🚨Trigger Warning🚨

Who told y'all that B was the best option LOL!

I sat beside Naala, still in shock that Sinai was even awake. Naala has been talking her head off for the last hour but Sinai looked spaced out – like she wasn't even in the room.

"Lala, give her a second?" I said softly walking over to them. I know she was excited but Sinai looked overwhelmed by it all.

I couldn't look Sinai in the eye, it hurt to see her like this, a shadow of her former self. She was too young to experience what she did.

Naala nodded and sat back, "Your brother missed you so much, didn't you bubba?" Naala said calling him the nickname Sinai gave him when he was first born. She said he was her 'baby bubba'. Saint blew a bubble at Naala, dumb ass kid bro.

"You thirsty or anything baby?" I asked Sinai. She shook her head, she wasn't speaking much, she had only muttered a few words since she woke up. The doctors advised us that this was normal for someone that has been comatose for as long as she has.

I fixed her pillow for her and kissed her forehead, causing her to shudder. I stood up straight and Naala gave me a sympathetic look,

"She's still shaken up, that's all," She said quietly, to avoid Sinai hearing.

A knock sounded through the room, I turned to the door and 3 fully dressed cops stood by it. I clenched my jaw because I specifically told them to hold off until she's well enough to speak, she's barely spoken to us and we're her parents.

"Does this have to happen now?" I asked them.

The bald ass one nodded his head, "It's better to get a statement early, it improves accuracy in the statements,"

I sucked my teeth, "She's five years old, you don't need to be hassling her straight away,"

"Sir, this is an extremely brutal case that needs to be dealt with immediately. It is now also a matter for child protective services, we are only doing our job," The woman explained.

"Man –"

"Baby," Naala said softly putting her hand on my wrist. I saw the look on her face and I calmed down, I could see how upset she was already, I didn't need to add to it.

"You can talk to her for 5 minutes," I grunted sitting back in my seat. Naala rubbed my arm and sat on my lap with Saint on her shoulder. I squeezed her sides and kissed her cheek.

"Nai, I want you to tell them what happened," Naala started, "So that we can find the bad person that did this to you,"

"I –uh," She stuttered her voice coarse. Naala sat forward and held her hand,

"We're right here, we aren't going anywhere" She whispered to her.

I watched Sinai intensely, seeing her fidget and stumble over her words.

"Let's start at the beginning, can you do that for me?" The female cop started, I cut my eyes towards the cop, I didn't like how she was pressuring her.

"I – we – I was waiting for my Tete to get bubba out of the car and then I saw M-mr Darnell," Just the sound of his name made me angry.

"Who is Mr Darnell?" The man said, writing in that stupid ass notebook they carry around.

"He was my mommy's boyfriend, we used to live with him," I looked at Naala who avoided my glance.

"Okay, and what did he do?" The woman asked nicely,

"He – he told me to follow him, he said that my mommy sent him to pick me up and take me to get some ice cream,"

"Is this true?" The female officer asked Naala. I could feel the officer staring at the side of my face, so I turned to her and mugged the fuck out of her.

"No I didn't send him, I haven't seen him in months, he was found d-e-a-d a few month's ago" Naala replied, rubbing Sinai's hand.

The woman nodded and wrote something down, "Then what happened?"

"I went with him and – and he gave me ice cream but it tasted funny and – and he took me to this big place," She stuttered.

"What happened after this?" The man asked. Sinai's eyes flickered between me and Naala, tears started to well in her eyes.

"It's okay Nai, tell us what happened," I spoke up. She looked over at me and let tears fall.

"You'll get mad daddy," She said lowly shaking her head.

"He won't get mad baby, it's okay. What happened?" Naala spoke up,

She started to shake her head, "I don't want to tell," She cried. "Mommy don't make me tell," She weeped. She was clearly in distress.

"You don't have to say anything else baby," Naala said tearing up aswell. She handed me Saint and got in the bed, wrapping her arms around Sinai.

"I promise I didn't want to do it, I swear," She cried.

"That's enough," I said to the officers standing up, "She's not saying no more," I added. My hands were shaking with anger. I wanted to grab Darnell by his throat and kill him with my bare hands.

"Mommy's here baby, you're okay," Naala cried, rocking Sinai back and forth. I watched Sinai shake in her arms, terrified to continue.

