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"Ma, Ley ..... Me and Tin ..... we are ... dating ....." Can said softly barely audible, with his head down.

Tin immediately looked at Can, not believing that it was Can who opened the conversation about their relationship.

Mama and Ley shouted in unison ...

"I'm sorry, ma. Please forgive Can ......"

Can immediately knelt down as he raised his hands up, not daring to look at the two most important women in his life.

Tin, who didn't know what to do, knelt down beside Can. He, who initially bravely wanted to talk to Can's mom, immediately chicken out when he saw Can's mom pale face after Can's confession.

"Can ... you ... since when ... why ... are you gay ??" mama Can stammered.

Can shook his head hard, trying to look into his mother's eyes, but immediately looked down when he saw a disappointment in his mother's eyes.

"Then? Explain to Mom, Can ....." she said softly.

Can's courage disappears instantly. He could only bow while holding back tears that he could not contain. Ley who was surprised could only hold her mother's shoulders tightly. She is a fujoshi, but it feels different if her own family becomes gay, plus her brother become a boyfriend of someone who becomes the object of her fantasy with others.

Just as Tin was about to grab Can's trembling hands, the sound of Can's mom stopped him.

"Tin, you should go home now. I want to talk to my son," she said sharply.

"I'm sorry, auntie, I can't. I promised to look after Can and I won't let him face this alone. Please forgive me, auntie," said Tin.

"Can, explain so that I can understand, hmm ..." Mama said softly with a little muffled sobs, which made Can feel even more guilty.

"Can ... Can ... didn't know when Can started falling in love with Tin, ma. Can only realize that Tin's presence is important when he starts to move away from Can. Can has been trying to get rid of this feeling because Can does not want to disappoint mom, but Can can't do that, ma. Really ma, Can have tried, many times, until Can had to hurt Tin to get away from him. Really ma, believe in Can....." said Can as he sobbed.

Can never once cried in front of his mother, no matter how heavy his life problems. Even when his father died, he seemed to be the strongest and tried to strengthen his mother and Ley. He once cried because he lost a match, but he will forget it after he is full with foods and return to being the usual Can. But this time it's different and mama knows for sure the reason.

"Then? Why do you say that now? Do you just want to tell me and continue your relationship or ask for my blessing?"

"Can want to ask for permission from mama because Can does not want to keep hiding our relationship from mama," he said softly.

"What if I don't approve and ask you to break up right now?" Mama asked firmly.

Can and Tin are surprised, reflexively looked at each other and immediately turned to mama who was still staring at them sharply.

"If ... that .... that is ... mama ... want .... then .... Can .... will .... break up ... with ... Tin ... "said Can quietly, looking down, not daring to look at his mother or Tin eyes.

Finally, what Tin most feared happened. Tin immediately sat weakly. He dares to fight if the person in front of him is his parent. But the woman in front of him is Can's mother and Tin knows how important she is to Can. All the words of defense that had been arranged in his head for a long time, just evaporated. Hurting Can's mom is the same as hurting Can. And Tin will never do it, whatever the reason.

"Tin, how about you?" asked Mama suddenly turning the subject to Tin.

"Do you want my honest answers or answers that will satisfy you, aunty?" Tin asked firmly.

"Honest answer," answered Mama no less firmly.

Now or there won't be another chance, Tin thought.

"I don't want to break up with Can, auntie. But whatever Can's decision, I will follow, because I only want Can's happiness. Because aunt's disappointment will be Can's sadness."

Can, who was still looking down and sobbing, clenched his fists tightly. He knew, his decision would definitely hurt Tin, but he had no other choice. Mama has always been a priority in Can's life.

"Tin, you're very handsome, smart and rich. You can choose any girl or man who is better than Can. Then why does it have to be my child? Why does it have to be Can?"

"Just like Can, I have also tried to ward off this feeling. Just look at him, there is nothing interesting about him. Short, chatty, stupid and greedy. But I didn't choose to love him, auntie. Love is what chose him for me. We know the consequences of our love, but we don't have the strength to fight our feelings. Can teached me many things that I have forgotten like love, affection, caring and trust that I've lost it all since I was little. And Can, he brings all that with him and gives it to me. I have forgotten my hatred of the world since Can's come into my life. I began to feel that this world had not only been black and white because of Can. I just felt that the heart can feel warm because of Can. Can changed all the bad things in my life, auntie. He makes me breathe. He makes me alive, truly alive."

"What about your family? Do they know about your relationship?"

