: Once again I want to remind you, I wrote this book which consists of 2 couplings, , so if the is not your bias, .... skip the chapter or no need to read my book as well. And , don't write comments like "Oh, its xx couple, even though I want you to update yy couple. Its disappoint me" or something like that. I'm also human and can be hurt. So, please, please understand me. Thank you ....

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Techno grabbed a letter from Kengkla and looked at it sharply. Part of him was curious, wanted to open it, but the other part of him didn't want to. He was afraid that his heart would waver after reading the letter. Without needing to be reminded, Techno was aware of the strength of his heart. He is easily touched, especially if that person is close to him. So the only way to strengthen his heart is to avoid them.

"Letter from whom, Ai No? Nowadays there are still those who send letters?" asked Champ, who suddenly appeared behind him.

"From Kengkla," he answered simply.

"Kengkla? He gave it directly to you? "

"No. He sent it to my office via courier. "

"Why doesn't he give it directly?"

"That night, I asked him to promise not to appear again in front of me and he said, he would prove the sincerity of his love without showing himself."

"Ah, so he tried to keep his promise?"

"It seems so."

"Ai No, be honest with me. How do you feel now? Forget that I want to kill the boy," he joked.

"I don't know, Ai Champ, I don't understand my heart either. Honestly, I miss him. Many first experiences I did or felt with him. He was my first boyfriend, he was the first person to consider me as the center of his world, he was the first person to kiss and make love to me, he was also the first person to make me feel truly in love ... But, he was also the first person to destroy me."

Champ listens carefully. Champ knows, Techno is not someone who likes to share his feelings, he prefers to bury everything himself. And now he wants to share, that means he is not able to hold it himself.

"My heart feels numb. Every time I miss him, another part of me seems to build a wall around my heart. As if forbidding me to miss him. And it always works. Can you imagine my feelings, Champ? I don't know how to explain it. "

"Like when you really want to eat ramen, but the coach forbids and instead gives you tomyam?"

"Yes, more or less like that. So, like something is up here (A/N : heart). I can't get it out, but also, I'm not strong enough to hold it continuously. It feels ... suffocating ... "

"Maybe it's time for you to give up, Ai No."

"Give up? Didn't you say ...... "

"Yes, I will indeed hit you if you give up easily. And I would still do it if we hadn't roomed like this. I see you every day, I see your changes, no matter how small it was, no matter how hard you hide them behind your stupid smile. I love you, Ai No. I don't want you to be someone who is not you, just to please others. What Kengkla was doing was clearly wrong, but I understand the reason, because sometimes, love is blind. Maybe there is no one who gives him a better advice to chase you, so he is determined to do it in his own way, without knowing what is right or what is wrong. He doesn't care whatsoever, as long as he get you, Ai No."

"But Ai Type ..."

"Forget about Ai Type, forget about me. Now focus on your heart. If you don't want to give him a chance, burn the letter and forget Kengkla. But if you are still in doubt, read the letter and decide later. And if after reading the letter, you decide to give him a chance, see what he will do in the next few days. Will he continue to send letters, go after you in other ways or just back off. "

"I don't know, Ai Champ ..."

"Or, you save the letter first. Read it when you are ready. Remember, you were never alone, I will always be here, anytime you need me."

"Thank you, Champ ..."

"You're welcome, dude."

Techno decided to save the letter first before stabilizing his heart. He did not want to fall twice in the same hole. He also wanted to see how far Kengkla would try to win his heart again.

* Knock ... knock ... knock ... *

"Kengkla, let's have dinner. Your father is home, son."

"I'm not hungry, Ma," Kengkla answered from the room.

"Can I come in, son?"

"Come in Ma, the door is unlocked."

Kengkla lay with a blanket covering his entire body, only his head was left untouched by the blanket.

"You're not feeling well, boy? Why are you covered in blanket? "

"Kla is fine, ma."

"Mama wants to talk, son. Actually mom wanted to talk you since yesterday, but it seems the time is not right yet, "said mom while sitting on the edge of Kengkla's bed.

"What do you want to talk about, Ma?" Kengkla asked as he sat, facing his mother.

"What happened to you? What is the problem? Maybe I can help you, son? "

"There's no problem, mom," Kengkla said lying.

"You think, Mama doesn't recognize the change from her only son? During this time, I was silent because I thought you would solve it by yourself, but see what happened? You looked more pathetic by days. So say, who is the one who dares to hurt Mom's favorite son?"

"Really ma, there is no problem."

"Your mother has asked nicely because she's worried about you. But if you still don't want to be honest, I can tell my people to find out. And you know, Daddy will definitely find it," suddenly Kengkla father appeared from behind the door.

"Honey, listen to mama. Mama and Papa do this because we love you. Your happiness is the most important for us. We once snatched that happiness from you, and we promised to not to let it happen for the second time. So, we will do anything for your happiness. But how can we help if you don't want to share it with us? "

"I'm afraid ma, pa ..."

"Afraid???"