The officers shared a look with one and other and then the bald one said, "We will be back when she's settled,"

"Just get out," I spat. I put Saint in his stroller and went over to Sinai's bed.

"Nai you're safe now, Daddy's not gonna let anyone hurt you again," I said to her. Hearing her cries and seeing how shaken up she was, was fucking with me majorly.

Naala looked at me with an exhausted expression, "I need a moment," She said getting out of the bed. Before I could even say anything, she flew into the conjoining bathroom, slamming the door behind her. I sighed when I heard her sobbing in the bathroom, both my girls were hurting and this whole thing is too fucked up.

I took Naala's space on the bed, as I slid in the bed Sinai flinched. "I'm not gonna hurt you Nai,"

She sniffed and moved closer to me, "Do you want to tell me what happened?"

Sinai looked up at me, tears still clouding her eyes. "You're going to be mad at me,"

"I could never be mad at you baby, I want to help you so please tell me," I said softly rubbing her arm.

"At first he kept telling me how pretty I am, he was p-playing with my l-lips and kissing them," She said quietly still in tears. "I said no because boys have cooties, only you and Bubba can kiss me,"

I nodded, "What did he say after that?"

"Erm, he got angry at me, and punched me h-here," She said pointing to her stomach.

"When I started crying, he tou-touched me where mommy s-said no-one should touch," I froze at those words,

"I told him to stop b-but h-he said my mommy was a fighter aswell, i-I don't know what that means,"

I clenched my jaw, "Don't worry about that, what else happened?"

"I don't know," She said starting to cry, "I-it hurt so bad daddy, I told him to s-stop, but he wouldn't listen,"

I pulled her into me and let her cry on my chest, "Daddy's gotchu, no one is gonna hurt you again. Daddy broke his promise, I wasn't there when you needed me," I stopped when I felt my eyes getting watery, "But I'm here now and I'm never leaving you again,"

"You promise?" She asked with tears streaming down her face,

"As long as I'm breathing, I'ma be right by your side,"

My phone vibrated continuously in my pocket but I ignored it, now wasn't the time. I've been so focused on finding Darnell that I've been abandoning the people that matter most; my family. I don't want to be that deadbeat father I had, so I need step up, they need me more now than anything.

I heard gagging coming from the bathroom followed by low groans, "You okay in there Love?" I called out. She stopped retching for a moment,

"Mmm," She replied. As much as I wanted more children, I couldn't agree with her more that now wasn't the time for another kid, so I hope it's stress that's making her sick.

I cuddled Sinai until I heard light snores, indicating that she had fallen asleep. Naala flushed the toilet and came back out, she had brushed out her hair and was wiping tears off her face.

"They both sleep?" She asked me closing the door lightly. I nodded slowly getting up and letting Sinai lay down properly,

Saint started to fidget in his chair and then moments later started to scream. I could see the tiredness in her eyes as she leaned to pick him up.

"Naala I think you need to go home and rest mama, you've been here for 3 days straight,"

She shook her head straight away, "I'm not leaving her again," She said rocking him.

"Naala, I'ma stay right here with her, you need rest. Look, you can barely keep your eyes open," I pointed out, she looked beyond exhausted.

"I don't know," She mumbled hesitantly, "It doesn't feel right to go home without her,"

As she said that Saint started to cry again, "He needs to be at home," I said back to her,

Naala sighed and rocked him gently, "I will be back first thing tomorrow," She pointed at me,

"That's all I ask," I said pecking her lips, "You were getting a bit musty," I chuckled.

She stale faced me then budged my shoulder, "That's why I let you kiss me after I just vomited."

"I don't care," I shrugged,

"That's nasty as hell," She mumbled packing up Saint's diaper bag with one hand, still trying to balance Saint in the other.

"We've done nastier things," I smirked at her. I walked up behind her and squeezed her butt,

When I leaned down to kiss her neck, Saint squealed loudly, making me stand up straight. Having a son is the biggest cockblock I've ever experienced.

"Boy," I mugged him,

"What's the matter Papa?" Naala cooed at him, I scrunched up my face.

"I thought I'm papa?" Saint looked at me and I bucked at him. How can he come from my balls but like his mama more?

