"i need you to tell me i can do this. i know i said i don't want to be dependent, but i need you. you're the only person who's ever seen this side of me and not been completely repulsed. even my sister cringed, and she's one of the most understanding people i know. but you, you never judged, or made comments, or anything. you just held me and told me i was going to be okay, that i didn't need the alcohol, or the needle, or the blade. you told me everything was going to be okay. and it's just not. it's not that easy."