back in a small voice. She sighs and puts her towel away before nearing me, our knees touching each other. Her hand reached for my fingers, playing with them, rubbing my hand, then her eyes moved to my face, and immediately I was so self-conscious. I didn't understand the way she looked at me. Is that want? Need? Sadness? Longing? I'm right here, why does she look at me that way. Just as I was about to say something, she spoke.

"I wanna kiss you, can I?" she asked, her voice careful as if she stepped over a boundary. She didn't. She could kiss me all she wants. I wanted her to. I nod, smiling. She leans forward, her hand cupping my cheek, rubbing my jaw as her eyes trained on my lips. I see her bite her lips and that lit up a fire in me, I had to stop myself from whimpering. Oh God, what was happening to me?

"You sure?" she asks again, her lips dangerously near, I could feel her breath, her lips tickling my jaw.

"Please." I groaned out softly now. I needed her. She tightened her hold on my neck and kissed me, it was hesitant but she kissed me. Instantly her other hand, held my waist, holding me there for her to devour. I didn't mind. Not one bit. She kissed me furiously, and I was a bit surprised. She never kissed me like this before. I loved it, it felt like she wanted me as much as I wanted her. I moved closer, trying to focus on kissing her and keeping up with her. Ever since that first kiss and not seeing her these few days it made me crave her. It's embarrassing honestly but I do.

"Goddess, Sam." She breathed out so softly her voice, almost in pain before she kissed me again. My body was on fire now, she had lit me up with that kiss and I just wished I did the same for her. She pulled away from me a little and I panted, breathless. She didn't stop. She peppered kisses on my jaw, and down to my neck and I feel her inhale my neck making me blush red. Her hands hook me under my thighs and pull me up onto her lap, and I blushed even more. Oh, God. I was so turned on. Her hands stayed on my thighs, rubbing them up and down, I shivered in need. I needed this from her. I needed her to touch me.

"You're so heavenly," she growled and my heart stopped for a bit. She sounded so animalistic it sent a shiver down to my core. I blushed again. She had never said this. She had never touched me like this. We stayed like that for a bit, her hand on my thighs holding me there as if I wanted to get off and her face in my neck. I tried to keep my heart from bursting with how fast it was racing every time Avery moved and tightened her hold on me. I honestly can't process things when she's touching me. And it's worse because I guess I've never been ever held or kissed or wanted and here she is doing all that to me. And I can't take it.

"We need to talk," she whispers after a while, pulling away but still keeping her hands on me. She was reluctant, I could see it in her eyes. Is it bad?

"Okay," I mumble back to her, reaching for her hand. She smiles a little as I do so and lace our fingers together. She moved backwards so she was against the headboard of her bed as I remained on her lap. I wasn't even ashamed of being in this position, it's almost as if I was meant to. If that makes sense. It felt so comfortable.

"So, I don't know where to start but it's time I told you the truth about me and us." she starts off and my breath hitched. Okay... What does that mean? I nodded for her to continue.

"I'm a werewolf," she says and I froze.

"What?" my eyes widened in surprise. What? Okay, what.....

"Yeah. I'm a werewolf. Our parents too, and Jake and everyone at the house I took you to that day." And my heart was racing again. Oh, God. A werewolf? Like a wolf, wolf?

"Are you serious?" my eyebrows drew into confusion as I studied her features and she nods, it didn't look like she was lying.

"See." I followed her gaze and my heart lurched and I fell off her laps as I see her hand turn into a paw.

"Oh my God. Oh my God. Avery..." I whispered over and over again in denial. I look up into her eyes, still cautious and they were silver, like from the hospital.

"Y- your eyes...." I whisper out still in shock. No way this is happening. I'm crazy. I'm dreaming. Oh my God.

"Yeah, this means that my wolf is out and in control," she says and it disappears just like that. I nod and look away, raking my fingers through my hair, and looked back at her.

She's still human.

Okay.

But she's a werewolf.

Wait, I kissed a werewolf.

What?!

"I know you're surprised but there's more Sam, and I need you to listen, please. I don't have much time." My throat tightened and immediately I was looking at her.

"What do you mean? Don't leave again, please.." I trailed off, and she gave me a pained smile.

"Just listen, please? Come here," she mumbles, patting the space in front of her. I nod and scrambled near her.

"What else?" I say and she reaches forward to kiss my head, and I sighed softly, loving the feel of her lips on my skin. She pulls back and takes my hand again.

"Thanks for not running," she mumbles and I realized she was relieved that I wasn't afraid or disgusted. I nodded giving her a small smile. I'd never run.

"Jake's dad is the current alpha, and my dad is the current beta so that's the first and second in command of our pack. Jake and I are going to take over in 3 months," she says and my mouth falls open.

"Okay..wow, that's kinda awesome," I mutter. She laughs and nods at what I said.

"It kinda is, we're the bosses of about 275 people now," she says and my eyebrows rose in shock.

"Holy shit Avery!" I exclaimed and she smiled, I guess not expecting this reaction from me. This is freaking awesome. She's awesome. Holy shit.

"That's amazing. I can't process this, but holy." I say still amazed and she chuckles and nods.

"Yeah, it is. Okay continuing to my story." I nodded waiting for more.

"The bad thing is we'll be going to Sweden in a month or so to train." she starts off and my heart drops. I frown immediately.

"Oh," I say looking down, my heart was a mess again. She's leaving again. I bit my lip trying not to tear up. Why am I like this? Why does this affect me so much? We barely know each other? We've kissed a few times and I'm acting like a sad puppy.

"It's for three months." I tensed. Oh, God. I didn't say anything yet and kept my eyes on her. She's going in a month for three months. That's a long time.

"There's another thing. Gosh, I don't know how to tell you this." She exclaims frustrated now. Her eyes were finding the right words and I guess I know what she was going to say.

She doesn't want to do this anymore. Us. She's gonna tell me that she has to go and we have to stop this.

"It's okay. I understand." I mumble and pull my hands from her and I see her frowns.

"Wait Sam, no, what you mean you understand? I haven't said anything," she said, cupping my cheek. I pulled away from her touch as if it burnt me. I have to go. I'm going to cry again. I know it.

"I'll just go," I whisper, my vision getting blurry now and I stood up but immediately she was up beside me, her arm around my waist, trapping me against her, making my breath hitch.

"No, stop. What are you doing?" she asks and I don't look at her.

"Let me go," I say stubborn and she growled and my eyes snapped to hers and they flash silver again. It electrified my whole body. I was entranced by them.

"No. I'm not going to. Listen to me. You don't even know what I'm going to say." She pressed.

"You're going to say you don't want to do this anymore because you're going." I choked out, those words coming out in rambles.

"No, darling. That wasn't what I was going to say," she says, her voice so sure. I flamed at the endearment but looked up into her eyes. Darling. I bit my cheek from smiling.

"I was going to say that, I found my soulmate and it's you."

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