"Hmm ..."

Kengkla's father is now sitting in front of his wife and son. He is ready to listen to whatever comes out of the mouth of his only son.

"Kla ... has ... a faen ..." said Kengkla, stammering.

"Okay, then where is the problem?" Mom asked.

"That faen ... is older ... than ... Kla ..."

"Your father is also 5 years older than mama."

"He ... is.... a.... man ..." Kengkla said, looking down, not daring to look at his parents.

"Okay ... then ... where is the problem?" Papa asked.

Kengkla immediately looked up, looked at his father who was staring at him calmly and mama who smiled sweetly.

"You ... aren't ... angry?"

"He makes you happy?" Mom asked.

"Very much," Kengkla answered shortly.

"Then why should we be angry?" Papa asked.

"Because Kengkla likes a man. Kla is gay. And because Kengkla will damage your good name. "

"Good name? To hell with that. As your mother said, your happiness is the most important to us. They can say anything about our family, we won't care. "

"Really, Pa? Ma??" asked Kengkla, starting to cry.

"Baby, let me say it again, we, your parents, will put your happiness above all else. If that man can make you happy, then we will accept him with open arms. And don't you think that we're clueless about your relationship. We have known for a long time. We are just waiting for you to talk. "

"You know? How? Papa told people to spy on Kla? "

"Tch, stupid kid. Without having to spy on you, everyone who sees you can know that you are in love. You don't even notice Mama's presence while you having lunch with that college boy."

"What?? When did you see us?"

"About 2 months ago. You look so happy, as if there's only that guy in your eyes. Though mama sits not far from you, Kla. "

"Why don't you rebuke me?"

"Abd makes you feel awkward? Mama isn't that ignorant, Kla. "

"Back to the topic, what happened to you, guys? As your mother said, everyone can see that you are in love. But since these 2 weeks, you've been like a broken hearted person. He broke up with you?" ssked papa.

Kengkla nodded weakly in response.

"Because......???" Mom asked.

Kengkla took a deep breath, then told all the stories, from the beginning when he liked P'No, the incident when P'No was drunk that night, until that night when Kengkla's lies were exposed. Papa looked angry at his favorite son. Mama looked at Kengkla with disappointment.

"How can you be so stupid, Kla !!!!" shout Papa.

"Pa ..."

"If what you say about him is true, that means he is a very good person. You should have confessed from the start. Letting him know after all this time in such a way is a hell way to destroy him. If papa becomes him, papa will never forgive you !!!! "

"Pa ..." Kengkla started crying again.

"Ma ..." Kengkla turned to his mother, his mother just shook her head in disappointment.

"Mama thinks you're better than this, Kla. How can you hurt the most precious person to you in that way?"

"I'm sorry, ma, pa. Kla regrets it so much. But Kla really loves P'No. Very much. Kla is almost crazy because of this problem," Kengkla muffled his tears with a pillow.

"Then, what have you done to apologize to him?"

"That night, Kla waited for P'No and apologized, but P'No said, he would forgive Kla as long as Kla didn't appear in front of him."

"Then?" Papa asked.

"For a week, Kla really did not meet him. But in the second week, Kla couldn't handle it anymore, so before Kla went to school, Kla always went to his office. Kla waited across his office, just to catch a glimpse of P'No. Kla thought, that way, Kla's longing would be a little relieved, but apparently Kla was wrong. Kla just missed him even more. Finally, this morning, Kla sent a letter to P'No. The point of the letter, Kla apologizes for all Kla's lies, and Kla will tell all of Kla's lies one by one in the next letter. Kla concludes the letter with words, on top of all the lies that Kla has done, Kla's love for P'No is pure honesty."

"Then what did he do with the letter?"

"He didn't read it, ma."

"Not yet," Papa answered.

"...................."

"From your story, I can conclude this man's nature. He will read your letter. He will feel your sincerity. Sooner or later, he will forgive you, son."

"Really pa? That means, we can be together again??"

"Ah, that's another story, son. Forgiveness does not necessarily mean receiving you back. It's a matter of heart and confiscated trust. Your only task is to keep on trying sincerely, so that he sees your sincerity for him. "

"If he accepts you back, take good care of him. Don't ever hurt him, more over lying to him. He doesn't deserve to be hurt, Kla," Mama's added.

" Kla promised, there are no more lies, at all. I don't want to lose P'No anymore. Once is more than enough, ma, pa."

"Raise your head, raise your chest and strengthen your heart. Begin to fight. He deserves to be fought for, son. "

"Yes, pa!!!"

"Finally, mama's son can smile," Mama said while stroking Kla's hair.

"Thank you, ma, pa. Thank you for accepting me like this, "said Kengkla while hugging his mother.

"Eh, you don't hug papa?" Papa complained.

Kengkla pulled his father's hand and hugged him tightly. Now, he has his parents who support him. There's nothing else to be afraid of. Kengkla will get P'No back. Certainly!!!!

Published 25.09.2019 ; 1.45pm