I wake up, feeling how the bus is shaking a bit. The first three seconds or something, I'm sure that we're in the middle of a crash but after a while I realise that there probably was a hollow in the road. My body feels heavy and I feel pretty tired overall. When I look through the window I discover that it's already light outside so I yawn before unlocking my phone, opening the groupchat.

When I see Kevin's message, I look at the time and realise that it's only seven am. I sigh, hating the fact that I woke up so early. It sucks because now I have to wait for everyone else to wake up. Maybe I can sleep some more? After cuddling into the sheets, I close my eyes in attempt to fall asleep and wake up in the actual morning. Unfortunately, I'm not really successful so I decide to get up. I wonder where Billie went, wasn't she on her phone next to me when I fell asleep? That was maybe a dream or something.

I put on a new white T-shirt from my suitcase and a pair of sweatpants before climbing down the ladder to the floor. The kitchen has a table with two small couches, or whatever you would like to call it. I walk over to the kitchen and sit down in one of the couches, looking at my phone while resting my head in my other hand. After a while, I hear steps behind me and I realise that it's Finneas as I turn around. He sits down in the couch on the opposite of me.

"Good morning," he says, yawning.

"Hey, slept well?" I ask.

"Yeah, actually. What about you?"

"Same here," I smile as he stands up and walks over to the counter, pushing some buttons on a coffee machine.

"Want some?" He asks, holding a cup in his hand, ready to pick up another.

"Yes, if that's okay," I answer and he takes another cup, filling it with the warm liquid before putting it down on the table in front of me.

"Thank you," I smile before raising the warm cup to my mouth. I immediately feel a bit less tired as I swallow the coffee.

"Where are we now?" I ask stupidly, making Finneas laugh and I look at him confused.

"I'm sorry, it was just a bit funny. We're in Sweden now," he explains and I nod. After a while, Billie walks towards us, wearing a white tank top and baggy sweatpants.

"Hey babe," she says, pushing me closer to the wall with her hands so she can sit down next to me.

"Hey," I say as she kisses my cheek.

"You guys are cute," Finneas states, smiling and Billie rolls her eyes.

"Bro, I want coffee, too," Billie says when she sees the two cups on the table, standing up and walking over to the coffee machine, pouring what's left into a cup. After that, she sits down again as I lean my head against her shoulder, my hip slightly touching hers. We're just enjoying each others company and there's something with Finneas and Billie's energy as siblings that I feel comforting. Just being this close to them makes me feel calm and okay. As I've said before, them together reminds me of mine and Evan's relation and that should remind me of those times and make me sad, but I actually feel good when I think about it. I guess that I'm just happy for them.

"Are you performing today or tomorrow?" I ask Billie, snapping her out from her thoughts.

"Tomorrow, but it will take a while to get to Stockholm, we will probably get there tonight," she explains and I nod. After a while, I hear that someone is calling Finneas, making him pick the phone up.

"Gotta take this," he says before leaving the kitchen.

"He's nice," I state, referring to her brother.

"Isn't he?" She says before unlocking her phone.

Later

"Hey! Can we stop and eat something? I'm so fucking hungry!" Billie shouts to Finneas who nods before approacing the driver in the front of the bus. The thought of food makes me starv even more, I haven't eaten in a while.

"There's a McDonald's here. We'll sit down and eat something," Finneas says as he comes back, making me smile.

After a while, the bus stops and I get off it, grinning when everyone looks at the big bus. I wait for Billie to come before we walk through the glass door, approaching the woman by the desk. It's a bit hard to order because she doesn't speak english very well and she has a strong swedish accent, but we manage to get our food before sitting down by a table. Eventually, Finneas, Patrick and Maggie sits down by another table together with some other people that I don't know. It's pretty relieving that I don't have to sit by that table. Don't get me wrong, I love Billie's family and those people are probably nice but I just don't want to have conversations with people that I don't really know because I get so scared.

"You know, Sweden is pretty nice," I say and she nods.

"For sure."

I bite into my cheeseburger and it fucking tastes amazing, man. As I take a sip from my cola, Billie grabs my hand, resting it over the table and I understand that she wants to talk about something.

"Ems, we need to talk about something," she says, playing with my fingers a bit.

"Okay, what's up?"

"So, your mom," she starts, already making me tense. I hate when I forget about her and then I realise everything.

"I just want you to know that you can leave at any time, okay? If you want to get home and take care of her or anything I'll fly you home again. I know that it's hard for you to say what you want, but just promise me that you tell me when you want to leave because that's totally okay," she says and I almost melt from her words. I smile weakly, grabbing her hand and looking at her.

"Thank you," I simply say, not even trying to return anything because I'm so bad with words and expressing myself sometimes.

"I love you," I add, a bit more quiet so no one by the other tables can here.

"I love you too," she smiles.

When we're done eating, we go back to the bus and I follow Billie to the back of it where there's a big couch that I sit down on, soon being joined by Billie who lays down, resting her head in my lap. I look at my phone, realising that I forgot to text Kevin back this morning.