I wake up to Billie's hot body pressed against my back. I gasp when I realise that I'm fully naked under the blanket and I turn around to see that Billie is exposed as well. When I think about yesterday, I finally realise what went down in this bed. I turn around so I'm facing her and she looks beautiful as always, even when she's sleeping. When I pick up my phone, Billie wraps her arms even tighter around me in her sleep, making me giggle. She's fucking adorable.

The night was great. I've been wanting to sleep with her for a while, but I've been so scared and I'm still afraid that she will tell me to leave or something.

I decide to tell everyone what went down yesterday so they won't worry. After opening up snapchat, I create a group with me, Travis, Billie, Kevin and Julia.

I cringe a bit at my messages because I hate being emotional but I feel like I have to explain to them what went down. It doesn't take long before they answer.

Travis texts makes me laugh, he can't be serious for three seconds, can he? My laugh makes Billie wake up and she yawns before stretching her arms.

''Hey'', I mumble.

''Yo, you good?'' She asks, grabbing her phone.

''Yeah, how about you?''

''Why would I feel bad?'' She grins, reffering to our eventful night and I laugh.

''I don't know, man. Was it even good?'' I ask.

''It was amazing, Ems. You were really good, to be honest", she grins, pecking my lips.

"You were better", I smirk, thinking about the pleasure she gave me.

"Maybe", she smirks. "Are you hungry?''

"Yeah, let's eat.''

Suddenly, I pull the covers off of Billie, exposing her naked body.

''Ember, what the hell?'' She yells while laughing, pulling the covers off of me as well before pinning my arms to the bed.

''Apologzie!'' She laughs.

''Never!'' I yell and she starts to tickle me. She's musch stronger than I am, so it doesn't take long before I give up.

''Okay, okay I'm sorry!'' I laugh, squirming under her.

''Good!'' She says before standing up and throwing my clothes in my direction for me to put on. After changing, we exit Billie's bedroom and enter the kitchen to make some breakfast.

I sit down at the table with my phone in my hands while Billie prepares two sandwhiches.

''Are you sure that you don't need help?'' I ask her with raised eyebrows. I can't cook but I still feel bad for letting her do it all alone.

''Yes, you suck at cooking'', she grins while putting butter on the bread.

''Rude'', I pout, pretending to be hurt. She laughs before continuing to cook. I open up snapchat after getting a message from Kevin in the group chat.

Billie puts down a plate in front of me with a sandwhich on it before sitting down o the opposite side of the table.

''Thank you, baby'', I say, reaching over the table to peck her lips.

''No problem, shorty'', she smirks before taking a bite of the sandwhich.

''What should we do today?'' I ask her, my mouth filled with bread.

''I have an interview today at a radio station, you can maybe hang out at Julia's while I'm there?'' She suggests, making me nod.

''Sure'', I say, texting the group again.

''Kevin will pick my up in half an hour'', I inform Billie.

''Half an hour? We have time then'', she says as I stand up, pressing her lips against mine. I smile into the kiss as I push her back onto the couch, straddling her.

''Finneas won't be home soon, right?'' I ask, panting as I take her shirt of.

''I hope not'', she grins, pulling me down against her body. She connects our lips again and the kiss soon gets heated. I move so that I'm hovering over her with one leg between hers, putting pressure against her with my knee. She closes her eyes in pressure, pulling me closer as I start to kiss her neck. I move my hand down her body, rubbing her through her pants before pulling them down along with her underwear.

''Don't fucking tease,'' she breaths out, arching her back into me. As I enter one finger inside of her, she grabs my shoulders tightly.

''Am I hurting you?'' I ask, worried.

''No, shut up and keep going,'' she groans before connecting our lips. I start to move my fingers slowly, making her gasp and furrow her eyebrows. Going faster, she lets out a moan when my palm rubs against her, putting her hands on my back. Wanting to hear her, I move my lips from hers to her neck, biting down lightly on her skin. She starts rolling her hips against my hand, now scratching my back.

''I need more,'' she whines. I look at her before adding another finger, moving slowly again. I love this, but I'm so scared that I may be hurting her. When she nods, I start kissing her neck again, moving my fingers faster inside of her. Everytime my palm rubs against her, she lets out a low moan. After a while, her breathing speeds up and her nails dig into my back, making me bite my lip.

''Fuck,'' she grunts, furrowing her eyebrows. Her mouth opens up and she throws her head backwards, giving me flashbacks from last night. Her voice gets higher and her nails dig deeper into my skin. Her body tenses and she starts shaking for a moment before relaxing again, opening her eyes. She immediately grabs my face, kissing me harschly.

''I really... gotta go now,'' I say, talking against her lips. ¨

''You're such a douche,'' she laughs, smacking my ass as I stand up.

''Bye, baby. Text me when you're done so we can pick you up'', I say as I put my shirt on again, kissing her forehead.

''Bye, it's my turn next time!'' She yells as I exit the apartment, leaving her panting on the couch in her underwear only.

Kevin's car stands outside the apartment building, just like yesterday.

''Sup'', I greet as I sit down in the car next to Julia.

''Hey, Ems!'' Travis and Julia says at the same time, making me laugh.

Kevin turns the radio on and sings along to ''Sicko mode'' together with Travis.

''Yo, I made this fucking song!'' He says, referring to Travis Scott with the same first name as him.

Sun is down, freezin' cold

That's how we already know winter's here

My dawg would prolly do it for a Louis belt

That's just all he know, he don't know nothin' else

We all try to rap along to the song, but let's just say that we are not meant to be rappers. After a while, Kevin stops the car at the lake for the hundred time this week and we all get out. It looks calming and beautiful as always. As usual, I sit down by the water but this time I take a picture and send it to Billie.

I smile as I put my phone down, joining the conversation again.

''But Karen is a fucking bitch!'' Julia says. ''She literally threw a drink in Travis face yesterday!''

''No fucking way, why?'' I gasp.

''Well, I didn't feel like making out with her so she became mad and I called her a bully and the next second, I was covered in cider. Pretty intense'', Travis explains, completely calm. He probably just thought that the incident was funny.

''Something is clearly wrong with that one, huh?'' I say, the others agreeing.

Even if Billie is not here, I feel pretty good and I'm thankful for having friends that care about me. It's amazing, actually. What if I never went to that party a couple of weeks ago? The thought scares me, because I don't even know if would have been alive right now, considering that I didn't have the friends to help me when my mom overdose. I shudder by thinking that way and I push away the thoughts immediately.