First of all, English isnt my 1st language. So please bear with me. If i did wrong in writings​, just point it out here, so i can learn & fix it.

Thank you for , & simigirl (idk why i cant mention your acc), who helped me proofreading this chapter. Gosh.... Too many mistakes.... Am really shame & shy now

Lets start !!!!!

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"Be my boyfriend, Can ...". - Tin

"For me, you are like oxygen." - Tin

"I'm not oxygen. If I breathe, I am exhaling out carbon dioxide too. " - Can

"I only know that I like you ...". - Tin

"I don't like this ... feeling ..." - Can

"What do you mean??". - Tin

"Feelings ... when Ai Lay says that you and Ai Pete are dating. And if I become your boyfriend, I will keep thinking about what Ai Lay said. Chances are I won't be able to enjoy my meal, unable to sleep at night, and will likely continue to think about where you are, with who ... ". - Can

"Can't we just be friends?" - Can

"I don't want to be your friend ...". - Tin

"But I want to be your friend, Tin". - Can

"I don't want to be just your friend ..." Tin answered and immediately left Can, who was still standing beside his place.

"Tin........". - Can

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Can can only look at Tin's car which slowly moves away and disappears from his sight. Tin's last words kept ringing in his head. Why doesn't Tin want to be friends with him? Is my decision wrong? But, isn't this what I wanted? Tin being away and stop messing up my life? But why does this heart hurt? Why do I feel that I will really lose friends like Tin?

*Friends? Is that really what you want, Can ??*

Friends don't kis each other. Friends don't have contact for 24/7, no matter where or when. Friends don't always start the day by saying 'Good morning' and ends it with 'Goodnight'. Friends don't get upset when they hear that their friends is dating someone else. No friends do all these things, Can !!!!

Can, who has always avoided using his brain to think, immediately had a headache. Seeing Tin's car slowly disappear from his sight, made him feel lost. Add to that the odd thoughts.

Can, who had felt hungry, immediately lost his appetite. He just wanted to go back home and sleep, forget about the incident just now. Maybe tomorrow Tin will bother him as usual, he thought.

At night, Can still carries out his 'routine activities' with Tin. Sending him 'Good night, have a nice dream, Tin' while smiling. Usually, shortly after Can sent the message, Tin would immediately reply, sometimes even immediately calling. He said, he just wanted to hear Can's voice before he fell asleep. But now, 30 minutes have passed and there are no notifications from Tin. Can continue to wait, thingking that maybe Tin is busy or his phone is being charged. But after waiting until 1am, there was still no news from Tin. Can began to worry and tried to call Tin. He had heard a dial tone several times before it finally disconnected. Can tried to call once more and this time, it did not connect because Tin's phone has been turned off.

But Can is still Can, who is too lazy to use his brain to think of complicated things and his heart is too lazy to think negatively about 'friends'. He thought, Tin might overslept and his phone ran out of battery. With that in mind, Can slept without burden. Hoping that tomorrow, his relationship with Tin will return back to normal.

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"Why? Why Can? What are my flaws ??? I've done everything for you. I always try to be near you whenever I can, I even wait for you every time you practice football. Why do you always received my kisses? But now, why do you say you just want to be friends with me after I declared my love ?? Do you think it's easy for me to say it? I was afraid that if I say it, you're going to stay away from me. But seeing you always close to your football team's made me unable to hold back my feelings. I just want you to be mine, Can. "

Along the way, Tin no longer paid attention to the streets around him. He even broke red lights many times. For now, his mind is very frantic. All the happiness he got after getting to know Can, disappeared without a trace.

When he arrived at his grand house, Tin ignored the buttler who greeted him and asked something that he did not paid attention to at all. He went straight to the bathroom in his room and let the shower wet his body, still wearing full clothes.

"Can we just be friends?"

The question and expression on Can's face, which seemed to be begging, continued to come to his mind.

* I never want to be your friend, Can. NEVER!!! I've fallen in love too deeply with you, Can. I don't know how to escape from my love for you. Right now I'm broken, more broken than when I found out about my brother's betrayal. More than when your friend grabbed my only best friend (He talked about Ae who's dating his bestie, Pete). More devastating than when my mother ignored me. More devastated than all the pain I've been through *

Tin kept crying under the shower and kept calling Can's name in each breath. Don't know how long he was there. He didn't even care about his shivering body and his lips that's beginning to turn blue. If only Aunt Nam didn't go into his room to offer dinner, maybe no one would've known that Tin has passed out at that time. Aunt Nam immediately called several servants and family drivers to help her. The maid prepared the young master's change of clothes and prepared warm water to compress, while the driver helped change his clothes. After all, the female servants didn't dare to change the young master's clothes.

Shortly, the Methanan family doctor came and examined the condition of Tin who was still unconscious. But the doctor said, Tin would be fine after waking up later. He just needed enough rest. After leaving the medicine, the doctor immediately returned home.

After the family doctor left, only Aunt Nam still stayed in that big room. She is an servant who has been caring for Tin since childhood. She was the one who understood Tin best in the this golden cage. Aunt Nam remembered that Tin was a very cheerful child. His laughter was always heard in every corner of the house. The last time he saw Tin laughed was when he was 7 or 8 years old. And since then Aunt Nam never saw Tin laugh again, let alone happy. His cold face always stuck to his face. Tin never talked to anyone for long, except to Aunt Nam. Sometimes Tin tells stories about his campus and Pete, his only friend. But he never mentioned the reason why Tin's change to be the Ice Prince like now. Before Tin turned 10, Auntie had asked her. But every time she asked, her young master never answered. He always changed the subject or leaves Aunt Nam alone. Since then, she realized that the wound was too deep for a child as small as Tin, so Aunt Nam never asked again. She was only determined to make his beloved young master' feel happy in this palace, even if only a little.

Aunt Nam continued to replace the compress cloth and covered Tin with a thick blanket. Every now and then he gently rubs his favorite young master's hair. After almost an hour, Tin woke up. Aunt Nam immediately took warm water for Tin to drink.

"Aunt Nam, what happened?" Tin's hoarse voice broke the silence in the room.

"Young master, what are you doing ??? You want to kill Auntie by making me worry, huh ??? ", answered Aunt Nam in the middle of her sobs.

"Aaauunnttiieee... Sorry......".

There isn't any word that Tin can say other than sorry. He knew, Aunt Nam must have been very worried about him. If there is someone Tin doesn't want to see crying, that woul be Aunt Nam. Because he loved her more than his own biological mother.

"Sorry Auntie ... I don't know why I'm being like that. I....".

"Sshhh ... There's no need to apologize to Auntie. The important thing now is that you have regained consciousness. Now, how do you feel? Dizzy? Nauseous? Or what???".

"Just a little dizzy, Auntie. And hungry", replied Tin, smiling a little. He only gave his smile to his beloved Auntie Nam.

"Yes, you just lie down first. Auntie will make a porridge for you. After that you have to take medicine and take a rest. I beg you, please don't make me worry, young master.

"Yes Auntie. I promise".

"Wait a minute, I'll go to the kitchen first, Young Master".

After Aunt Nam's body disappeared behind the door, the room was quiet again. And the pain that sliced Tin's heart crawled back in.

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Finally finished also Chapter 1 FF. Please, comment, does this FF need to be continued or even unpublished ????