th Dec, 2020

Writer.

Unaware of the 2 hearts being broken that are now the most important to him, His brother and wife, he's here letting his heart jump up and down with the happiness that he got today.

If only he knew the conditions of their hearts, maybe he would have never even let a drop of happiness control him.

Exhaling a breathe of relief, he calmed his heart and finally opened the door, letting the heavenly smell of flowers come running to his nostrils.

The heavy rain and slight storm increased the beauty of the night as he could only listen to the droplet sounds of rain dancing everywhere out.

He took a step in with his shivering legs, his heart still arguing with his soul of so many unusual emotions, nervous of meeting his newly wed wife, who's dying again and again for her lost love.

He locked the door and stood resting his back on the door, his eyes caught her sitting on the couch as he faced her back, not dressed in her wedding attire but a simple white georgette Sari.

"Umm...hmm... Assalamu Alaikum."

He huskily voiced, letting himself blink his eyes in nervousness.

"Wa..laikum Assalam." That was more like a whisper that escaped her lips. She didn't turn but stayed stilled on her position, busy playing with her fingers as her hands are shivering in cold and nervousness.

He walked to her with slow steps and sat on a couch placed opposite to hers.

As his gaze fell on her milky and radiant face exposed out of the Hijab wrap, he felt his eyes begging him to not look away from her.

He gulped down massaging his Adam's apple that began moving up and down.

"Are...you nervous? Do you need to be freshen up? Oh that you are.....do you want to sleep?"

He continuously questioned not understanding how to start the conversation.

Finally she moved her gaze up to his face with shaky orbs, her fingers dancing with each other while heart fighting with itself, whether to keep loving her love or stop cheating on her husband.

"I'm ok...how...are you..?"

She questioned shooting his heart with her magical voice.

He struggled controlling his smile but that appeared on his lips as he nodded his head.

"Well! Yeah well! You...you look beautiful, Subahan Allah!"

She nodded her head looking down on her lap, staring at her hands decorated with beautiful Mehndi.

"Let's...pray first?"

Without any further word exchanged between each other, with the Wudu of Isha prayer that they prayed separately minutes back, they completed the nafil salah according to the Sunnah of the wedding night.

Done with that after Tasleem, They realized the rain increasing more and more as storming doubled, frightening yet beautifying the night.

Tanveer was counting Tasbeeh on his fingers when unexpectedly Thanzia's head fell on his shoulder that she didn't even realize how happened.

Immediately his eyes widened as he looked at her way, seeing her with no expression while her eyes fixed out of the window, staring at the black and lightening sky pouring rain.

Probably she's deeply lost in some thoughts to know her head resting in his shoulder. But as soon as she realized where she is, she moved away and stood up, folding the prayer mat.

She sat back on the couch not knowing what to do next. Her gaze fell on a box kept there that she assumed to be her wedding gift from him.

Tanveer's smile always stayed on his lips as he walked near a table and brought out another box from there.

Seeing her opening the wrapping paper, he stood behind her, playing with the rectangle box on his hand.

Being done unwrapping it, she found a rainbow Quran and a ring falling through a chain connected with the springs of the Quran.

She touched the whole of it as for the first time after so many days a smile appeared on her face.

She turned back at him and made the smile warmer.

"It's... beautiful...thank you.."

Again her voice directly shot his heart making him nervous and little shy.

But then, he looked at her face attentively and carefully, noticing something in her which killed his smile.

He sat near her on the couch, keeping the box on the table beside them he took her hands on his lap with his shaky ones

He never even had time to think of his future wife being busy serving his country.

"You're not happy...right...?"

Her hands walked away from his lap as she looked up to his face at the sudden unexpected question.

She managed to shake her head in negative and tried to assure him with a smile.

"I'm...."

"Come on! I can read that. Or....you're scared?" He raised his brows at this, still doubting something to be wrong in her.

"Just...nervous..."

"Sure?"

"Ye..yes.."

"I don't believe you! Something is wrong!"

"N..no...no."

"Yes! Don't lie!"

At this, tears filled in her eyes as few drops rolled down on her cheeks. She started shivering in fear making him guilty of his words.

"Heyyy I was kidding! I'm sorry. Ya Allah you are crying? I'm sorry! Hey? Don't cry. Please. I'm so so..."

"Tan..veer... I'm afraid." She muttered under her breathe, enough louder to let him hear. She wiped off her tears but cried more unable to control.

