I was moved to a different place when I woke up. Tied to the end of a bed. I was in tears. What had I done to deserve this? First having to watch Tobias get abused then me and now this? 1 thing I knew was that this was a dauntless room. The only person I knew in dauntless that would do anything like this was Eric. Surely enough the door got pushed open and there was Eric. Eric and Kai. I squirmed hiding myself the best I could. "What the hell Eric! You let him do this?!" I yelled at both of them. "Relax, you'll be out of here after the war games. Then everyone will believe your faction less" Eric said. Now that the two were standing next to each other I noticed similarities. Kai. Kai's last name. Kai's last name was Coulter. I knew for a fact I was part erudite so why did this take me so damn long? Eric and Kai are siblings. "YOU BITCH THATS WHY YOU ALWAYS PUT ME AGAINST THEM! HOW THE HELL DID I NOT KNOW?!" Eric raised his eyebrow. "Don't think about it too much, we've kept it quiet," Kai said. Eric walked over to me and Kai sat in an armchair across the room. I quickly remembered how much I was restrained when Eric grabbed my face and I moved backwards and hit my head. He laughed. Then grabbed me again. Looking in my eyes as if it was a window to my soul. "You know I always wondered what society would think if Marcus eating daughter was a divergent," Eric said. The handcuffs were digging into my wrists if they weren't I could've broken them. "My father's dead to me I don't fucking care what he thinks of me and what the hell is a divergent" I said playing dumb. Stupid me. How did he find out? Not even my brother knew. We didn't even go into sims yet. "This is tedious. Charlotte I've known you were a divergent since the moment you said 'maybe I do' or to make it even more obvious when we met" mimicking me he put on a high pitched voice and said. "Are you under the impression I won't last?" I rolled my eyes. My shimmering brown eyes. Maybe I do was what I said as I jumped off the building. I didn't even know Eric was there. I just thought it was Max. He let go of my face and instead leaned in to whisper something in my ear. "Do you have a death wish?" He asked. A shiver ran down my spine. Christina. Christina had asked that to me. Then during our first night she had told me and Tris that we had a death wish. If they were to keep me here with no help I'd surely go insane or I'd die from bleeding out. As far as I could see I had 3 wounds on my legs and 2 on my arms, the ones on my arms being deeper than the ones on my legs. Eric eventually got out of my face even though I doubt he wouldn't love torturing me. I wanted Four back. I wanted Tris Al Will and Christina. I wanted to pass initiation without having to be kidnapped. Apparently I was very good at making enemies. I sat on the floor handcuffed to a bed with a blank expression. What the hells wrong with me shouldn't I be sobbing? I just got kidnapped and I was unphased. "If your going to murder me in some horrible way please kill me now because at this point my life has been a living hell since I was born and I will be unphased" I said bored. Kai just sighed. "Dauntless was supposed to be my escape. Like it was Fours. But I still have recurring memories. It's almost like I've got some mental condition that causes me to revisit memories at the most un opportune times. Ah my shit show of a life is boring for even me. But even then I wake up with no memory of doing anything except having a panic attack and there I am being held down by my brother who's telling me I beat the shit out of a kid I hate. Makes sense why soooooo many people hate me. I feel drunk no I want to get drunk." I ranted to no one in particular. I wanted to get drunk or high. I wanted to forget about my problems. "I mean I could kill myself too it would make your job easier. I've debated it since I was like 9 so it won't be a hard choice" The most nonchalant death there ever was. I could tell I was beyond annoying. The cold floor was getting colder by the minute and the pounding beat in my head was becoming more apparent. "Your ranting. From the blood loss there's no doubt you already know that and by now you're feeling dizzy. Very very dizzy". Kai spoke with ease as if he hadn't a care in the world. I was dying and I did know that. I nodded slightly. I wasn't a coward and I wasn't going to hide the truth. No, I've lost more blood this week than ever. But I've spilled it too. "You will fade in an hour or so. How does it feel for me