I don't even know what I'll make them do but I take it. I stretch my hand to the middle of the table, and they all place them on top of mine.

"It's agreed. The agreement is therefore binding." I say

"Let shame come to those who break the promise." They say in unison. They can't stop grinning.

I look up to see the waiter still standing. He is looking at Mason.

"I want a double cheeseburger."

The waiter scrams like someone was going to chase him.

"So, you driving us back after this?" Bas asks

"I don't know. Maybe we can stay a few hours and get back later?"

They all nod.

"Anything you want to do?" Jose asks

I shake my head. "I don't even know. We can chill somewhere."

Mason points at one of the hotels on our right. "We can check in there until we ready to leave."

I shrug. "I'm cool with it, but it's not just about me. What does everyone want."

"The hotel is fine. I'm not in the mood to walk around." Jose mutters

Leo smirks. "Plus, we can get the tournament underway. I am dying to see you punished."

I take my juice to my lips, smirking too. "Who is going first?"

They look at each other.

"I am," Bas says

"Mm, I see. Okay, nerd. I hope you fucking ready for your punishment because I have the perfect one."

"No, sweetheart, you get ready." He licks his lips and I blush

"What are you planning in that head of yours?" I narrow my eyes at him

He shrugs, and they all smirk. Seems they are all in this together and I am on my own.

"What are you going to have me do?"

He leans in and brushes my thighs and says in my ear, so only I can hear, "Just something I've been wanting to confirm for a while." When he pulls back, I see the hunger in his eyes, and I know I'm in trouble.

Whatever it is, it isn't holy. He only has bad intentions. I just have to make sure I win. That's all.

We eat over light chatter and I ask them about their girlfriends. They all say they were just messing around and there are no girlfriends.

I go straight to the balcony, pulling Bas with me. The hotel is gorgeous with a nice living area and a huge king size bed. The view of the ocean is breath taking.

"Okay, you did the right thing driving us here. This is way better than awkward glances in school grounds." Bas hugs me from behind and he rests his head on my shoulder so we are cheek to cheek. My body tingles all over and multiple shivers run down my spine.

"I am always right. You should know that." I grin

Leo comes with three glasses of champagne, and he hands one to each of us.

Mason and Jose also join us, and they have beers.

"We should have come here on Friday." Jose mutters

"We can come next weekend." Bas suggests

I stiffen. I remember I haven't told anyone of them about my mom.

"I can't, I am not available. But you guys can come together."

Four pairs of eyes zero on me. "Where are you going and why haven't you said anything?"

I see they all share the same sentiment. I should tell them. They also know my mom and once they were her boys too. My father said I mustn't tell anyone; said it'll make us look weak. But fuck it. Fuck all that. I have been dying not able to tell anyone about her.

"My mother has cancer." I look to the blue ocean trying desperately to find something to latch to, so I don't cry these tears burning the back of my eyes.

"Zara, what?" Mason's voice is barely a whisper

"When?" Jose isn't as calm, and Bas is a log of wood behind me.

"Six months ago. She's in Switzerland, so I'm going to her."

I am now blinking rapidly but the tears are just too powerful. Mason hugs me from the front. Silent tears fall as my sorrow blankets me. I feel more bodies tight around me and I sob.

"I'm so sorry, baby. We didn't know."

I cry for what feels like forever and Mason's shirt is soaked when I finally emerge. I try to wipe my tears, but Leo grabs my hand before he wipes them. I look up to him and I see my own pain reflected in his eyes.

"Can we come with you?" he asks as he takes the napkin from Jose

I shake my head. "I want it to be just me and her."

"Fuck, this sucks." Bas kisses my temple.

"Why haven't you told us?" Jose looks hurt for another reason

I expel a sigh. "We are enemies, remember? You hate me. I hate you. Our fathers hate each other. Our mothers don't talk anymore." More tears fall from my face as I say it

My words look like they land, and they hurt. So, I add. "Governor Clark doesn't want to seem weak to his opposition. Having a wife with cancer doesn't exactly encourage the vote and the sponsors."

I look away when I see pity in Mason's eyes. "Don't fucking pity me, Diavolo." I swat Bas's arms and I go to the bathroom.

The fuck he thinks he is showing me his pity.

I wash my face and I towel dry my eyes. I see him standing at the door in my peripheral.

"I'm sorry, my beautiful star. I shouldn't have." His hands are in his pockets, and he looks sorry

I breathe. I know I am being sensitive because at the back of my head I do think it makes me weak. I have a sick mother, and everyone suddenly feels the need to feel sorry for me. Maybe father was right.

"I don't wanna talk about it." I move for the door he still is filling. He doesn't move. I stand in front of him, and I look up to him. He doesn't look like he's budging.

"Move."

"Always so stubborn." He shakes his head smirking

"Move, Mason."

"I'm not Diavolo anymore?"

"Just get out of my way,"

"And what are you going to do if I don't?" he tilts his head, challenging. My blood boils and my hands trembles. I shove him but he doesn't budge.

"Fucking move!"

He doesn't budge.

