Ship: Socks x Laff (again)

This chapter has major character death and blood btw!!

This is connected to Turn Back Time btw.

This is basically what socks experienced before somehow traveling back to before everything happened.

Listening to

Francis forever by mitski works if you wanna cry more 👍

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Kinda Sock's Pov

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"Oh and what do you wanna be when you grow up?" Sock's Mother had asked him. "An astronaut! An astronaut!" He screamed in excitement.

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Being an astronaut had been my dream ever since I was little, and now, I had done it. I'm an astronaut!

This would be my first mission, and perhaps, my last. I was excited.

My friends had also became astronauts to join me on this mission.

As the ship, The Skeld, was now in space, me being captain, which was surprising for my first mission, after making sure everything was alright, I decided to take a break and see my friends who were sat in the cafeteria.

"Heyyy, Socks." Blaza greeted. "You done with your stuff?" "Yeeeeppppp."

"Good, maybe you can sit and eat with us then." A blue furry said, as he sat down, he kept looking back at Laff.

When they had first met, it was love at first sight for the rainbow sock man.

Perhaps, I should've told him everything, right there. But now, the light of my life, would die on this ship.

The sun of my life, oh, I wish I could tell you everything. But now as this ship burns down, I regret bottling up my feelings, my life would've been hell, but with you, I would do anything to be with you.

And yet, I couldn't do anything to protect you. I'm sorry my love.

-Socks

Laff was really beautiful, but I couldn't say that out loud.

"What food do we even have on this ship?" I asked the rest. "We've got pizza. Very dry, but still, it's pizza." Blaza had the taste buds of a child, all he would eat was cheese sticks and pizza. I sighed, I look at the dry tiny pizza on a dirty looking tray on the table, and I look at everyone else after.

"Yeah... I don't think that's good for you.." The beautiful British man had said. He was wearing his mask at the time, but I've seen him without it, and oh my, he was really beautiful, like the stars and the sun.

"Mhm.. I would rather eat something else.." I said as I hold up the pizza, looking at the dirty thing in disgust.

"I'll eat it if you won't. Can't waste any food." Blaza had responded. "Of course you can eat it, you'll eat anything." The crab man had spoken up. I looked at all my friends' food, Meme was eating rice and chicken curry, Laff was just drinking tea while eating biscuits, like the British man he was, Tbh was eating.. crab? Wouldn't that be considered cannibalism..?

Whatever, Joocie had given me some basic peanut butter jelly sandwiches.

Welp, if that's all the food for now, let's just eat.

The sun was a bright big star, well.. I mean, for a star, it's actually quite small. But it's way bigger than earth. People always say the word 'Moonlight' as if the moon could actually glow, but for a fact, it doesn't. That light would be the same light from the sun from day. Like me, the moon was just something that always needed some light in it's life to shine on its own. For it to be noticeable, in that big dark sky. The stars look more spectacular when you're actually in space. Ohhh how I wish my sun wouldn't die. And yet.. he still lays dead in a container, his head decapitated, his arms ripped apart, as blood flows everywhere, I really do wish I could've protected you, but all I am is just some stupid useless 'moon'. For the light in my life, I'll always love you, my dear 'friend', Laff.

After eating with the gang, we had been given tasks to make sure this ship could make it to Polus, looking at my task list on a hologram, my first task was in navigation,

As I walk through these halls, I kept thinking, how do people confess love? I've been friends with Laff since highschool, and I had always been in love with him, but how would he react? After all, all I am is just a man, a man who had fallen in love with another man, how stupid of me really.

(Not being homophobic! Just self hatred from the perspective of Socks)

I had quite a few tasks in the navigation room, and as I was doing my last task in that room, I heard a loud scream down the hall. I rushed to where I thought I heard it, and soon my life would become hell,

The scream was from Woolf, who had found Dino, Dino was..

Dead..

It looked like someone had smashed Dino's head into the floors of the Weapons room. Blood was splattered everywhere..

Oh no.. Oh no.. Why him? Why our crew..?

And so, a meeting was called, after Meme had quickly took him into the Medical Bay.

The cookie monster had cleared his throat,

"I hate to do this but.. Dino is in fact dead. And from the looks of his injuries, it wasn't an accident. Someone had killed him."

And now, I remember.. Dino died first. The first one who would experience this pain and misery, was in fact, Dino.

As I turned to look at Meme, he looked like he was on the verge of tears, and so was Woolf upon hearing the news.

"Why?! Why would someone do this?! I thought we were all friends!" Woolf had shouted, tears rolling down his furry face.

"Calm down Woolf, we have to think about this properly, and find out who it was, for Dino." Laff was right, if someone had really killed Dino, we have to take this seriously, and properly.

"Do you guys know what Dino was doing before he died?" The usually cheery and funny crab had asked, now serious.

"I last saw him do his weapons task, with Woolf, Socks, Laff and Blaza walking past him down the hallway." Joocie had nervously spoken.