to hold your life in my hands?". He had moved over to me getting down so he was level with me. I almost forgot he was erudite before dauntless. "How the roles are reversed. The only difference is I'm not a coward and I didn't have to use my older brother to take you down" I spat in his face. He chuckled. "Stubborn to the last minute". I huffed. I was not stubborn. "She looks horrible. Broken right arm busted lip no wonder she has no will to live. Your suffering and pain will follow you until the very last seconds of your miserable life". Eric laughed. I wouldn't break. I wouldn't cry. My life isn't miserable. I had Tris and Four. As it is I never had a will to live. This was supposed to be my freedom, my 'new start'. Marcus ruined that for me. I lashed out multiple times just because of him abusing me. If I ever got out of here alive the one place I'd go is to him. I'd murder him in cold blood. I probably looked worse than I felt. I couldn't feel my injuries, probably also the blood loss. "I'm used to suffering, I don't feel any pain. Not physically it takes a toll on my body. But I'm only scarred mentally. I know I'm going to die here and I don't care. I've waited for this for years. Thank you. Thank you for ending my life Kai. I'm sorry I beat you up. I lashed out on you for what Marcus did to me. Once a stiff always a stiff. The only thing I ask of you is to tell my honorable jackass of a brother that I'm not coming back. That I'm faction less. He's the only person I trust in this world and if I had a will to live he'd be my reason why" I said this with no hope. I wanted to die. I had hoped for this moment since I stepped foot in this world. I wish it came slower so I could suffer the way everybody who's called me a mistake said I would. I let my brown dull eyes close. I no longer had a reason. Tobias had Tris now. "This is sad coming from you. I thought you would fight until I killed you. After 5 years I never thought you would give up so easily" I hummed in response. "You killed me bravo I'm no longer stubborn I'm dead. Just another dead stubborn divergent" I spaced out. I had a fear that if I let into the darkness that I wouldn't wake up. But I wanted this. I wanted death. I heard the jangling of keys and metal. My arm fell to my side. Kai sat by me stroking my hair. "I'm sorry you had to go like this." He whispered. "Don't be" I said as if I was far away. Heavier breaths lead to smaller breaths. Shallow breaths. Bringing me closer to my death. Kai checked my pulse. He brought me closer to him and I fell on his lap. My arm was nagging at me but my brain ignored it and I could hear my heartbeat getting slower. "Thank you" I mumbled. My throat was on fire. I fell into darkness. Fell into fate. My pulse was gone. My body was covered in lifeless blood. "No no no Charlie please stay with me" Tobias said. He found my body. No. "Not you. Anyone but you. Please" he begged. I couldn't give up yet. Not with him like this. He was trying to do CPR but I knew I was the only one who could save me. With everything I had I took a small breath. I was so weak. So tired. He backed away letting me breathe on my own. I cried out. It felt as if something was straining my throat. Like a heavy weight against my lungs. I felt his arms lift me up. Like a baby. I must've been light to him. "Take another breath sister. I know it hurts. But… but do it for me" he had tears in his eyes which was uncommon he never cried even when Marcus beat him. I furrowed my eyebrows. Trying. I was trying to live to survive. I took another breath which hurt more than the last. I didn't even realize the pain I would put him through. I was squinting through a hazy vision trying to see Four. I could see the familiar ceiling of the infirmary. "I NEED A NURSE!". It was so distant sounding as if he was in a big room and I was on the other side. A lady rushed us to a back room so he could set me down on a metal table. They had these in morgues. I wonder if I'm dead and this is just a dream. I only now realized I haven't been breathing not since I was reminded to. Two doctors rushed in and an oxygen mask was put on me. Four couldn't figure out a way to help so he just stood in the back of the room out of the way. From what I could tell someone was manually pumping air into my lungs and every time I was being forced to breathe. I closed my eyes for only a second but I could hear the heart monitor I was hooked up to start flatlining. My eyes wouldn't open any longer and eventually my hearing faded.