"I don't know and don't care, auntie."

"How can you not care about them? They are your parents, Tin."

"Personal matters, aunty," answered Tin briefly.

"So if I ask you to break up, will you do it?"

Can sobbing more. His small shoulder trembled violently. He did not know what to do. He did not want to disappoint his mother but also did not want to hurt Tin.

"Ma, why did you make P'Can like this?" asked Ley, who finally ran and hugged her brother. Can, who had been bowing, finally cried in Ley's arms.

"Ley, you're still young, don't interfere."

"I am still young but I am not blind, ma. P'Can dares to be honest with mama because he really respects mama and certainly because he is sure of his feelings for P'Tin. We all know how P'Can is. He will take any risks for the happiness of the people closest to him. But now he is at a crossroads. Make mom happy means he should be hurting P'Tin and vice versa. If you love him, why ask him to choose to hurt the person he loves?"

"Ley ....."

Only that word that came out of Can's lips as he tightened his arms. Ley is indeed his younger sister, but she is far more reliable than Can. Tin just looked sadly at the two sibling who were mutually reinforcing in front of him. He did not dare to do rash actions that would make Can's mom more angry.

"But Ley, your brother is dating a man. What about his future? Will he be able to face the cynical views of the people around him later? You know how your brother's nature is!!"

"That's why he needs us, ma. When everyone outside looks cynically at him, our job is to give love to him here, beside him. Although he looks unreliable, Ley can't imagine if Ley has to be alone when mama works outside the city. P'Can's presence could always give us peace. Every times mom comes back home, who is the first person you look for? Surely it was P'Can, not Ley. Ley begs you, mom, don't ask this fool to choose, he won't be able to do it, ma. He has been trying to be happy since he was little, since daddy's been gone and since mom was busy making a living for us. Now he has found his own happiness. Let him have mom and P'Tin. Let him to be happy, ma. "

"What about you? Are you not ashamed to have a gay brother?"

"Ashamed? With P'Tin as my brother boyfriend? If I could choose what I should do, I would like post news throughout the school wall magazine and broadcast it on the school radio, ma."

"Auntie, I promise, I will make Can happy. I am a rich kid, but believe me, I am not a rich kid who can only rely on the wealth of his parents. I have stood on my own two feet. I will give all the love that I have for Can. So I beg of you, bless us, auntie."

"You don't even care about your parents, why do you care about my blessing?"

"Because I know how important aunt's blessing is to Can. Aunt is Can's first priority and Can is my first priority. So whatever makes Can happy, I will follow his decision unconditionally."

"Can, look at mama and say what you want to say, boy."

Ley rubbed her brother's back and then held his hand tightly as if to give strength. After wiping the tears from his cheeks and controlling his breathing, he ventured to look at the woman he really loved.

"Ma ... Can beg, please bless us. Can will study more diligently, practice soccer better so as not to disappoint mama. Can will face people who look cynically at Can before they meet Mama. Can will be responsible for Can's choice. Please give us your blessing, ma."

Although Can tried to speak straightforwardly, but his voice was trembling. He was truly afraid of losing one of the two people he loved so much. Tears that had stopped, flowing again. But this time, his eyes looked straight into his mother's eyes. His hands were holding Ley's hand tighter.

Mama looked into the eyes of her only son fixedly. She saw fear as well as confidence there. Fear of rejection and confidence in his choices. Can never been so sure in choosing before this.

Slowly, without taking her eyes off, Mama walked over to Can, who was still kneeling and then sitting in front of Can.

"Can, do you really love Tin?" Mom asked, rubbing the tears on Can's chubby cheek.

"Yes ma. Can really love Tin," he nodded.

"Tin, could you promise me to look after Can and give him happiness?" Mama asked, turning to Tin.

"Auntie could kill me if I hurt Can," Tin answered firmly.

"Mama loves Can. Mama just wants the best for Can. Sorry if mama words earlier hurt Can."

Can shook his head hard while holding his mom hands who was still rubbing his cheek.

"Mama approves Can and Tin, but on one condition."

Can looked into his mother's eyes as if asking what conditions his mother would propose.

"Can should be happy. Geniunly happy. Promise?"

"Can promise, ma," Can said, crying in his mother arms.

Slowly, mama pulled Ley and hugged her too. Ley is right, Can has the right to be happy with his choice.

"Tin, come here," called Mama Can, holding out her hand.

"Please make my son happy," pleaded Can's mom, pulling Tin in her arms, which countered with a steady nod of Tin.