"I know it's not Socks, You're our beloved captain, and I saw him do his tasks, but I don't know about Blaza or Woolf." Laff had defended me.

Why..? Why did you have to die..? Why not me....?

"T-thank you, Laff." I wanted to cry, I thought we were all friends here, but now that Dino's dead, our friendship was breaking apart, no one could trust anyone anymore. We were the only ones on this ship. It was definitely one of us.

Right..?

No one else was able to bring up anything, and although Blaza and Woolf had no alibi, we had too little info to do anything.

So instead of kicking someone out, we had to stick in groups instead. That would be easier and safer.

Right.......?

Well I was going to learn that I was in fact, wrong. And I'm sorry, my dear light. Oh, you shined so bright. But that wouldn't be enough.. to keep yourself safe..

I'm sorry....

I miss you.

The groups we split up in, were as follows.

I was going with Tbh and Blaza.

Laff was sticking with Meme and Woolf.

Joocie, was going to keep the two teenagers safe, who knows how they got on this ship.

And the last four people, Oof, Oompa, Tbvg and Ally were sticking together as one group.

As we walked down these hallways, I was still thinking about Laff. Why? Why am I so madly in love with a man who couldn't care less about me if I confessed? My friend died, and here I was thinking about my crush? How stupid of me.

"I have to do my reactor task.. can you guys stay in security? They're not too far from eachother." TbhHonest had spoken, breaking the silence between the three.

"Sure, but be sure to join us once you're done, Mr Krabs." Blaza said, trying to lighten up the mood after Dino's death.

"Mhm.. be sure to join us!" I giggled a bit at Blaza calling Tbh Mr Krabs, I mean.. after all, he was surely dressed like the cartoon crab.

I can't look at the Sun the same way anymore, all I can think about is you.

I'm worried I might forget you,

Please..

Hydrangeas are your favourite right..?

I got this bouquet just for you my dear,

It's all so beautiful just like you were,

Please... Just tell me everything will be alright.

There's hydrangeas, A Baby's Breath,

yellow and red tulips, As well as pink and red carnations,

Some may say that this was an odd bouquet, but to me, this means everything. Everything I wish I could tell you. I love you, you were everything to me, sometimes I wish you would've listened to me, when I said this was a dangerous mission,

I love you, more than anything.

Why...

I miss you more than anything,

As time passed by, Me and my group stayed in security. Till we heard a loud noise, It was the emergency call,

Immediately we rushed, I was an absolute wreck, I was worried about losing him. And as we arrived at the table, I looked around me and saw everyone, everyone except Laff.

There stood Woolfster who was extremely panicked, as it seems.

"Where's Laff?!?" The panicked sweating wolf called out.

"Weren't you supposed to be with him..?" Meme turned to Woolf.

"Aren't you both supposed to be with Laff?!" Another voice called out, it was Joocie.

"Listen, Laff told me he was just going to the bathroom, and that he would be gone for three minutes, so I thought it was fine for him to go alone!"

"How long has it been..?"

Woolf looked down to his watch.

He looked absolutely terrified,

"I thought this call would alarm him! It's been one hour!"

"SHOOT, so this is serious. We have to find him quick! Let's search this ship!"

Immediately after hearing the news, everyone rushed to look for Laff.

Including me too,

Despite the important fact that Laff said he was going to the bathroom, no one really went into them,

After what had seemed to be quite a while, some of us had split up to find him, and sure enough, one of us did.

One of us found him, and from the loud blaring alarm, it was sure enough in the bathrooms, but if we had found him... Why would we need to call out for help..?

I was absolutely traumatized when I arrived at the scene,

Woolf stood over the body, being the one who had reported it.

Laff.. was dead.

In a more gruesome way, compared to Dino.

In the stall, there was..

There was..

I wanted to cry, but I couldn't show this bitch, that..

That..

I was weak..

Laff had been decapitated. His head was on the ground with pools of blood surrounding his body in the stall,

It looked like they didn't just decapitate him, they also crushed his head into the ground,

His blood was splattered everywhere.

I wished I never had the ability to see at all in that moment.

This murderer was a psychopath.

His arms had been torn apart from his body, and his chest was ripped open.

His organs spilled out as his body remained on the bloody toilet, you could even see his ribcage, and the worst of it all..

They had absolutely prioritized ripping his heart out.

I wanted to puke, I wanted to cry.

I wish somebody could comfort me and cover my eyes, and yet.. The only one who would be willing to do so, so easily was Laff. The one who I loved, was dead.

Immediately, Meme came with bags as well as large, large containers.

It was big enough to put a torso in it, and so that's what Meme did. Meme knew he was dead but, still he wanted to preserve his body, so we could give him a proper burial back on earth, if we make it out alive. That's what he said. W-what if we don't make it out alive..? I was shivering.

Slowly everyone went to the cafeteria, to have a meeting. Everyone looked more sad than ever. Laff was so kind to us all. Who would do this?