Naala ignored me and continued talking to Saint, I'ma have me another girl then.

"You still feeling sick?" I asked her. She huffed and nodded,

"I can't keep anything down," She replied, "And before you say anything, no I'm not pregnant,"

I held my hands up in defence, "I didn't say anything,"

Sinai turned over in the bed, wincing. Naala looked over at her and a look of sadness washed over her eyes,

"She's gon' be good Love,"

"I feel physically sick when I think about what he did to our baby," She said fixing Saint in his stroller.

"He's gon' get his, believe that," I mumbled,

"Did she tell you about anything else that happened?" She asked me.

"Nah," I lied. Naala wouldn't be able to handle what Sinai told me so I chose to keep it to myself.

"I wish she would tell us," She muttered. "Have you found him yet?" She asked me. The look on her face reminded me why I need to find him, he's hurt her enough times now.

"Kodi thinks she's close," I said truthfully.

"I want to see him when you do," She spoke. I shook my head straight away,

"Nah, you don't need to be involved in this at all,"

"She's my daughter too, I'm already part of it," She responded crossing her arms over her chest.

"I said no," I said. She thought by furrowing her eyebrows and making herself look like she was mad, would change my mind.

"Mmm, we'll see about that," She said rolling her eyes. "I'm gonna go now, make sure she eats and keep her talking Amir," She slung Saint's diaper bag over her shoulder and pushed the stroller to the door. I followed behind her,

She leaned in and hugged me, and wrapped my arms around her waist. She put her head on my chest and I felt her body relax, "I don't want to go," She mumbled,

"Naala I'm not asking,"

"Can I have a kiss?" She asked puckering her lips,

"No vomit breath," I laughed.

She pulled away and pouted, "Remember that,"

"Don't worry I will," I chuckled wiping a stray eyelash off her cheek,

"Is Bully gonna drive us home?" She asked me,

"Bully's busy, Mateo is gonna take you,"

Naala frowned, "I don't like him, he gives me stalker vibes,"

"He said anything to you before?" I asked getting ready to open the door,

"No," She rolled her eyes playfully pulling me back, "He just seems weird,"

"I'ma keep an eye on him," I said looking out of the window at Mateo who was guarding the door.

I pulled open the door for them and Mateo stood up straight, "Take them home please," I said to him.

"Text me y'all get there," I said lowly to Naala. I leaned down and pecked her lips, "I love you vomit breath,"

Naala sucked her teeth, "You play too damn much,"

"But you love me,"

"Mmm I love your stupid ass," She smiled, before Mateo led them out of the hospital. I went back into the room and took a seat by Sinai, who was still sleeping peacefully.

My phone rang, drawing my attention away from her. Now what does this woman want?

"Yes mama," I sighed as I answered.

"Why you sounding like you don't want to speak to me," She shouted down the phone. I pulled the phone away from my ear for a second because she was too loud.

"Because I don't," I replied, "You always have something slick to say,"

"That little girl's been filling your head up huh?" She laughed sarcastically,

"What are you even talking ma? Did you call for something or not?"

"How's my grandbaby?" She asked me,

"She's good, she's asleep," I mumbled. I wasn't fooling with my mama at the moment because all she ever does is cause problems for me and Naala.

"Mmm, and my grandson?"

"He went home with his mama," I said, not understanding why she called to ask me all this when she could have texted me.

"Tuh," She scoffed, "She can't even stay at a hospital with her sick daughter, the children of this generation"

"Mama she's been here for 3 days, Saint is 4 months old, he can't be at the hospital all the time,"

"So? Her fast ass shouldn't have had kids back to back," First of all that don't even make no sense because Sinai is 5 but anyway.

"What?" I said scrunching up my face, "I ain't even about to entertain you, did you need something?"

"I'm bothering you?" She asked, "I'm telling the truth. Naala has no business having kids, she doesn't even know how to look after herself,"

"Where is this coming from? You've been letting Tonya get in your head,"

"Tonya was right about her, I don't know how you are still messing with her after she cheated on you. "

"Bye mama," I said blankly hanging up. I regret getting my mom involved in the shit me and Naala were going through, because now she has too much of an opinion on something that has nothing to do with her.

"Daddy?" Sinai spoke tiredly, shifting in the bed,

"I'm right here Nai," I mumbled sitting back properly in my seat.

