I could see the need swirling inside me reflected in Austin's beautiful eyes. I understood exactly what he needed. What we both needed. We both needed the reaffirmation of our connection, the reminder of being alive and well with each other.

With the barest nod, Austin released my sleeve to allow me to pull the book out of the shelf. Turning back towards Austin, I straightened my shoulders and leveled a heavy stare on him.

His shoulders straightened automatically, his hands clasped together behind him, and his gaze lowered to the floor.

"Shower. Then put on something from the third drawer in the cabinet inside the playroom. I want you waiting on your knees in front of the bed."

Traversing the space, I lifted Austin's chin with a finger. "I'll take care of you, Austin. Never doubt that. Trust me."

His Adam's apple bobbed, his voice choked with tears said, "I do."

I let slip a little smile before rearranging my face into the detached look I knew made Austin shiver in anticipation. "Good. Now hurry up, pet."

With a slap to his delectable ass, I sent him scurrying into the bathroom.

As I heard the water start, I quickly changed into fresh jeans with a belt, deciding to remain barefoot, bare chested, and go commando. Deciding to give Austin 30 minutes, I occupied my time inside the library.

...................

I checked my watch. It had been more than 45 minutes, but I knew Austin needed to be as deep into submission as he could be to truly alleviate his pain from the shooting today.

With anticipation and desire thrumming through my veins, I made my way back to my room. After locking my bedroom door, I made my footsteps heavy to alert Austin to my presence. I hovered in the open playroom doorway as I took in the beautiful sight of Austin.

A cherry red thong wrapped around his torso, straining against the erection tenting the fabric. I licked my lips. I was going to make his ass match that thong.

Strands of still damp hair fell across his forehead, and my fingers itched to bury themselves inside of those locks. To feel them twine around my fingers as I fucked his mouth until his lips were swollen, and throat raw.

Deciding reality was better than fantasy, I stepped into the room fully. Taking purposeful steps, as I got closer I could see Austin's slight tremble.

Smoothing a hand over his hand, I leaned down to whisper in his ear, "Shhh. It's alright, baby. I'll make it all better, I promise. Just let go."

As if a thread snapped, Austin shot to his feet. His nails raked the bare skin of my chest, catching on my nipples. I hissed in a breath before, using my neck as leverage, Austin pushed his tongue into my mouth.

Out of shock, I pushed him back a step, keeping my hands on his shoulders. "Austin?"

"Please, Maddox, please. I need you to push me farther than I've ever gone. I need you to completely dominate me. Force me to take what you give. I just can't stop replaying the moment you shoved me to the ground and I had a heartbreaking moment where I thought you had been shot. Please." The last please broke with emotion.

Who was I to deny such a request? Especially as I felt my shaft thicken with each sentence that came out of his mouth.

I slanted my mouth over Austin's for a bruising kiss, plundering his mouth. I buried a hand in his silky hair, the other grasped an ass cheek like my life depended on it.

And I realized it nearly did. I don't think I could survive without Austin.

At this revelation, I pulled him even closer, before picking up his smaller form and tossing him on the bed. A squeak of surprise barely left his mouth before mine was back on his.

I couldn't find a coherent thought anywhere in my brain. And that was only from his kisses. Maddox had done exactly as I'd asked, and it was only the beginning. I grinded up, the thin fabric doing nothing to prevent my cock from rubbing against the denim of Maddox's pants.

I reached up to cup Maddox's jaw, but suddenly my wrists were pinned to the mattress, and my body flipped. My breath was briefly knocked out of me, but before I could fully gain it back, a balled handkerchief was shoved in my mouth, forcing my breath into my nose.

Smooth leather rubbed against my stomach as I felt Maddox cinch his belt around my waist. I felt Maddox's weight briefly leave the bed, but before I knew it, his body was pinning mine against the mattress and silky sheets. I moaned around the cloth as my arms were roughly yanked behind my back, and secured with a rough rope, my hands facing up and my elbows facing down and out.

Maddox combed his fingers roughly through my hair, and I settled my chin down on the pillow, my eyes slowly lowering.

With a purely animalistic growl, he tore off the scrap of fabric. I barely had time to gasp before Maddox's fingers spread my cheeks and dove into my crack. A yelp of surprise quickly transformed into a rumble of pleasure. Which soon turned into muffled screams as Maddox scraped his teeth around the puckered entrance. I pushed back into his hand as a few hard slaps reddened my ass.

