There are some things in this world that are amazing. Those things can sometimes help us with going through hard times. For example, if you are really sad and everything sucks, a good feeling helps you for the moment. If I feel anxious, I usually smoke or drink because that's what it does: helps me for the moment. Unfortunately, one bottle of vodka won't cure my depression, it will make it worse. So, basically it should be like this: Things that feel good for the moment won't help you in general, but I think that I've proved myself wrong after my moment with Billie. That kiss made me feel happier. Like, h-a-p-p-i-e-r. It felt good for the moment, but it feels good afterwards as well. Maybe kisses will help me?

"Why haven't we done that before?" I ask her with a chuckle.

"I don't know, we would have done it if it wasn't for your friend", she grins.

"Oh, Julia. Do you think that she's with Kevin now?" I ask.

"Probably, they're having sex, I swear I can imagine Julia being like "Ah, Kevin!" right now", she laughs, moaning to mimic Julia.

"Shut the fuck up! Your brother will think that we are fucking!" I yell, covering her mouth with my hand.

"I don't think that Finneas think that your name is Kevin", she says, laughing. "Plus, he will get used to hearing moaning from this room."

I slap her arm, making her cover her face with a pillow while laughing.

"Shut up! I hate you!" I yell, hitting the pillow.

"You don't."

"I do."

"Nope."

I sigh before laying down next to her and she holds her arms out for me. I snuggle into her side, resting my head on her chest while breathing in her scent. She pulls a blanket over us before rubbing my arm and drawing small circles on my back.

"What does this make us?" I ask, looking up at her.

"I don't know. We should just go with the flow maybe?" She answers, resting her head on mine.

"Yeah."

"And I don't think that we should tell anyone just yet. I don't really tell people who I'm dating, but we can maybe tell our friends."

"Sounds good", I say, burying my face in her hoodie.

Suddenly, my phone lights up and I see that Julia has sent a text.

I show Billie the conversation and she takes my phone, looking at the texts.

''Aww! They are really cute together, man'', she says, handing me my phone back.

''You know, I think that Julia already kinda knows about us. From the first day she saw us she was like ''you are so cute together'', you know'', I say, looking at her to see her reaction.

''Yeah, she's smart.''

''She is.''

The room is now quiet but not in an awkward way, it's actually comfortable. Suddenly, I start to feel pretty anxious. My mom hates Billie for an unknown reason, should I talk to Billie about it? I don't even get why she would dislike her. Does she know who Billie is? I don't fucking know, and it's confusing me.

''What are you thinking about?'' She asks, raising her eyebrows.

''My mom. I forgot to tell you about what happened when I talked to her, by the way.''

''Yeah, what happened?''

''Well, she did apologize, but...''

''But?''

''She's acting weird, Bils. I told her about you. I was like ''I have this friend, her name is Billie and I'm going to meet her tomorrow'' and her mood just changed faster than I could blink. It was weird.''

''So, she doesn't like me? I don't really care because I don't like her either. Not after what she did to you'', she shrugs.

''I know, it's just... I don't get why she would hate you, you know?''

''I don't get it either, but try not to think about it, okay? It's her problem, not yours. You shouldn't feel like everything is your fault'', she says, looking at me with an apologetic smile.

''It's hard to stop feeling that way when I get to hear it every single day'', I mumble, opening up a little to her.

''What do you mean?'' She asks.

''I've been through a lot, Billie. I'll maybe tell you one day'', I explain and she just nods, not pushing me to say anything. This is what I mean, she is so calm and it makes me calm as well. As I've said before, I can't stand people who ask me shit all the time. It gets so annoying and it makes me feel uncomfortable.

''I'm tired'', I mumble, closing my eyes. After a while, I feel more and more tired.

I wake up, feeling a body pressed against me from behind and it makes me confused. Eventually, I remember what happened. Did I fall asleep? I sit up quickly and look at my phone. 9pm, shit, I've got to go. Turning around, I see that Billie's asleep and I try to walk out from the room quietly so she won't wake up.

''Babe, are you leaving?'' She says, making me turn around. She lays in the bed with her arms open and I walk back to her, laying down in her arms.

''I'll miss you, text me when you're home'', she mumbles before grabbing the back of my head, pulling me into a kiss.

''I will'', I smile before exiting the room. When I'm about to open the front door, I hear Finneas voice.

''Billie has talked a lot about you, you make her happy'', he says with a smile.

''Really?'' I chuckle, surprised that someone feels happy by hanging out with me.

''Yeah, really.''

''That makes me happy'', I say, smiling before saying goodbye to him and closing the front door.

After a while, I'm finally home again. After opening the front door, I walk into the hallway before taking off my shoes.

''Mom, I'm home!'' I yell. No answer.

Confused, I walk into the bedroom but she's not there either. I start to feel a bit anxious so I take some deep breaths before heading to the bathroom. When I open the door I see something that almost makes me pass out.

''NO!''