An hour later there is a knock on my door. It's Tobias. He walks right in and sits on the bed,next to me. His hand holds a muffin out to me. I shake my head. "You do deserve food Tris. Please." I turn away. I hear him start to cry. He thinks he is silent. Zeke told him. Fuck. When he stops crying,he sets the muffin on my nightstand and lies down next to me. I roll over and place my head on his chest. I can hear his heartbeat. I will never get to hear my parent's. Or Caleb's. "Why did I do this?" I mumble to myself. I think he heard me. "You did nothing. The universe isn't always fair." He says. I look up at him. My parents would've wanted me to move on,but that because they're Abnegation. I don't know about Caleb though. I fall asleep thinking. What would they want me to do? They look at me. "Beatrice. You need to go out and have fun. It's okay." Mom and dad say. I give them a big hug and look to Caleb. "Good job." He says and looks at me. I run into a hug. It's over. I wake up. I don't want to. But I do.

Live my life. I need to live life. I wake up and it's almost lunch time. I get up and change into my pants with special knife pickets. Then my combat boots and a tight,black, tank top. Tobias follows me. I wave for Jim to follow me. We head to the dining hall and sit in our usual spot. I don't eat anything,but it's a start. Slowly, everyone comes and sits down. When Chris comes over,she brings me a big piece of cake. "You know that's my weakness." I say and look at her. She is smiling. "Mine too." Tobias says with his mouth full of food. This makes me laugh.

It feels good to laugh. I can fell that everyone is less tense around me. I eat the cake and head back to my apartment and remember that we are picking jobs tomorrow. I'm so excited.

what would Caleb want me to chose? I want to train initiates with four. There are two spots left for that and I get first pick.What else do I want to do? I hear a knock on the door and I rush to answer. I don't know why though. It's Tobias. "Hi."He says.I let him in and we sit on the bed in silence. I lean over and give him a long kiss. When we stop,he smiles. Our lips draw together again and we kiss passionately. I pull away and lay in the crook of his neck. After dinner,I go to the tattoo parlor with Chris. She want to get a tattoo of a cactus on her shoulder. I think it's a bad idea,but it's not my choice. To be honest when it's done,it looks cool. We walk to the clothing store and she tries to style me. "Please. Just one more." I sigh and give in. I leave with a little bit of make-up,while she carries 6 bags of clothes. I go back to my apartment and go to sleep.

I wake up and get ready. First I get dressed and brush my hair and teeth. Then I change into my favorite outfit,a tight,black,tank top and black leggings. Lastly,I put on a little bit of make-up. I walk out to breakfast and everyone is already there. I don't get anything,I feel a bit nauseous. We are picking jobs right after this. The whole breakfast is spent talking about jobs. Eric calls us all to tables and starts his speech. "When I call your name you will pick a job or jobs. You will go in order of your ranking. First up,Tris." I walk up and pick tattoo artist and initiate trainer. Uriah also wants to train initiates. When I pick my jobs,they show up on a screen. As I pick it I hear many sighs from the crowd. Oh well. Everyone knows that Tobias and I are dating after the attack on abnegation. He smiles at me and I give him a thumbs up. After the ceremony we are allowed to visit our families and tell them about our jobs. Instead,Tobias and I walk to his apartment. We have no one worth telling. We lie down on the bed. I'm so bored. "Tris?"I nod, acknowledging

that I heard him. "Would you like to move in with me?" He asks and i nod.

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