The next morning I woke up and was in so much pain I couldn't breathe. My eyes were swollen and red from all the crying I did the night before. Gabriel had taken the pull out bed that Ty was in last night and finally had some clothes on. I pushed the button to call a nurse and he jumped when he saw me move. " I thought you were still sleep. Are you okay Mila ?" he asked with concern. I tried to take breaths and tried to take the pain as best as I could. " Yes Ms. Whyte ? " the nurse asked. " I'm in so much pain. Please give me something please. " I yelled. The machines started beeping and more people came inside. " We will get you something . On a scale one to ten , ten being the worse pain you ever felt . What would you rate your pain as ? " she asked while rubbing my hand. I snatched away from her and mugged her.

" It's a twenty so please do something. " I said through gritted teeth. She nodded and told the other nurse to get me some morphine. " I need you to try to breath" she said putting an oxygen mask on my face. " Your pain is causing your blood pressure to go up. Once we get you feeling a little better it should go down . Okay? " I just nodded in response and took deep breaths of the oxygen. When they finally came back with the medicine , my body began to calm down and I could finally breathe. Gabriel climbed into bed with me and held me closely. " When you get better we are going to go see baby girl . You have to get better for her and for me . I love you so much and I need you more than you know ." he whispered into my ear. I nodded my head yes and closed my eyes.

The door opened again and his parents walked in with flowers. They smiled and sat the flowers down on the sink. " How are y'all feeling ? " G asked. His mom stood behind his dad and looked everywhere but us. " We good ! " Gabriel said putting his head on my head. " I'm sorry for your loss. " his mom said looking at the floor. A tear fell from my eye and Gabriel rubbed my back. " Stop all that crying. It won't bring him back man. Just be strong for baby girl ight?" Gabriel whispered into my ear. I nodded my head and wiped my eyes . It was easier said than done but I was trying. " I know sorry doesn't make it better but we are here if you guys need anything. " she said finally looking at us with tears in her eyes.

As much as she disliked me I know it pained her to see her baby boy like that. He was trying to be strong for me but anyone who knew him saw the hurt on his face as clear as day. " Well we were just stopping by and we will be back tomorrow. Just hit me up if you need anything." G said before heading out the door behind Gabriel's mom. I sighed and sat up a little. " Can we go see her ? " I asked Gabriel. He nodded and headed off to get a nurse. After getting the doctors approval I was wheeled upstairs to see her. She was in a incubator and even smaller than her brother. She as only three pounds and seven ounces. There was so many tubes going through her little body and you could see her little chest go up and down. It pained me to see my baby like that.

" Do you have a name yet ?" the nurse asked . Gabriel and I just stared at our baby in awe and just wanted her to be okay. " Is Ginger okay ?" I asked Gabriel . He just nodded and put his finger in her tiny hand. " Ginger Ann Harris ." I said to the nurse . She nodded and wrote it on this pink construction paper with her foot prints on them. The nurse also gave me the construction paper with my baby boys foot prints and his blanket. Yesterday we deiced to cremate his little body and but his urn on our shelf in his memory. " She has your red hair and your skin tone." Gabriel whispered like he was scared to bust her ear drums or something. " How you know she got my color? We wont really know until she's like one. " I laughed. He mugged me and shook his head no. " Bro I'm telling you she going to be a light bright like you . I love that she have your hair for real, but good luck combing that nappy shit."

I slapped his arm left hand and winced afterwards. " That's what your as get ." he said with a chuckle. He finally let her hand go and walked over to me . " I love you Mila and I need your help to get through this . I need you ." " He whispered as he laid on my lap. I felt his tears on legs and I rubbed his back and tried to comfort him as best as I could. " We will get through this together baby. It's us three against the world. " Ginger began to cry and it was the cutest cry I ever heard. " I hope she get a little louder than that. If not baby girl going to be stuck because I can barely hear that shit." he mumbled. I laughed and watched as he went over to comfort her. " I love you baby girl. When you come home daddy going to make sure you all good. We love you mama." he said calming her down. She began to smack her lips and eat her hand. Her face scrunched up and she let out a high pitched scream .

Gabriel jumped back and looked at me . " Do something Mila! Why she crying like that man." he said in a panic. I mugged him an pointed to my right side. " What am I going to do with just one side of my body. My right arm and ribs are broken . Please tell me what can I do ?" I asked. He shrugged and went to get a nurse. She came back with a bottle and diaper. " Do you want to feed her daddy ?" she asked Gabriel. He shook his head no and backed away. " Nah I'm good . I'm going to to take her mom upstairs and I'll be back later." he said quickly before pushing me out the room. I laughed at him again and shook my head. " You are so scary bro. " I said over my shoulder. He shrugged and kept pushing me to the elevator.

I helped Mila out of the wheel chair and walked her over to her bed. She looked at her face in the mirror and frowned. There were cuts all over her face from the glass and this was the first time she noticed it . " Look at my face Gabriel. I'm so ugly now ." she cried as she touched her face in horror. I guided her to her bed and helped her laid down before climbing in with her. I pulled her into a hug and kissed her. " Your still beautiful as fuck so don't trip On it . It's nothing coco butter and time can't fix. " I said rubbing her face. She smiled and laid her head on my shoulder.

" And I will never leave you, in times like these

That's when you need the most love, in times like these

Ooh I will be your shoulder, in times like these

I do what I gotta do, in times like these

In times like these, in times like these

When you need the most love, in times like these

Like Kobe and Vanessa, in times like these

I'm gonna do what I gotta do, in times like these

Ooh, in times like these

Said I'm in it for the long haul

If you fall, I fall, then we both fall

But if you ball, I ball, then we both ball "

She sung softly in my ear as I rocked her side to side. Even though she was singing someone else's song the way she sung to me made me feel like that song was made just for us in a horrible ass time like this.