Mila has changed a lot and I don't know how to feel about it. She's nice one minute then completely ignoring me the next. It had me sleeping with one eye open and a gun under my pillow .

Everything has been going to smoothly and just too quiet for my taste .

" Gabriel can I talk to you about something ?" she asked . I looked up from the TV and patted the spot next to me .

" What's up ?" I asked patting the spot next to me .

" I wanted to talk about the baby . I think I want a water birth or just have it at home. " I nodded and turned back to the tv.

" It's your body and however you want to get her out is okay with me as long as she gets out safely." She got up and started to walk away but i grabbed her arm and pulled her back.

" I want to start shopping for her so get dressed and lets go . " I said still holding her hand. She smiled in response and headed to her room. An hour later we were heading out the door and to every baby store she could think of. Our little girl had so many clothes and shoes we didn't know where to put the stuff. It made me realize we either had to move or Mila had to move into my room. Buying my baby girl stuff made everything so real for me and I was beyond excited to see what she was going to be like. We were on our way home and I was happy we could hold a conversation without cussing each other out. I looked over at Mila an grabbed her hand.

" I'm sorry for not going to your appointment with you. I promise to be at every one of them until she get here . " I promised . She kissed my hand and smiled.

All of a sudden I felt my body slam against the door and my head crack my window. The car was spinning so much i thought it was going to flip. I felt my eyes closing but I tried to fight to stay conscious long enough to see if Mila was alright. Looking over I felt my heartbreak in two and all I wanted to do was get her out of this car but I just couldn't.

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I woke up to so much pain in my head it hurt to open my eyes. When I opened my eyes my sister and friends were standing next to my bed.

" What happened?" I croaked out. Gabby grabbed my hand and smiled weakly .

" You were in a bad car accident. Ty is with Mila right now. She just came out of surgery so we came to check on you real quick. " she said looking to the floor. Hearing that made me jump out the bed and snatch all of the things I was attached to off me. I heard the monitor beeping but i kept walking until a nurse stopped me at the door.

" Mr.Harris I need you to calm down and lay down. "

I put my hand in her face and walked around her. "Gabby take me to her now before I tear this place the fuck up. " I yelled walking through the hall.

" Bro you have to chill. You have an concussion and need to lay down. " Marcus said grabbing my arm. I pushed him back so hard he flew into Jawuan and knocked him down. Gabby saw how serious I was and lead me to the floor that Mila was on. My nerves were so bad I chewed on my lip until it started bleeding. Walking through the hall I saw Ty in the waiting room on the labor and delivery floor. He looked up and frowned at me.

" What are you doing ?" he asked .

" I'm making sure they alright . What's going on?" I asked taking a seat next to him.

" She had to have an emergency c- section. She's in recovery right now but we waiting to see what's going on with the babies. " he said looking sadly into the distance. Babies ?

In recovery I was waiting to be taken to my room. It's been ten minutes since I was out of surgery and I have yet to see my babies. I'm so scared and just want to know they are okay. The doctor walked in and grabbed my hand.

"I'm so sorry for your lose Mrs. Whyte. If you want to see him I can bring him to you. But your baby girl is doing just fine but we had to send her straight to NICU . After you get some rest you can go up there and see her." my doctor said.

Tears fell from my eyes and I just felt my heart crumple. "I want to see him. " I whispered as tears continued to fall. The nurse came in a few minutes later to take me to my room and he was going to be brought up there to me.

I was in so much pain when I first got here but the pain medication I'm on now helped me out a lot. I had three broken ribs, a broken arm, and a broken heart. My son was gone and there was nothing I could do about it. Gabriel rushed into the room and grabbed my face.

" Baby are you okay ? What's going on with my baby? " he asked and I couldn't even look him in his eye. Just then the nurse brought him in and he was the smallest thing I ever seen. The nurse stood next to Gabriel and tried to hand the baby to him.

" He died protecting his sister like he was suppose to . It seemed like he was wrapped around her to keep her safe." she said rubbing his head. Gabriel had tears in his eyes and took a seat on the couch.

" You don't want to hold him?" I asked softly. He just shook his head and let tears fall. I nodded and tried to grab him with my good arm. I held him to my chest and cried for what seemed like hours before he was taken away. He was so beautiful and had soft black hair and pale skin. It hurt me to say goodbye to my baby boy but I would always hold him dear to my heart. Gabby took so many pictures of him and held him before he was finally taken away. Ty stayed with me when they finally made Gabriel go back to his room. I've never seen Ty be so serious as he was in that moment . He's been by my side every step of the way . He held my hand during my survey and talked me through one of the scariest moments of my life ,

When Gabriel left , I knew the only reason they convinced him to go is because he needed time alone and to process things. I tried not to cry but in the inside I was suffering. How could this happen to me? This is my karma for all the wrong I've done and I would take it all back if I could. God I'm so sorry ! This was just the hand I was dealt in life.