Moving upwards, I tried to plead for more through the gag as Maddox ground his denim clad erection into my stinging ass.

A hand in between my shoulder blades kept my upper body down, as my ass was yanked up. Air rushed over my tortured dick, moisture leaking down from the slit, hard as stone.

I whimpered pitifully as Maddox tapped his fingers lightly against my balls.

With a chuckle, Maddox lightly slapped my ass and I immediately pushed back into his hand.

"Desperate, baby?"

The best response I could give was a low groan through the fabric as Maddox jacked my cock twice, leaving me teetering on the precipice of orgasm.

A harder slap stung. A third, fourth, fifth, and sixth slap caused a burning sensation to follow his hand as he pelted my ass and thighs.

"Mmm, I love the sounds you make. I love how beautiful your ass looks all reddened from my hand and tools," Maddox cupped my balls and rolled them around.

I had to squeeze my eyelids and bite down on the gag to distract myself from coming all over the bed. I knew the unspoken rule. No coming without Maddox's say.

The words were nearly lost, as Maddox started moving, but I faintly heard them over the click of a cap being opened on a bottle of lube.

"I don't think there is anything I don't love about you, Austin."

Love...? Elation soared within me. Maddox loved me. Me! Right..? Had I heard that right? Or was my stupid brain playing tricks on me?

My train of thought was swiftly interrupted by Maddox's sizable length being quickly shoved inside me. I screamed in a mixture of pleasure and pain. Without stretching, the burn had been immense, but it was exactly what I needed to completely push the worry from earlier out of my mind.

Pre-cum dripped from my slit mercilessly as Maddox pounded me into the satin sheets. His pace was slow and steady, each thrust hitting my gland, leaving me with tears in my eyes and ready to scream my frustration at the denial of release. Maddox's hips slammed into my sore bottom and my grunts mixed with Maddox's as he pushed harder on my shoulder blades.

Unexpectedly, his hand disappeared from my shoulders, and I gasped in surprise when an arm snaked around my middle to grasp the front of the belt. I was quickly flipped onto my back, and I winced as my body fell awkwardly on my still tied arms.

However, the uncomfortable position was soon forgotten as Maddox dove right back into my fluttering hole, with the same maddening pace.

After a few more thrusts, I was a blubbering mess. His chiseled chest rubbed against mine, and some time he must have lost the jeans because he was beautifully bare.

Sweat coated Maddox's forehead, and an intensity lurked in his eyes, akin to a wild beast. I loved it.

A particularly deep thrust had me seeing stars. I cried out behind the gag, needing to allow my climax to flow over me.

As if in understanding, my lover let out a grunt, before plunging back in, deeper than ever before. I screamed in ecstasy and immense frustration.

"Legs around my waist, Austin."

I was too deep inside my own pleasure to register the order the first time. I finally complied when a forceful "Now" came out through gritted teeth.

Securing his hands on the backs of my shoulder blades, Maddox picked me up, his stone like dick pressing into my gland with each step he took.

My forehead fell onto his shoulder as he took us out of the playroom, into his main bedroom. With a carefulness so unlike a crime boss, Maddox placed us on the bed.

Then, he grabbed a firm grip on the front of the belt, and let my ass have it. His thrusts pushed me up the bed, before I would be yanked back down onto his cock with the belt.

I mumbled "please, please, please," as coherently I could through the gag.

But when Maddox dug a finger into my slit, and started jacking me to the rhythm of his thrusts, I felt my control shorten to a thread.

With a bellow that must have shook the house, Maddox twisted a nipple and I shattered into a million pieces. I felt Maddox's claiming as my channel tightened around him and his seed coated my insides.

My orgasm felt like it continued forever. After I settled from my high, I buried my head in Maddox's sweaty hair laying beside me. After a few moments, where we each took time to regain our breath, Maddox undid my arms and the gag, before going to get a wet cloth to clean us up.

Afterwards, we lay snuggled together as the moon shone through the window.

I blew out a breath. "Wow. That was just...wow."

Maddox chuckled. "Very much a wow."

Maddox leaned forward, seemed to hesitate as he searched my eyes, but quickly kissed my forehead before burying his face in my neck and mumbling "good night."

Nothing could wipe the smile off my face as I ran my hand soothingly down the love of my life's back as his breathing deepened into sleep.