"i did it again, i cut myself. i would apologise, but it'd be meaningless because i'm not sorry. i'm not sorry at all, because you said you'd be here at times like this! you said you'd be here when i needed you, goddammit, and you're not! you're not fucking here and i am, and it's not fair! it's not fair that you get to be happy with her and i have to sit here alone, bleeding and crying and drunk because you promised you'd be here and you're not."