It feels like a boxing match when I study Travis and his dad. It's like I'm waiting for one of them to just punch the other one in the face, but nothing happens. I can see how Travis's vains pop out from his neck as he takes a deep, shaky breath. Out of the blue, the man rushes towards Travis and pulls him into his arms. It takes me by surprise as I think about Travis's earlier words.

"Travis!"

I almost feel how a tear slips out of my eye as his little sister manages to climb onto the bed and sits down on top of him. My best friend lets out a weak chuckle and hugs his sibling as his dad keeps his hand around his torso. I feel invisible as I watch his mom cry and I suddenly realise that I have to leave them alone for a while to realise that their son is alive. Before opening the heavy door, I get eye contact with Travis and smile weakly before waving and leaving the hospital room.

Billie and Julia are standing outside of the room as I expected them to and Billie immediately wraps her arms around me.

''Is he okay?'' She asks with a shaky voice, and I feel how her body is shaking as well.

''Yeah, I think so. I couldn't talk that much to him because his family came in,'' I mumble into her shoulder. I eventually pull away from Billie's grip and look her in the eyes.

''That's good,'' she says, probably having a hard time describing the current situation.

My stomach hurts from everything that Travis said, but I try to hide it from Billie and Julia. I don't want them to worry about me right now.

''Should we leave?'' Julia asks and I nod. As I study her, I can see the pain in her eyes.

''Are you okay?'' I ask her and I feel stupid for doing so.

''Yeah, I'm fine. Let's go,'' she says before pursing her lips. I nod slowly before following her through the hallways of the hospital. I feel bad for leaving Travis, but as soon as he wants to see me, I will fucking run to him myself if that's what it takes. I just want to be there for him and do what I weren't able to do before. My selfish ass was too busy feeling bad for itself and I hate myself for that.

When we enter the car, I hear a noise from my phone. I can feel Billie's eyes on the screen as I read the message, probably being jealous. She looks away as I realise that Charles was the one who sent the text.

I smile when I read the text. Finally, a family.

As I send the text I can hear how Billie chuckles.

''Yo, that shit is amazing, but it's so funny to see you type like that,'' she says, bursting out in laughter.

''Shut the fuck up, I have to be polite!'' I say, defending myself.

''I know, but it's just not you,'' she says as I can barely hear her words. It's like we forget about the fucked up situation we are in right now. I just shake my head while looking at Billie before shifting my gaze to the window.

''Yo, turn that shit up!'' Billie suddenly says, looking at Julia who smiles weakly before turning the volume up on the car radio.

I thought that I was dreaming when you said you love me

The start of nothing

I had no chance to prepare

I couldn't see you coming

The start of nothing

I could hate you now

It's quite alright to hate me now

When we both know that deep down

The feeling still deep down is good

If I could see through walls, I could see you're faking

If you could see my thoughts you would see our faces

Safe in my rental like an armored truck back then

We didn't give a fuck back then

I ain't a kid no more

We'll never be those kids again

We'd drive to Syd's, had the X6 back then

Back then

No matter what I did

My waves wouldn't dip back then

Everything sucked back then

We were friends

We just keep quiet, listening to Frank Oceans voice spreading all over the car. His music is so emotional and calm. It keeps comforting me when I feel bad. Right now, I don't really know how to feel. I'm happy that Travis is back... or more relieved. He is alive. That thought alone almost makes me shed a tear as I was sure that my best friend had died. There's a little bit light after all.

Eventually, Julia drops me and Billie off at her place and we hug her goodbye after walking towards the elevators.

''Have you ever tried the elevator game?'' Billie asks when we enter one of them.

''What?'' I ask with a chuckle, raising my eyebrows.

''You press the buttons in a special order,'' she explains, pointing at all the different buttons on the wall. ''Then this girl enter the elevator with you and bring you to a new world where only you exist.''

''That sounds fucking terrifying,'' I say, shaking my head while laughing.

''I like terrifying things, otherwise I wouldn't be with you,'' she says making me gasp. I open my mouth to defend myself but she just laughs and puts her lips against mine, making me shut up. Her hands move to my cheeks and I wrap my arms around her waist, pulling her closer. She pulls away and look into my eyes before connecting our lips once again as we arrive at her floor.