You never believed that Sirius Black had something to do with the death of your beloved friends James and Lily. You and Sirius were together al throughout your Hogwarts years, you knew how much he loved James, he knew how much you loved Lily, she was to you what James was to Sirius. When they were killed you were devastated, you were even more heartbroken when Sirius got blamed for it. You had lost everything, including the love of your life. When Sirius got taken to Azkaban you never even had time to say goodbye, the only place you found comfort was Hogwarts. Being a teacher at Hogwarts, had always been your dream and a year after Sirius was taken Dumbledore offered you a job as the new Herbology teacher. You quite happily took the job, after some years a boy who looked very familiar walked into Hogwarts. You immediately introduced yourself and became very close with him. He was after all the kid of your best friends.

"Harry, what did I tell you?" Harry smiled at you before giving you a hug "if anything's wrong I know, you're only a letter away." "And don't forget it." You waved at him as he got on the train. This year had been a weird year, a good year, but weird. This was the year you had finally met Harry and had gotten very close with him, it was the year Sirius escaped Azkaban, it was also the year you started seeing someone again. For the first time in 12 years you had dared to say yes, and honestly he was a nice guy. You had met him in the three broomsticks, and even though he was no Sirius, he was the first guy that had made you laugh in a very long time. You were going on a date again tonight but since Sirius had escaped from Azkaban you were quite nervous. Sirius had always been possessive over you, but he couldn't be mad at you for dating someone else after twelve years right? Honestly you didn't even know if he still thought about you, let alone still loved you.

As you got ready for your date you felt like you were being watched. You chose to ignore it and put on a nice tight black dress, it hugged your body perfectly. You paired it with simple heels, and you were ready to go. You just couldn't shake that awful feeling, even though you had tried to ignore it. You didn't even have time to think about it, because there was a loud knock on your door. Assuming it was your date you opened it. You were quite shocked to see who it really was "Hello love, missed me?" "S-Sirius?" "The one and only." "What are you doing here?" "That's no way to greet me after twelve years now is it? And if your worried about your date: I already cancelled for you." You were confused to say the least and noticed annoyance in Sirius his voice. "what did you do to him?" Sirius let out a small laugh "nothing I just waited until he walked towards your door and scared him a little." Sirius looked you up and down. "And you're really dating someone else? Really?" He said in an angry tone. He walked into your home, looking around. You did not like this attitude. "It has been twelve years Sirius, how could I have known you would come back?" Sirius looked at you, anger written over his face "yes! It has been twelve years! Twelve years in Azkaban where the only thing that kept me going was the thought of you, holding you, kissing you! And now you are out here acting like a slut!" You walked over to him and got right in his face. In a serious tone you said "Lets get one thing straight Sirius black, you will not come in my house and disrespect me!" Sirius was a little taken back from your outburst "and by the way Sirius, the guy you just scared of is the first one I have dated since you were gone! If I had said yes to every single one of the guys who wanted to date me I would have enough guys for every day of the goddamn year!" Sirius was just staring at you, eyes wide open. "And don't forget that you were the one who went away!" "I didn't go away by choice and you know it! I didn't have anything to do with it, and still they took me!" "I know, I'm sorry" you're eyes softened. Sirius looked very frustrated. "I meant it when I said that the only thing that kept me going was you." "I know Sirius, the thought of you kept me going as well, I can not even imagine how hard it must have been for you." His eyes became watery, you opened your arms and pulled him into a hug. After a little while you made him some tea and the two of you sat down on the couch. Sirius spoke up "Do you love him?" You looked at him, quite shocked. "Y/N Its okay, I get it" You shook your head "I don't love him Sirius, I have only ever loved you." Sirius gave you a small smile.

The two of you talked a lot that night about anything and everything, and before you knew it, it was already way past midnight. "It's getting late I should get going." "No wait, would you maybe like to stay the night?" "Are you sure Y/N?" You nodded "I've missed you so much Sirius, I need you to stay." He nodded and you took his hand leading him upstairs, to .... sleep.

A/N

pt 2 is coming soon! Sorry I haven't been posting a lot lately, I know it's also not my best work! But I've been really busy studying and had a little writers block. I hope you enjoy anyways!