By now it increased so much that Tanveer's expression changed in fear, he came closer to her just to make her look up at him but to have such shock, she pulled him by his Kurta and hid her face on his chest.

He became really very worried at her action as she kept shedding tears gripping his Kurta tightly in her fists, moaning and sobbing every now and then.

"Is...really anything wrong? Than..zia?"

He questioned patting her back in a nervous and fearful tone. But got no reply in return as her eyes closed off after minutes of shedding tears, taking her to the world of peace as she slept.

•••••

The Fazr time passed without any single word exchanging between each other. And now, appeared the sun on the sky letting the creations wake up from their sleep.

It's almost 9 when Thanzia's eyes slowly begin to open as she closed her mouth from yawning. Rubbing her eyes, she muttered the Dua of waking up and sat on the bed, trying to remember the incidents of yesterday.

She found the other side of the bed empty, for which a confused expression caught her face as she removed the strands of hair from her face and looked at her right.

Immediately her eyes widened at the view as she stumbled on her place, surprised and little suspicious.

Forgetfully, she didn't pick her Hijab up rather climbed down the bed dressed on a long Maroon coloured Kurta fitting her perfectly, her open hair falling on both her shoulders making her look more beautiful.

She slowly walked to that direction, eyeing at the baby who laid on a comfortable lap, finally staring at Thanzia with his bright open eyes.

His hands and legs again and again moved as he's getting bored, wanting to go to any other lap whose owner isn't sleeping.

And there sat Tanveer, shirtless, his head resting on the headboard of the couch, as he held Nahiaan securely even in sleep.

Still confused and puzzled with the view, Thanzia walked few steps closer but then immediately ran back to the bed to take her Hijab.

Rolling it around her neck, she again came near them and saw Nahiaan staring at her interestingly, his lips wet with his saliva as a drop just now fell on his chin.

His big and googly eyes dancing around her as if he's asking her to take him.

"Eyaaaayy...ooo..." With his baby moaning, he made Thanzia smile at him as she came closer and bowed down, realizing Tanveer deeply dead in his sleep.

She moved her eyes back to Nahiaan noticing Tanveer's shirtless state.

"Ooooooooo..."

He almost yelled protesting with his hands and legs to get out of Tanveer's grip.

Understanding that, Thanzia forwarded her hands and shakily placed the right one on Tanveer's wrist.

A tensed shiver ran down her spine as she removed his hand from Nahiaan's lap that immediately walked away giving excess to Thanzia to take Nahiaan on her lap.

As soon as he landed on her lap and she stood up, shockingly Nahiaan attached his tiny lips to Thanzia's lower lip, making her mouth wet.

"Aaa..aabb..aaab...aaab..."

Muttering whatever, he sucked her lip as without reacting she let him do so, his hands rested on her chest freely as she moved his face from hers.

"Did you miss me? Do you remember me?"

Thanzia questioned still standing on the same position.

Nahiaan moved his eyes to hers and gave her a sheepish smile.

He banged his little face on her mouth at which she chuckled.

"Mummum mummum mummum. Mumm Mumm."

He kept muttering with his beautiful baby voice making her smile in peace with his assurance of remembering her.

Thanzia used to visit him every, literally every single day from the 15th of his birth till the 70th, after his parents divorce, she came with gap of 3-4 days until Tanveer's arrival and proposal.

"Mummum! Mum mum! Mum mum?" He touched her whole face with his tiny cold hands. Thanzia pecked his lips as unknowingly a tear escaped her eye.

"You literally made me your mummum huh? But...not by your father's relationship."

She said to him as if he'll understand.

With a second thought, Thanzia moved her gaze to Tanveer to be sure him to be her husband, not Nahiaan's father.

"Why is he shirtless?"

A questioned raised up on her mind as she averted her gaze sway.

Just then, Nahiaan snuggled on her chest moving the Hijab away from there as he laid on the left side letting his ear listen to the lyrics of her heart.

Thanzia deeply went lost with Shahveer's thoughts which broke when suddenly she yelled in pain as Nahiaan literally digged his newly born teeth in between her neck and upper chest.

Immediately Tanveer's eyes opened as he climbed on his seat.

"Nahiaan!" He called out his name loudly as the first and last thing he remembers is that he brought Nahiaan here after 1 hour of Fazr as he was disturbing Shahveer the whole night.