"Make me. That's what you want right to fight me, all of us. Then fucking do it then show us all you are a big girl now." He challenges

I throw hands on his chest, and I drum. "Move, fucking move!"

"Do better, princess."

I see red. He knows I have always hated being called princess. My hand connects with his face. My own hand hurts but he just looks the other way, wanting me to do it again, giving me the other cheek. Then I see it, what he's doing.

My eyes fill with tears and I back away. I blink a few times, not wanting to cry anymore. I feel him get closer.

"Don't" I say in an almost whisper

His arms circle me, and he hugs me. "Let us take care of you, sweetheart. We are your protectors, remember?"

I breathe trying to keep a lid on my emotions. "I don't wanna be sad, Mason. I turn in his arms. "Help me forget." I pull his face and I kiss him. It's a desperate kiss.

He pulls away quickly and I gasp. He holds my face in his hands.

"We don't have to do this, sweetheart. We can go and watch tv or take a walk."

"I want you," my body hums in agreement. "Look, yes I'm sad and its whatever but right now, I just want to forget who I am. I don't want to be Zahara Clark, daughter of a man who betrayed his family. I want to be your Zara. I want to be bas's Zar, Jose's Zaza and Leo's Zuzu." I pause. "Just...just give me this okay, we can talk tomorrow when we are back in prison."

I see his resolve slipping from him and I realize there are other people in the room. Mason moves so I see them all standing a few feet away. They all look like they don't know what to do. I see I have to take the bull by its horns. I honestly don't know what I'm doing.

"I just...Can we just forget everything for now. I want to feel good."

They are still not convinced. So, I turn to Mason. I jump on him, and he holds me, then I kiss his neck. I honestly don't know what I'm doing, and I smile as he starts moaning.

He protests with a groan.

My cheeks get hot. I don't want to disappoint them, but at the same time I want them to know where I am with my experience.

"Okay, don't be weirded out but I don't know what I'm doing."

"What?" Mason asks. I hear a chuckle coming from our left. Jose and Bas are chuckling. Idiots.

Bas comes close. "Are you a virgin, Zar?"

Okay, now I feel embarrassed. I hide my face in Mason's neck and I close my eyes tightly shut. I don't feel so confident now.

"Zara?"

I shake my head.

"This is embarrassing. You are making it weird."

I feel him chuckling and I pull back.

"We aren't doing anything. You are." He tells me

"Okay, let it not be weird. Just pretend I'm the most experienced woman you've ever met, okay?"

Mason moves and they make a way for us. They follow us and I feel really weird.

"We don't have to do anything if you aren't ready." He pauses. "I mean I didn't think we would be in a hotel talking about your virginity, so this is already much further than we all hoped."

He sits on the bed then scoots. My knees are on either side of him and my short skirt rides up as I straddle him. He surveys my body, and the others sit on either side of us. I hear a chair being pulled and I see Leo. He sits on the edge of the bed, behind me. And I am trapped between them yet again.

"There's nothing weird about being a virgin, Zar." Bas reassures me from my right.

"Yes, its... admirable." Jose smiles. Trying to hold a chuckle.

"Then why are you making this a big deal?"

I get pulled from Mason's hands and I land on Leo. I adjust my feet, so they are on either side of Mason.

"Were you saving yourself?" he asks in my ear

"No. I've just...I don't know it just never happened."

"How many boyfriends have you had?" I hear a note of something beneath his question

"I haven't really done much, uh, in the dating department. I was homeschooled then high school drama, then it was just not possible. The kids hated my guts."

"We are here now, baby. You were always only ours." Jose says

I nod.

"Okay, enough sentimental shit. Zara, would you like to cum on my face?" Mason says looking straight at me

My lips part.

"Come. You will be in control, and you can test what you like."

"I don't know."

Leo's hands start moving, and he kisses my neck. I want to scream 'yes' right then. That feels so good.

"Let us take care of you." He says as one of his hands find my panties and he moves my panties to the side. I close my eyes when he starts teasing me. I smile as I throw my head back on his shoulder. He circles my clit, and each stroke sending jolts of delicious sensations all over my body and I want to curl my toes.

"Fuck." I moan

"You look so beautiful, baby." I hear voices coming from the bed.

A second pair of hands touches me, and they get under my top. They ride my top up and Leo inserts a finger in me. It's so good I start moving my hips to meet the movements. My body acting on its own.

"Fuck, just like that." I hear Mason's voice and I know its him who just sucked my nipple in his mouth. I start getting hotter and I am nothing but desire and need.

"Don't stop, it feels so good."

I feel a second mouth on my other nipple and my eyes rolls back. Pleasure fills my body more and more. If someone were to stop, I'd probably cry. Bas and Mason suck my nipples harder.

"That's it, cum for us, baby."

I open my eyes to find Jose looking down at me from behind the couch.

"Oh," I say before I tip over and my body stills then I detonate, feeling like my soul is leaving my body. My eyes don't move from Jose, and it feels like we just both experienced that.

I try to focus on him as an anchor, as I come back down to earth. Kisses have moved to my stomach and my thighs, and my legs have spread.

"I have to taste you."