I enter the classroom, sitting down in one of the plastic chairs before taking a sip from my water bottle. My gaze moves around all over the room, but I can't find Karen anywhere and it calms me down a bit. If she's not here, the day won't be as bad as I imagined it to be. I didn't wanna go to school today, but Billie forced me and practically pushed me through the front door so I could get here. I hear steps behind me and I see Mr. Wilson when I turn around. I expect him to yell at me, put he puts his hand on my shoulder gently before walking to the desk. What the fuck.

''Today, we're going to look at chapter three in the book we're reading right now'', Mr. Wilson says and I sigh before opening up the third chapter. As I start to read, I notice that the door opens up and I sigh of relief when I see Ava and Liam in the doorway. I wave at them, but Ava rolls her eyes before they sit down in the row in front of me, leaving me confused. Why would they do that? I immediately feel a bit sweaty as I try to think about everything that I've done the last days, trying to find anything that could have offended or hurt them. I literally can't come up with anything, so I shake me head before starting to read again.

Later

After putting some food on my plate, I sit down at the table in the corner of the dining hall all alone. Everything that's going through my head as I eat is ''What the fuck did I do wrong?''. This is so confusing. I decide to text Billie to tell her about my loneliness.

Me

I unlock my phone before putting the rest of my food in the trash can, putting the plate by the others. When I walk past the table where Ava and Liam sits they look at me asi if I've just killed someone. The guilt I feel makes me want to ask them what's wrong, and sometimes I can't stop myself so I do.

''What's going on with you?'' I ask, not a single piece of aggression in my voice.

''Ask Karen'', Ava simply says, making me look at her before shaking my head. I know that I won't be able to convince any of them what really went down, because they don't know the story behind it, so I simply walk away, running a hand through my hair. Fuck these people. It feels pretty lonely to walk through the hallways alone and it literally feels like everyone hates me, even though Karen was the one who punched me. She probably told everyone the story she told Mr. Wilson and that probably made everyone feel bad for her. I still don't understand how someone can lie like that.

I sit down in my chair and start to do some research on my computer, even though it's boring as fuck. Can't the day be over soon? Okay, I need to complete this fucking task soon so I won't have to do it later. I plug my headphones into my phone, putting on some music and it instantly makes me more focused.

Record man play my song on the radio

You too busy tryna find that blue-eyed soul

I let my black hair grow and my weed smoke

And I swear too much on the regular

We gone let them hits fly, we gone let it go

If it ain't XO then it gotta go

I just won a new award for a kids show

Talking 'bout a face numbing off a bag a blow

''We're done for today!'' Mr. Wilson announces and I immediately bounce up from my chair, packing my shit before exiting the classroom. This was the last day of school before me and Billie leave. I called the chool and fortunately, they allowed me to leave if I do some tasks that they gave me. We will see if I actually do them, but that's another discussion. I close my locker, grabbing my bag before leaving this shit school for two weeks to go on tour with the best person in the world. That sounds so corny, but I don't care. The bus ride doesn't take long because I'm actually not feeling as sad as I usually do when I'm on it. My bus rides always contains of me thinking about my sorrows or whatever. As I get off the bus, I walk towards Kevin's apartment where we will meet up.

I knock on the door and Kevin immediately opens up.

''Hey, guys. What's up?'' I ask when I realise that everyone is walking around the kitchen, grabbing food.

''We're getting some things to eat at the lake before leaving'', Travis explains as he inspect a bag of chips. ''Can you get some soda?''

I walk towards the fridge, opening it before picking up some soda cans. Julia hands me a plastic bag and I put the sodas in it, together with everything else that the others picked.

''Do we have everything?'' Kevin asks and I nod, looking around me to find something that we may need. We all walk out and press the elevator button while Kevin locks the door.

''Are we picking up Billie at her house?'' I ask Travis as I enter the elevator.

''No, I think that she's at a bus stop pretty close'', he answers, looking at his phone.

I lean against the wall in the elevator, thinking about how much I will miss my friends. Will something change? I like the way everything is right now and I don't want it to change. Changes are fucking scary. Sometimes, something in your life will change to something bad and you will hate yourself forever for not seeing it coming or preventing it from happening. Even if something changes to the better, you will probably miss those times where you felt worse, even if that's so weird. Everything we are experiencing can be better than something that will happen in the future, so you should never say that ''this is the worst thing that can ever happen to me'' because suddenly, you may miss those time as fuck.

I enter the car and relax into the light leather seat, unlocking my phone to tell Billie that we're on our way.

I lock my phone, smiling before listening to the conversation between Travis and Julia.

''No way!'' Julia says.

''What?'' I ask, confused.

''Emily was yelling at Karen on the party last friday, it was hilarious!'' Travis laughs, making me smirk.

''She's a keeper'', I say, making Julia laugh and Travis blushes a bit.

When Kevin stops the car, Billie stands at the bus stop, practically jumping into the car. I hug her when she gets in but pull away immediately when I feel how cold she is.

"Man, how can you be so cold?" I ask her.

"You don't think that I'm hot?" She says, putting her hand on her chest while fake crying.

"Kidding babe", I mumble before pecking her lips and leaning back into my seat. This is the last time for a while that we are in this car on our way to the lake and I feel like I will miss it a lot. Is it weird to miss a lake? I guess it is.

As the car stops, I get out off it before inhaling the scent. It's so beautiful here, how will I manage to live without this place for so long

"Does anyone want soda?" Travis asks and I don't even have time to answer before he throws a can at me and I barely manage to catch it. I take a sip and sit down at a cliff, soon getting joined by the others.

"Will miss you guys so much, we have to facetime every night", Julia says and I nod.

"We'll miss you to", I pout. "I promise to call every single night."

We just sit there, enjoying each others company and talking about how much we will miss each other. I know that it's only two weeks, but that feels like forever when you have the best friends in the world.