"Ohh..." His gaze landed on Thanzia who fixed her Hijab but Nahiaan messed it again while playing with a pendent hanging on her neck.

"I...uhh...he.....when did you wake up?"

Tanveer questioned taking his Kurta kept next to him in the couch.

Wearing it, he stared at Thanzia asking for his answer.

"Minutes...back....good..morn..ing."

"Yaaaaaaa!!" Nahiaan giggled as he won in separating the locket out from the chain's hold.

Thanzia tried to take it from his hand but he literally slapped on her face and again rested his head on her chest, playing with the locket with both his hands.

"When...did..you bring him?"

"After you slept."

"Dadda! Dadda!" He excitingly called him as his gaze fell on Tanveer.

Standing up, he came near them, so close that Thanzia moved a step back as her body shivered.

"Ei...you're happy!" Tanveer whispered cupping his face at which Nahiaan jumped moving his face and hugged Thanzia tightly with a sheepish smile.

"Baby..." With a step back, Thanzia made his face move back from her neck as he was sucking there.

"Mummum!"

Tanveer's eyebrows raised with a smirk playing on his facial expression hearing the word as Thanzia nodded at Nahiaan's call.

"You go to freshen up. Others must be waiting."

He said forwarding his hands to take Nahiaan on his arms, but Nahiaan pushed his hands away tightening his fist on Thanzia's Kurta.

"Come on!"

She shivered as Tanveer came closer to her and grabbed Nahiaan from her lap.

"Daddaaaaa." In anger that raised when he forcefully took him, Nahiaan punched on Tanveer's face with all his power, obviously it didn't hurt him.

Ignoring them, Thanzia ran to the washroom and removed her clothes in a minute. She felt her legs letting it's support fade as she switched the shower on and fell down on the floor, letting water shower it's wetness on her.

Along with the droplets of water, tears from her eyes rained so much that her whole face turned red, making her eyes itchy and heart ache.

"Just propose him Zia! He earns, why will he not accept you?"

"Appi he's still studying! That too on medical. Why will he agree to marry me at only 20?

"If he likes you back he won't reject you at least for age!"

"But will for fulfilling his mother's dream to be a doctor first huh?"

"What did you see in her, Veer? Neither Deen nor....nor beauty, what attracted you towards her that you...........what was my fault?"

She questioned loudly, but to none. Her nails digged on both her shoulders dangerously leaving signs in them.

She sobbed as her eyes could only see Shahveer in her thoughts.

Only if she knew that he too loved her, and maybe still does.

••••

Due to crying every time, especially after the tiring wedding day and spending 1 hour under the cold touch of water, her whole body turned red and sensitive, she felt herself shivering a lot as her head ached intolerably.

After meeting many of guests, she excused herself and walked to the garden center. Not knowing that Shahveer is also there at a corner busy on a phone call.

She advanced towards the swimming pool's direction, being busy with the thoughts of her life.

Tears kept flowing down her eyes so badly with pain that she felt her heart stopping it's expansion and contraction.

Her parents died, leaving her as an orphan.

Could she even imagine that at the age of 15?

But she managed to move on.

Knowing death is unavoidable.

But being broken with the hopes, dreams and prayers of getting Shahveer as her better half ached her heart double of losing her parents.

So lost while thinking about all these, she stood just near the pool, with her body stopping it's function, slowly her headache also vanished, as her brain stopped supporting and her eyes half closed which were looking at her reflection on the water.

She lost her half sense, unable to control, she directly fell on the swimming pool, a loud sound of water echoed the area that also went noticed by Shahveer.

In confusion, he walked there, thankfully seeing her clothes floating on the water.

"Mmm...mmm.uumm.."

"Who?...uhh..."

He walked closer, unable to decide what to do as he realized that it's a girl.

"Owhhh!" Without thinking twice, he jumped on the pool and ran to her direction. His heart begin skipping louder beats being nervous.

Catching by her waist, he unwantedly pulled her on his arms, his eyes stared at hers as those closed pair appeared out of the gap of her Niqaab.

And then they half opened, she caught him by his collar for support as her feet floated on the water.

"Aah..ii...mm.." He tried getting out of here with her but she forced him stay on the state, her body still shivering as she's about to lose her sense while he's cursing himself for helping her, totally against this situation.

"I so love you."

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