My mama messed up my whole mood man what the fuck?

"Papa, I just fed you and you have a fresh diaper, why are you still crying?" I said rocking a screaming Saint in his room. We've been home for 2 hours and all he's done since we got back is cry,

"You wanna speak to dada?" I said frustrated. His tears quietened down and he stared blankly at me, "Dada?" I asked again. "Okay let's call Dada," I mumbled to myself pulling my phone out. I took a seat in the rocking chair and clicked on Facetime.

"Baby, didn't I say to text me?" Amir said as soon as the phone connected. I put Saint into the camera and he sucked his teeth,

"Why's his little ass crying?" He asked mugging the camera, as soon as Saint heard his voice, he stopped crying and put his hand in his mouth.

"I could have sworn this boy didn't like you," I said in shock that Saint calmed down.

"I still don't like him," Amir replied, "Y'all good?"

I shook my head, "He won't sleep," I groaned, "I just want 5 minutes to think," Being a full time mom was HARD. It wasn't this hard with Sinai because she was a chill baby, Saint started off chill but now he's a monster.

"Look he's drifting off, put him in his crib. He don't need to be sleeping on your chest no more," Amir pointed out, Saint's eyes were droopy and his hand was hanging from his mouth. Of course as soon as we got on the phone with his dad, he stopped crying.

As I tired to move him off my chest, he started fussing and grabbing on my top. "Yeah, this is definitely your son," I sucked my teeth, laying him back on my chest. "Obsessed with me," I said rubbing his head.

"I know you ain't talking to me," Amir responded, "You see the way he looks at me, he ain't my son,"

I straight faced him, "Don't play me, I will cut you." I said to him seriously, "How's Nai?"

He flipped the camera and Sinai was still asleep. I pouted, "My baby's knocked out,"

Amir flipped the camera back to him and nodded, "Yeah, she's been sleep since you left,"

I got comfortable in the seat, "She must be really tired,"

"You're really tired," He responded, "Go to bed Lala,"

I shook my head, "I wanna talk to you, I miss you,"

Amir smiled, "Miss me already?"

I nodded with a frown, "You're my sugar plum, my pumpy-umpy-umpkin,"

"I'm deleting Tik Tok off your phone," He said with an annoyed look,

"Sorry daddy," I laughed, my eyes growing heavy.

"Naala for real, I'm gonna hang up, go to sleep," He said sternly,

"I wish you could fuck me to sleep," I whispered covering Saint's ears. Since Sinai's accident, our minds were on other things.

"You do?" He asked biting his lip,

"Yes, I miss you," I said crossing my legs. The way he was biting his lip was making me uneasy.

"I got you tomorrow," He said into the phone, "The bathroom in here is bigger than the one at Nobu,"

"Why did you have to bring that up," I giggled, "It was the hormones,"

"Hormones my ass, you were like 3 hours pregnant then,"

"So you didn't want it?" I asked tilting my head to the side,

"No, you took advantage of me," He faked sniffed,

"Bye Amir, because I don't have time for the dramatics," I laughed,

"You think I'm joking. You basically flung me against the wall and took it,"

"It's mine, so why not?" I shrugged. Saint moved on my chest, putting his hand in my top.

Amor noticed and mugged the camera, "He's always trynna prove something to me, boy I've been sucking those titties before you were even thought of," He shouted into the phone making Saint jump.

"Oh my God," I whined as Saint started to cry again, "I hate you, bye," I said hanging up.

I rocked him back and forth until he quiented down. When was finished screaming, I got up and took him to our room. I placed him in his crib and then went into the bathroom, to have a shower.

I put the shower on the highest and jumped in, allowing the hot water to sooth my achy body. Sleeping on that hospital chair did not do me any favours. As I was showering, a heard the faint sound of knocking. I huffed and stopped the water, "That was short lived," I muttered to myself.

I got out of the shower and opened the bathroom door, the knocking was coming from the front door. They were not about to wake Saint up after how long it took to get him to bed. I hurrily dried off and threw on my robe, securing it tightly around my naked body.

I looked through the peephole and my throat went dry. I stepped away from the door, "I took my meds today right?" I mumbled to myself. I'm sure I did, Amir forced me to.