I straddle Billie's hips, making her smirk before putting her hands on top of my thighs. Her touch makes me wanna keep her closer than anything in this world and that's what I'm planning to do. She cups my cheeks and strokes the skin on my cheeks with her thumbs.

''You're so beautiful,'' she breaths out, making me look away slightly but she turns my face so I'm looking at her again. ''Trust me.''

As I'm about to kiss her, the door opens and Billie quickly covers our half naked bodies with a blanket. When I look at the doorway, I see how Julia and Kevin are standing there, looking at us while laughing.

''Don't make babies in my parents bed!'' Julia screams before running into the room followed by Kevin.

''We weren't doing anything!'' I exclaim, making them laugh even more.

''Sure,'' Kevin says.

''So I guess that y'all solved everything?'' Billie asks, changing the subject.

''Yeah,'' Julia simply says, making Kevin nod in agreement.

''That makes me happy,'' Billie says with a small smile.

''We ordered some food,'' Julia says, making me realise how hungry I am right now.

We all sit down next to each other on Julia's couch as she enters with the food, making me lick my lips as I immediately start to eat. It feels good that we are all friends again, or that we don't fight anymore at least. Being this close again gives me hope that we will find Travis. We all finish the food quickly and I feel sick to my stomach.

''Yo, why did I have to eat so fucking fast?'' I ask, laying down on the couch as I rest my head in Billie's lap. She looks down at me with a pout before chuckling.

''Because you're stupid as fuck,'' she says, making me slap her arm. ''And you are abusive, too!''

I laugh before closing my eyes, enjoying Billie's company as it always mkaes me feel a certain way that I can't explain really. I just feel okay. When I'm about to fall asleep on Billie's lap, her phone let's out a loud noise, making me jump up as everyone starts to laugh.

''It's not funny,'' I mumble, pushing Billie away.

''Sorry, but I gotta go. I have this fucking song that I really need to finish and I won't be able to sleep if it's not done tonight,'' she says, making us all pout.

''Aww, okay. Good luck,'' Julia says, making Billie smile at her.

''Thank you.''

Billie hugs everyone, giving me a kiss on my head before leaving the room. As the door shuts, Julia decides to put on a movie just so we don't have to be bored. I actually feel a bit lonely when Julia and Kevin are cuddled up on the couch, talking about the movie as I lay down on my own. It makes my heart ache as I realise how Travis probably felt all the time when we were hanging out. Suddenly, I receive a message from Billie.

Her messages makes me blush and gulp as I have no idea what to do.

''I gotta go to Billie's, she wanted something,'' I say as Kevin gives me a knowing look, making me glare at him.

''Have fun!'' They say at the same time, making me smirk before putting a hoodie and my white sneakers on.

It's almost summer, so it's not that cold outside but I usually put a hoodie on anyways just to hide my ugly face and to make people understand that I don't wanna talk to anyone. I eventually reach the bus stop where and old lady is sitting on a bench, looking at me as I sit down on the other edge of it. She has gray, short hair that looks like it hasn't been washed for months and red lipstick on her lips. A brown jacket is hugging her body and she's wearing a long skirt on her lower half. God, this bitch dresses worse than I do.

''My name is Mary!'' She says, making me look at her while trying not to laugh at her random sentence.

''Hey, Mary. I'm Ember,'' I say, shaking her hand as she reaches it out for me.Her hand is cold and dry, leaving an uncomfortable feeling in my body after touching her.

''What are you doing outside right now? Going to a party in those clothes?'' She asks, pointing at my ugly hoodie.

''I'm actually not-''

''When I was younger, I always used to attend parties! The main goal was to hook up with younger boys! They were always so cute and fresh,'' she explain, looking out in the air as I really wish that the bus could arrive faster.

''Oh, that's cool,'' I mumble, feeling really uncomfortable. We just sit there as Mary keeps looking at me in a pretty creepy way, almost trying to read my mind or something.

Eventually, the bus arrives and I almost run away from the bust stop, entering the bus before sitting down on one of the seats in the back, sighing out of relief as I realise that Mary isn't going with this bus. I plug in my headphones and listen to some music to make the time go faster as usual.

Finally, the bus stops and I exit it before walking towards Billie's apartment. I push the ''seven'' button before leaning against the wall of the elevator. I'm wondering why Billie wants to see me right now and not tomorrow but I guess that something has happened, or that she just feels lonely. When I reach her floor, I knock on the door, bouncing my leg up and down as I wait for her to open the door. When I'm about to knock again, the door opens up and Billie stands in the hallway, staring at me.

''Hey-'' I start but she immediately grabs my hoodie, pulling me towards her before pressing our lips together, closing the door behind us. My hands tangle in her hair as her hands roam all over my body.

''Is this why you wanted me to come here?'' I pant between kisses.

''Maybe,'' she responds before grabbing my shouIders and pushing me against the wall roughly.

"So you lied about that song?" I breath out, making her lean in towards my ear.

"Just a white lie," she says with a low voice, her hot breath hitting my ear. As she connects our lips again, she moves closer to me so her body is pressing against mine completly. I wrap my arms around her neck as she squeezes the skin on my hips, making me want her more than anything. Suddenly, she pulls away, keeping a hand on my shoulder before leading me into her room.

''Wait here,'' she whispers into my ear after leaning in, kissing my temple softly.

Oh my fucking god.