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I don't get it, how do they find them so easily, it's not like I'm not searching for one, I went to three different school, I graduated every dom class with an A plus mark, I never failed, I'm great with littles and pets.

I found everything but my connection, why is it so hard to connect to them, I'm driving myself insane, I'm too old to be going back to the school, I feel like I could be the teacher not the student, I'm more than threr hundred years old while all the other vampire kids are hardly thirty.

I'm ten times older with ten times lesser chance to find the perfect something I'm looking for.

I was classified as a dom, a mommy/master dom, not that I was too in the petplay scene back then, but I was classified as it, most of us get classified into lifestyles that we know nothing about, I'm not the first one ever.

As I kept on learning over and over again, the pet play I'm in isn't too deep, I'm a mommy first, but instead of having a little girl or boy I wanna have a little puppy, puppies are so adorable, but the kitten play have stole the light from them.

It became overrated in my view, better have a little puppy, I can put them on a leash, I can pet their ears and tail, I can dress them up, put a collar on them, and instead of using a crib for when I'm not home I can use a cage. Not a plain one of course, one with soft cushion, and fairy light to keep them safe.

My mommy part which is more of me, wants our baby to be just an isty bitsy baby, most puppies I met wanted to have full freedom to run around, while I want to cuddle them, carry them around and maybe breastfeeding? It's not weird for mommies to do so, and diapers are a most.

Tonight, I'm going to my old friend house, he didn't have my problem after his classification, he found his submissive, sure she made him work for it, but she's his perfect match. I never met her, too busy looking for my own match, but tonight I'm going to visit them, maybe get some advice on how to get my own.

"Maverick," I say giving my friend a hug, he looks as good as ever, with a big satisfied smile on his face, he looks happy, I want to be happy too. To his right, on her knees, looking down, I could see her violet hair brushed and styled in a french braid, she had a sort of black lingerie on, she looked beautiful.

"Is this her?" I ask him, my dominant side wanted to pick her up and give her a hug, she's the reason my friend is so happy, but it's not their lifestyle, if I do that, I'll make her uncomfortable.

"Eva," he says her name sounding like honey from his mouth, the girl then looked up at me, even her face was angel like.

"Nice meeting you miss," Eva says before putting her head down again.

"Such good manners," I praise her, if she was a puppy she'd shake her tail right now, but she's not.

"Thank you, now come on in, let's go eat," he says, Eva's place was on a cushion next to her master while we sat on the table, eating dinner.

"No luck finding the lucky puppy yet?" He asks me, making me groan, if I found them, they'd be with me right now.

"Yet, I'm thinking of getting one from the black market, maybe a breeder could get me what I need," I say with a groan, it's the worse kind of options, the black market is filled with unwilling subs and to get one breeded just for me, there's no guarantees on what monstrosity I might get.

"Nonsense, you'll find one soon," my friend says.

"I've been to every school there is, they even offered me a teaching job, I can't keep going as a student," I say with a sad smile, I'd love to have a teaching job, but I can't see the students fall for each other while I look, once I take the job, I can't