As depressed as everyone seemed, no one had actually cried, or said anything for that matter. It felt like everyone was dead. It was so silent for once. Everyone was staring straight at the table, no light in their eyes.

The only who was crying was..

Meme.

Even I wanted to cry so badly, but I couldn't let them know..

I cared so much about him,

I loved him so much,

Laff had a beautiful garden room for himself on this ship,

Compared to the other 'Skeld' ship, this was extremely unique,

I was going to honour Laff with his own garden flowers, the second this meeting was over. I couldn't care if Tbh and Blaza didn't want to follow me.

I didn't care if I would die alone,

I loved Laff.

Something still bugged me though,

If even Meme, who was always so strong and never showed any weaknesses was crying, why didn't I wanna cry? I just couldn't.

The thought that I might just forget Laff.. was just so horrid..

I love him. But I couldn't cry.

"It's alright Meme.. Don't cry... I'm here for you.." Joocie was desperately trying to comfort Meme, who was absolutely balling at this point. Joocie's words broke the silence, and Meme's clothes were absolutely soaked with tears at this point.

This truly was the worst mission ever, at this point of time. And I'm sorry I couldn't do anything, my dear.

"L-laff.. tried to protect himself.." Meme had spoken, very softly as his eyes were still flooded with tears.

How could someone actually cry so much..?

This really was painful for everyone.

And I hope that murderer would suffer for the rest of their lives.

But that would never bring back Laff, now would it?

"H-how did you find that out... Meme..?" Joocie still wanted to comfort Meme, even if Meme was slightly pulling away from his touch.

"The.. the.. the scratches on his cheek.. the scars on his hands.." Meme's voice was absolutely muffled as he still had his hands covering his face, desperately trying to hide his cries.

Still everyone could hear that statement.

"If they.. if they really wanted to kill Laff immediately.. they wouldn't..

That psychopath wouldn't.."

Meme was gasping for air, as he continues to cry.

"They wouldn't.. harm him in unnecessary areas..

Laff tried to fight back.. and he failed."

What Meme had just said made sense, despite the amount of nonsense Meme usually spout everyday.

They wouldn't have scratched his face, or his hands.. if they just wanted to kill him.

"I-I'm sorry.. it was my fault.. my fault I couldn't fucking protect you.. if I had known.. maybe, just maybe.." Meme was quick to blame himself. But maybe it was because Meme had actually seen Laff as kind of an older brother,

All of his words, had absolutely pained everyone, as everyone would realise the truth..

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I'm sorry..

I'm really sorry Laff..

I'm sorry..

I didn't know..

I wished I could've protected you..

But now..

As I sit here as a ghost..

I've seen everything..

I'm sorry..

I failed..

As a friend..

And as a doctor.

Don't be.

Meme, you've done nothing wrong.

You couldn't have known.

You've always been the greatest friend and younger brother figure, Meme.

Doctors can only heal people.

They could never revive the dead.

There's even some greater injuries they wouldn't be able to heal.

So what made you think you could've done anything to protect me?

It's not your fault.

And don't ever blame yourself again.

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Oh, and please pass this letter to Socks.

I need to him to know too.

It was neither of y'all's fault.

So please, don't ever blame yourselves again.

You two are the greatest.

Don't you ever forget that.

You tried your best, and that's all that matters to me.

Come here.

You can cry it all out, it's fine.

Just know that I'll always be here to comfort you.

The letter for Socks wrote,

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'Dear Socks,

I know we're all dead now,

And there's no point in really writing a letter.

But you seemed to need space,

So instead here's a letter.

To my love.

I've always known you loved me.

And I love you too,

You idiot.

And truth be told, I couldn't handle it either if you had died.

And just remember,

It's alright to let it all out.

Bottling up emotions isn't really good for you, y'know.

I loved the bouquet!

And I wrote this here to tell you, my love.

You may only see yourself as a 'Moon'.

But to me, you'll always be a 'Sirius'.

Which if you don't get it,

Its kind of a nerd's joke.

Sirius is the brightest star visible from earth. And you'll always be the brightest light in my life,

So please, my dear.

Don't you ever forget,

I'll always love you.

And even if you won't remember me,

Just know that I will.

With Love,

That was the most important thing to me, It was the last thing I remember from that trip in the past.

And still,

I can't believe I have you now.

How did we turn back time..?

That didn't matter.

What mattered now,

Was that I'll always be here with you now, Laff.

In the comfort of your arms.

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Why am I making myself cry again

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This took so long to write but boy am i absolutely in love Also i promise ill write something with no sadness for once after this.

But yeah.

Hoped you.

Yes you. The reader.

Liked it Because this shit took me way too long lmao

My hands are in terrible pain now

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But hey have a nice day now fellas Even if you don't like my fics,

I hope you have a great day now ( ˘ ³˘)♥

3069 words? Damn.